Happiness in Self Destruction

This room was empty Holes in the walls, I'm fucking melting Destined to fall, do you feel me? It's pulling me further away My family's breaking and I'm giving myself all the blame How do you explain that you've been so low? You'd steal just to keep your stomach full and your habits up I've played that game, my time is done Alone, afraid to move an inch on a binge It's like they've left me here just to reflect on my sins Overdosed, so fucking close Sometimes it takes losing everything, the life I chose Maybe, it's just me And I'll fight it off, I'll find myself Maybe, it's just me And I'll fight it off, I'll find myself Maybe it's just me and I can't see, I'm hurting everyone that found me Every word that I said, all the shit that I fed into the brains of the hopeless I will take you nowhere, I will teach you nothing So please, just trust me Open the door just to see This room was empty Holes in the walls, I'm fucking melting Destined to fall, do you feel me? It's pulling me further away My family's breaking and I'm giving myself all the blame Maybe, it's just me And I'll fight it off, I'll find myself Maybe, it's just me And I'll fight it off, I'll find myself Maybe, it's just me And I'll fight it off, I'll find myself (And I'll fight it off, I'll find myself) I'll fight it off, I'll push it out I'll make a change, I'll make you proud (And I'll fight it off, I'll find myself) I'll fight it off, I'll push it out I'll make a change, I'll make you proud (And I'll fight it off, I'll find myself) I'll fight it off, I'll push it out I'll make a change, I'll make you proud (And I'll fight it off, I'll find myself) I'll fight it off, I'll push it out I'll make a change, I'll make you proud (And I'll fight it off, I'll find myself)

Submitted by Finntroll — Feb 22, 2026

Scared for my life, I'm breathing and keeping thoughts away Well it's a shame I'm too afraid to fall asleep It's insane how far we'll go and what we'll do to keep them from pain It's my life, it's my time, it's my code I live by I'll just keep telling myself that it's right and I'm fine Wash away my sin, I'm trapped in this hole again I can see you and me on a slate that was clean I pushed my limits now you think I'm like the pigs in the street I could hardly spend a minute in reality Getting help was like a vision I was fathoming I was weak, you would all speak and try to save me but I was taken like a tragedy (I was taken like a tragedy) Wash away my sin, I'm trapped in this hole again It's sickening to see, you know this act isn't me, I'm trapped in this hole again I fall asleep to escape all the guilt and all the pain Pillowcases soaked in blood, I smoked away my fucking lungs And if it hurts you just to face me And if you're trying to erase me Know I'll be waiting for the next time And I'll be praying that you take my life Wash away my sin, I'm trapped in this hole again It's sickening to see, you know this act isn't me, I'm trapped in this hole again Trapped in this hole again! The less you care, the less it hurts You can mask it or you can take your own fucking life I can see you and me on a slate that was clean I pushed my limits now you think I'm like the pigs in the street I could hardly spend a minute in reality Getting help was like a vision I was fathoming I was weak, you would all speak and try to save me But I was taken like a tragedy I've been taken, I've been taken I've been taken like a tragedy I've been taken, I've been taken I've been taken like a tragedy

Submitted by Finntroll — Feb 22, 2026

The day you passed away Something about this place changed We were waiting for signals of love But you were cold and I guess you'd had enough Spoke my name, I felt your pain As your eyes cloud up, and then close shut I saw your soul leave this room like it was sick of you You had this look on your face like you were thinking Just take me away, I'll never change (I'll never change) Take me away, I will never change My father was broken and low And I saw a side that he'd never shown So many secrets he'd kept Some things he was forced to accept Spoke my name, I felt your pain As your eyes cloud up, and then close shut I saw your soul leave this room like it was sick of you You had this look on your face like you were thinking Just take me away, I'll never change Take me away, I will never change Crossed his heart and hoped to die I know you fought so hard And held your pride I wish you knew my thoughts And heard my voice 'Cause I was tied in knots But stood with poise And when you spoke my name I felt your pain as your eyes cloud up then closed shut I saw your soul leave this room like it was sick of you You had this look on your face like you were thinking Just take me away, I'll never change Take me away, I will never change

