Absorbing the Disarray

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Existential thoughts swirling through a wicked mind Who, where, why am i? can't grasp my surroundings What is this place? a figment of my imagination Or the place where my body dwells No feelings left behind this skin Aching for my obsession Try to fight it off but in vain Why? Can't get rid of this disease, a shell am i No compassion or sympathy Try to feel but no success, fall deeper inside Inside where nothing soon exists I must disgust the vile To make myself feel alive No reason found for this atrocious life Bent out of shape Twisted to fit it's own reflection Disconnected from this world, a plague am i A carnivore to be set free Thrive in all things that are wicked, foul are my ways Hide in the shadows of sanity Flashes of torture awake my pulse, my breath, my being Ferocious will to end all life Everywhere i look i see prey My instincts and senses peak Try to repress but it's futile They will see my endless wrath Vomit from the taste of my sickness Return to their origin they shall Die! I must disgust the vile To make myself feel alive I'm an obscene anomaly The bile of all combined Degrading thoughts swirling through a determined mind What will i become? Understanding my surroundings No feelings left behind this skin Aching for my obsession They will see my endless wrath Die!

Submitted by Pestilence — Apr 26, 2025

Entangled in hysteria and deceiving thoughts Mind's lost control, seeking bliss Urging for salvation through rage Occupied with self reduction, deny the body control Naked, not confined, steady gaze, endless seeking Violent dreams of atrocity Images of bloodsoaked grounds Perverted thoughts of twisted ways Bring pain unto others Give onto them what they deserve Feeble ones that lack the meaning, their only purpose is to prance Aggravated by the fact that mind and body can't work as one Body rejoice when the mind is drawn into an endless battle Recollections, shapeless memories, penetrating and deforming Twisted visions, bringing back the rising awareness, mind is conscious They're pitiful and ignorant, their whole existence makes me sick A soulless pile of wasted flesh, makes me spasm and grizzle teeth Their infected souls make me spew, they're sending shivers down my spine Enslave them all and bring them down This is my time, now i will rise Overwhelmed by abhorrence, taking over, growing stronger Shocks the mind, despise all living Confront the fear to fill the void Regain control of the body that had been disconnected Repressed needs deep inside, i set my vice free Darkness shapes me, possessed by unholy ones Violent dreams of atrocity, images of bloodsoaked grounds Perverted thoughts of twisted ways Bring pain unto others, give onto them what they deserve Feeble ones that lack the meaning, Their only purpose is to prance Astounded by the amazing power of an instinct to slay Obliterate, annihilate, exterminate, eliminate Without control, extreme torment will be brought to this depraved race To kill, to wound, to mutilate. i'm born again, the demons are set free They're pitiful and ignorant, their whole existence makes me sick A soulless pile of wasted flesh, makes me spasm and grizzle teeth Their infected souls make me spew, they're sending shivers down my spine Enslave them all and bring them down This is my time, now i will rise

Submitted by Immortal — Apr 26, 2025

Rushing adrenaline tearing through my body, Clearing every doubt Absurd amount of rage is soon to be released, My own perfection seems so clear What once was embryonic now forthcoming rapidly What once was small now mounting, swiftly rising in my soul What once was trapped and hidden has been gathered and built up What once was shapeless, abstract, now forming, soon defined Hatred rise As i launch into attack Fuels my mind Mounted wrath unfold Causing pain Infecting my unclean mind Go berserk To rid this sensation My head hurts so bad, sends flashes before my eyes My goal seems so clear, have to project my hate Victim captured, beaten, succumb to my goal bizarre Fury that was pending, now has been released Every bone is broken, perversion now sets in Perpetual torment commence Rejecting all this unfulfilled life Feeble one, by weakness tainted mind Start to bleed tour innocence all over me Blade moves quick across the face and neck What once was embryonic now forthcoming rapidly What once was small now mounting, swiftly rising in my soul What once was trapped and hidden has been gathered and built up What once was shapeless, abstract, now forming, soon defined Victim bound, gagged, tortured, succumb to my goal bizarre Severely battered body, helpless at my will Desperate cries for mercy, only fuels my rage Perpetual torment commence Bleed for me Rushing adrenaline tore through my body, Has cleared every doubt, Absurd amount of rage has now been released My own perfection, almost complete