Submitted by Finntroll — Feb 22, 2026

Thrown me away Paralyze me I'm realizing Day by day it passes by me uninviting Counting the days You're running away from me Running from everything Doubting my faith in everything I believe Taken so casually Maybe it's just in my head Or all the cruel things that we've said I'm not a fool and I am no pawn in your game Running away Trying to get away from me Running away Trying to get the best of me Counting the days You're running away from me Running from everything Doubting my faith in everything I believe Taken so casually Losing my faith Losing my faith I'm losing my faith in you Numb to the pain from all the disappointment I'm ashamed, I'm afraid of my options I'm a loose end I'm a deadbeat I'm the one writing words cause I can't sleep Numb to the pain from all the disappointment I'm ashamed, I'm afraid of my options I'm a loose end I'm a deadbeat I'm the one writing words cause I can't sleep Numb Numb to all the pain You can live with regret I'll hang myself up to dry Till then I'm counting the days You're running away from me Running from everything Doubting my faith in everything I believe Taken so casually Losing my faith Losing my faith I'm losing faith in you

Submitted by Finntroll — Feb 22, 2026

I thought I was a god, thought I'd never die Snort a bump and lose a night faking friends and losing my sanity Stuck my fingers down her throat and held her hair back Now I'm just another fuck you killed a twelve pack with We're gods, we're kings, we're substance fiends Who really cares who it hurts when we fill our needs We're gods, we're kings and I'm lifeless Guess that's what I get for living with my vices You say you think you can help So just break me Make me the way you want me Break me Until I owe you nothing Don't get too close, I've been known to manipulate I've got this drip in my throat that would devastate God I'm afraid that my friends might hate me Getting clean's like an insult lately We'd stop but I've got this craving I'm stuck in here So just break me Make me the way you want me Break me Until I owe you nothing Bet it makes you sick to see me faded out Sleeping in my own puke, aren't you proud? You're all better off when I'm not around I promise you Can't eat, can't sleep, can't fuck, can't dream It's a powdered trap and I can't get free Maybe I'm just like them And I'm just a fiend and I can't get clean Break me Make me the way you want me Break me Until I owe you nothing Get clean you filth It's like a ringing in my ears They beg and they plead Get clean, get clean, get clean, you fiend, you fiend Get clean, get clean, get clean, you fiend, you fiend I thought I was a god, thought I'd never die Snort a bump and lose a night faking friends and losing my sanity Stuck my fingers down her throat and held her hair back Now I'm just another fuck you killed a twelve pack with We're gods, we're kings, we're substance fiends Who really cares who it hurts when we fill our needs We're gods, we're kings and I'm lifeless Guess that's what I get for living with my vices You say you think you can help So just break me Make me the way you want me Break me Until I owe you nothing

Submitted by Finntroll — Feb 22, 2026

We were drinking, making jokes that night Popped a pill or two and just stayed outside She was hinting at more, I couldn't stop or ignore How could I say no? She was careless, I could not see straight Couldn't stay, I had too much on my plate You were angry and scared, I was never prepared To take this on So I brace myself and place myself for better vibes And it just keeps getting harder now Suddenly you wanna fucking leave me here Take a minute to collect yourself You know that you've got a tendency to fuck things up And we're in the worst possible state that we could get to Some days I must admit that I can hardly look at you What's wrong, what's wrong with me? If you're so sick and tired of being admired, let me free I brace myself and place myself for better vibes And it just keeps getting harder now Suddenly you wanna fucking leave me here Fade away, fade away Or fuel my never ending flame Fade away, fade away Cause things could never be the same I brace myself and place myself for better vibes And it just keeps getting harder now Suddenly you wanna fucking leave me here

Submitted by Finntroll — Feb 22, 2026

Drown this awful sound It makes me clench my jaw and now it's all around It's time I leave this town Last time I went away I came back to a pillhead faded away You're disgusting, I'm adjusting to reality Breaking me and shaking me and now you're like an enemy Such a waste of a great mind You've had a taste of the wrong kind Don't bring me down with you I'm not gonna die with the guy that made me think that Blowing 30's was fine I'm nothing like you, I've already been there before It's a hole, it's a trap that always blinds you Two dead souls, waiting for another hit Two dead souls, just pass if you can't handle it 'Cause it's a game to see which one of us will die first It's like a plague we're caving in we've got the same thirst I sink into my bed, like the old days All my friends are rocking xannies, it's the new craze Please! Crush another two, and, wait a minute I saw a pair of eyes watching me, as I was in it Fuck me for trying to get my life back in line! It's not my fault that you have no self-control and you're blind! Two dead souls, waiting for another hit Two dead souls, just pass if you can't handle it 'Cause it's a game to see which one of us will die first It's like a plague we're caving in we've got the same thirst (Die like your brothers and your father if it's so good But just remember that they'd take it back if they could) Die like your brothers and your father if it's so good But just remember that they'd take it back if they could Die like your brothers and your father if it's so good But just remember that they'd take it back if they could Yes I'd lost self-control but that's not where it ends And though I miss you and I think of you I can't change this all again You mean everything to me and I hope that you get clean Two dead souls waiting for another hit Two dead souls, just pass if you can't handle it Cus it's a game to see which one of us will die first It's like a plague we're caving in we've got the same thirst

Submitted by Finntroll — Feb 22, 2026

Did you assume we’d forget this Were you expecting their forgiveness Are you that bold and that cold To think they’d let you run around in the streets as a witness I never thought it was your fault (No) I never thought it’d be this cold Now I’m in a mess, it’s probably best You get away from this place Or give up and confess They know, they know where you are Better run, better hide fast Just know you’re never too far away Doesn’t it make sense now? What’s wrong? How you're strong for a man bringing us down Every day it’s a chance to repay all the debts that you owe To the friends that you hate Mind controlled you You keep playing games but know that you've been told Remember They know, they know where you are Better run, better hide fast Just know you’re never too far away We want you back to the clean man we once knew and respected Can't believe you stole from the people Who took you in when you were neglected Let you in just to be manipulated Speak and crawl while contemplating Cross this off my list, no more charity I’m sick of writing songs about you But it’s the only way to vent They know, they know where you are Better run, better hide fast Just know you’re never too far away Pray away It won’t save your soul It won’t change your faith So just fade away God won’t save you now So just shut your mouth

Submitted by Finntroll — Feb 22, 2026

I let my days slip away We swore we’d never change And we’d stay the same But time changes everything Let my head get in the way Kept getting wasted and pilled out The highs that I feel now are nothing the same Keep to myself Keep ignoring my health While you all play it safe 'Cause I never felt so alive No, I never felt so alive No, I never felt so alive I let my days slip away We swore we’d never change And we’d stay the same Time changes everything Let my head get in the way I kept her calling for days I’m just the ghost of a good fucking soul, just a phase (It’s just a phase) Swallow my pride whilst the ones that I can’t touch as I drift away Fade away Can’t forgive myself Can’t forget yesterday I let my days slip away We swore we’d never change And we’d stay the same Time changes everything Sink into a place Into a self-induced coma Hear the walls sing, clench your fists and just float on Sink into a place Into a self-induced coma Hear the walls sing, clench your fists and just float on 'Cause I never felt so alive No, I never felt so alive I let my days slip away We swore we’d never change And we’d stay the same Time changes everything I let my days slip away We swore we’d never change And we’d stay the same Time changes everything I let my days slip away We swore we’d never change And we’d stay the same But time changes everything

Submitted by Finntroll — Feb 22, 2026

Scared, I'm off again Cut me up, I'm thrown away As much as I pretend There's still a fault that I can't tame Who knows, who knows If I'll be kicking I'll be living for the next try Who knows, who knows 'Cause I've been using I've been choosing all the same lines You think you got me, you think you got me figured out? It's been too long and you're quick to judge things Without taking the time to see for yourself I've been living your dream And I don't ever wanna wake up Through these times I became Another voice for the fucked up I've been living a dream (I've been living a dream) Come on You're just remembering all the pain But we were young and you were selfish too And nothing can phase you What's changed? Do you wish I was dead? Do you hope, do you pray I'm a lost cause? Was it something I did? 'Cause I'll push and I'll fight til it's all gone I've been living your dream And I don't ever wanna wake up Through these times I became Another voice for the fucked up I've been living a dream (I've been living a dream) I've been living your dream I've been living your dream Living your dream You call me a dead man You said I'd never fucking make it to this point And I'm so glad to see your life start to crumble While I'm living your dream