Submitted by VladTheImpaler666 — Apr 26, 2025

All covered in blood, heart is still beating fast, shivering from the arousal Take a step back to admire the work, laughing in hysterical madness The body's twitching still, recently deceased This emotion is superior, exceeding all i've ever felt Temporarily, but soon comes to a halt The twitching decreases, quick diminishment, and soon comes to a stop My previous excitement and satisfaction Disappears entirely, gets washed away Total panic is rising inside me A swift encounter with my illness The body lies in a pool of it's own blood Bleeding has come to a stop now All senses numb, i'm feeling utter apathy As i'm inspecting the body The truth of my survival, even though not spoken loud Must lie within the acts of death, proceed to set me free I must pursue what seems to be the only logical step Look into the dead empty eyes, staring into nothingness The expression on his face is fixed, tormented grin His hands are tightly closed, the knuckles colored white All the limbs are stiff, rigor mortis has set in The body lies in a pool of it's own blood, Bleeding has come to a stop now All senses numb, i'm feeling utter apathy, As i'm inspecting the body The truth of my survival, even though not spoken loud Must lie within the acts of death, proceed to set me free I must pursue what seems to be the only logical step

Submitted by Cyberwaste — Apr 26, 2025

The rotten body lies before me Blood still dripping from the wounds Can't have this fucker looking at me Eyes wide open, intense gaze Force my thumbs into the eyes, press them back into the head See them burst open wide, covering my hands as it smears Grab the skull. it's slippery, hard to find a real good grip Hard to find the perfect grip Insert a hook in the back of the head Elevate the body a few feet of the ground Remove all clothes, expose the cadaver Swirling and rocking from side to side Tearing from the body, removing all the skin Rotten flesh and tissue has been revealed Glance across the tools, need something sharp to open him Hacking in the flesh with a pair of gleaming scissors Inserting them into the abdomen and cut it up Out spills the entrails, falling to the floor Cleaning him out, nothing stays inside Scrape up his waste, put them in a bucket I seek to find redemption, salvation for my mind Succumb to my aggression, redeem the ill treated I find my stimulation in pain beyond control I have to push on harder to maintain this feeling Covet the pain-covet the kill Demanding pain-demanding kill Grab my pliers and cut the spine The nerve chords are pouring out into his chest cavity Moving up onto his skull, crack it open even more Clutch the brain firm and steady, start to pull It gives in easily, the head is emptied, brain put in a jar With a jigsaw i open up the torso The heart and lungs now lay exposed The scissors release them from their attachments The body's now been emptied and all has been taken out Leave the butchered carcass hanging from a shining hook Turn off the lights and leave the room, yet still i'm not fullfilled I seek to find redemption, salvation for my mind Succumb to my aggression, redeem the ill treated I find my stimulation in pain beyond control I have to push on harder to maintain this feeling Covet the pain-covet the kill Demanding pain-demanding kill

Submitted by Sexy Gargoyle — Apr 26, 2025

Return exhausted to the furthest corners of existence Contemplating the actions executed Still no reaction, no mental spark Nothing ignites, nothing triggers the soul The only awakening drug is mayhem and chaos I reek of indifference Disillusioned by my perception There's no way back Spiralling down this horrid path with no return Absorbing the disarray Morbid attraction consumes my sanity As i'm feeding off the frenzy Red is all i see, black is all i feel Dreams and thoughts turn against me They seek the devastation of my mind To free themselves The ignorance possessed by me gnaws at my humanity Oblivious to this fact, hatred plants it's seed in me Inside i'm rotting, i'm slowly disappearing As my madness is spreading like ripples on water Everlasting inner battle between sane and insane Co-existence is not an option The eradication of one kills the other They churn and grind at eachother Causing lethal friction to close prey The rotten core of my inner self Screams and spits at all living matter Contradicts my own being Absorbing the disarray Gone seems all hope of recovery I'm engulfed in a vile mental world

Submitted by Morgoth — Apr 26, 2025

My previous deeds are considered vile My wicked self triumph, the weaker one will perish The smell of blood gives me the ultimate high This realization only makes me yearn for more Lost this high, i once had and greatly crave I have to claim the right to feed my deepest urge To silence my weak self, that no more slumbers Fighting within my self To keep each other down Have to make it stop Need blood Crave blood Sweet blood Fresh blood Silence the voices, bring my relief Need blood Crave blood Sweet blood Fresh blood Force back the feeble that dwells in my head Sinful are my thoughts of blood, Gushing through open wounds Tremble by the thought of blood, Flowing like rivers wide Without it i am just a shadow of myself Transparent, meaningless, powerless With it i will rise and rule over you all This is it, the need for blood, is in control Need blood Crave blood Sweet blood Fresh blood Silence the voices, bring my relief Need blood Crave blood Sweet blood Fresh blood Force back the feeble that dwells in my head

Submitted by MetalElf — Apr 26, 2025

Driven by hatred, repulsion boils up Direct it towards the plague of the earth The need for the massacre has fully set in The rotten part is in control, enthralled by disgust Time to take the next step, what rules should apply? Time to find a new prey, will i be able to decide? The hunt has commenced Seeking out my prey Hiding in the back. lurking in the dark Keeping out of sight. pot a victim soon Closing in on it. sneaking up on her Feels me coming near. panic's setting in Heart is beating fast. rigid from the fright Kick her down, shut her up, drag her to my nest By the time she wakes up everything is dark Strapped down hard to a chair in a filthy cell She's fighting violently, screaming profanities, Cursing at my name, irritate my mind Getting on my nerves, spitting in my face Makes me burst out with hysteric madness She will die By my blade. take her life. strike her down. make her bleed Hit her hard. force her down. on her knees. make her plead Weeping, crying, moaning, screaming, begging for her life Break her bones. hear them snap. see her pain. make me laugh Cut some more. see the flesh. blood is shed. filthy whore Fighting, spitting, twitching, struggling, trying to get free This is not enough, not enough to please, not enough for me Must increase the dose of this brutality to satisfy my needs The bitch is screaming in excessive pain Begging for forgiveness in hope to save her soul The desperate look of trepidation fuels my hate Builds up my need to aggravate her situation Grab a sharpened knife, cutting off her heel, unable to walk Loosing all the ropes, she falls to the floor Now she starts to crawl, trying to escape Laughing at this whore, bleeding on the floor, reaching for the door With a kick to her face, i stop her lame attempt She regurgitates, choking on her blood By my blade. take her life. strike her down. make her bleed Hit her hard. force her down. on her knees. make her plead Weeping, crying, moaning, screaming, begging for her life Break her bones. hear them snap. see her pain. make me laugh Cut some more. see the flesh. blood is shed. filthy whore Fighting, spitting, twitching, struggling, trying to get free The glimpse in her eyes has now disappeared, she has given up No struggle, no noise, no movement, no spark, No will to live on Suddenly all this behaviour seems insane What am i doing? hesitates A suddenweep brings me back Fuck this bitch, she will die

Submitted by Infernal Flame — Apr 26, 2025

I rule them all, still no one gives me praise I dominate them all, still no one gives me awe I control them all, still no one bends their knee I dictate them all, still no one will succumb Obedience and full surrender is what i demand From those i chose to let live Yield to my awesome strength I am an overwhelming force Weak, pathetic, wretched ones Still makes pitiful attempts to struggle Their weak resistance will be useless, my powers go beyond Time to right what's wrong and punish those who won't obey Full confrontation now seems certain, chaos will be wrought Slaughter will be brought upon those who stand in my path I'm in a manic state, with a hollow gaze Hatred boils, and needs to be set free Weak ones are cast down at my will Surrender or be conquered As a flock of sheep, i preside over their souls I shall see that in their hearts nothing but fear will reside I will be bringer of mayhem I will be bringer of disorder I will be bringer of chaos Bring forth the bedlam Your time is out The march towards oblivion begins I will lead your way Whipped towards extinction As my judgement upon the world is about to be carried out A splinter in my mind stops my final ruling What is right, what is wrong? everything. nothing A subconsciousness i thought repressed starts to rise I will be bringer of mayhem I will be bringer of disorder Bring forth the bedlam Once again the existential thoughts runs through my mind A distant part still dwells inside me, feeding me it's doubts Been disconnected from this world, what have i become? Bi-polar needs through satisfaction of mind detachment

Submitted by NecroLord — Apr 26, 2025

Benign virus On the verge of solitude Malignant cure On the brink of extinction A flawless black With an endless wrath A tainted white On a cleansing path Both shackled by the face of red A shadow of aggravation and indifference An entity of desperation and short-termed bliss The schizophrenic emptiness flowing through my veins Burns and stings like a venomous bite Abysmal loathing for the inner gemini Catalyst for the final struggle The mind floats between a two-dimensional world Dividing the body, straining it's movement Only one can reign this organic paradox I need to shed my mirrored self I am the final and the absolute We are the just and the unjust I am the beginning and the wavering We are the irony of ourselves The logic of this realm is clear Yet distorted with no sense It's purpose both revealed and hidden Depending on the angle of sight Bouncing violently in a vortex of tranquillity A vivid calm showers me, leaving me dry and withered Now a moving stagnation, forced to a standstill Due to the imminent failure of the soul Benign virus, on the verge of solitude Malignant cure, on the brink of extinction I am the final and the absolute We are the just and the unjust I am the beginning and the wavering We are the irony of ourselves I am the final and the winner We are the end with no beginning I am the final and the loser We are the reversal of the living

Submitted by Infernal Flame — Apr 26, 2025