Submitted by Finntroll — Feb 22, 2026

Cornered and stripped down Eyes on the whole crowd Drenched in your sweat, you crawl away (You crawl away) And I'm sick of dropping hints You ran us dry and fucked with friends You're dead, fucking dead, and we're hungry Brought your girl so you're not so lonely I say, we hold this motherfucker down Stomp his head 'til his lips stop moving I say, we cut him all up, burn his body 'til he's nothing but ashes I say that you've had enough time to come to your senses And it's probably my fault For letting things go and giving you second chances You seem lost and afraid, I have a soft spot It's my fall that you crave And that's why I say, we hold this motherfucker down Stomp his head 'til his lips stop moving I say, we cut him all up, burn his body 'til he's nothing but ashes Damned if I do, damned if I don't Wish it wasn't me but that's how it always goes Screaming like a girl as we're ripping off your clothes You're gonna die in shame so that everybody knows Damned if I do, damned if I don't Wish it wasn't me but that's how it always goes Screaming like a girl as we're ripping off your clothes You're gonna die in shame so that everybody knows I say, we hold this motherfucker down Stomp his head 'til his lips stop moving I say, we cut him all up, burn his body 'til he's nothing but ashes Taking time for peace of mind One less mouth for us to feed Taking time for peace of mind One less mouth for us to feed Taking time for peace of mind One less mouth for us to feed Feed

Submitted by Finntroll — Feb 22, 2026

At fifteen I was starting to see Consequences for selfish intentions My father was right, the best parts of life Are the times when we let our faults kill our pride Waiting back on the words that I've spoken A different man at a different time, I think I'm chosen Some days I fucking hate the fact that I'm broken But all the trust and all the times they kept me going I've tried to stay sober, I've fought to get over The nights that I've wasted, the pills left me faded I just can't remember, my thoughts are dismembered I crumble so quickly, I can't just forgive me Forgive me, forgive me For always breaking all my promises Believe me, I won't stay Away from everything that's killing me Made my mother out to be abusive and carelessly Ruin my family name We were penniless and you were so desperate to stay sane But your emotions were delicate I've tried to stay sober, I've fought to get over The nights that I've wasted, the pills left me faded I just can't remember, my thoughts are dismembered I crumble so quickly, I can't just forgive me Forgive me, forgive me For always breaking all my promises Believe me, I won't stay Away from everything that's killing me Forgive me, forgive me For always breaking all my promises Believe me, I won't stay Away from everything that's killing me Forgive me, forgive me For always breaking all my promises Believe me, I won't stay Away from everything that's killing me At fifteen I was starting to see Consequences for selfish intentions My father was right, the best parts of life Are the times when we let our faults kill our pride

Submitted by Finntroll — Feb 22, 2026

They ask me why I hardly speak these days Sometimes it’s better not to say a word and hide my face It’s hard to feel love, it’s hard to find peace There was a time I thought these things but that’s the old me What if I'm, what if I’m made for Something else, something some died for It's not enough, it never seems to be enough I’ve got a vision and its something you know nothing of It’s all Déjà vu And it will never feel real to you I’ve crossed the line and there’s no going back this time How could this happen to me I feel that I missed my time (I feel that I missed my time) Struggle and scratch 'til we bleed I swear that I’ll be just fine (I swear that I’ll be just fine) They see me, they hear me They try to twist around the words I spoke clearly I'm sad to see that honesty’s is no longer what they’re wanting from me They’re seeking lines about false hope About a world that is fixable They’re craving lies but I’m too cynical And to this world you are invisible How could this happen to me I feel that I missed my time (I feel that I missed my time) Struggle and scratch 'til we bleed I swear that I’ll be just fine (I swear that I’ll be just fine) I’m slaving and dreaming I’m constantly dreaming Slapped in my face, drained all my veins Been searching for someone to care (been searching for someone to care) How could this happen to me I feel that I missed my time (I feel that I missed my time) Struggle and scratch 'til we bleed I swear that I’ll be just fine (I swear that I’ll be just fine) How could this happen to me I feel that I missed my time (I feel that I missed my time) Struggle and scratch 'til we bleed I swear that I’ll be just fine (I swear that I’ll be just fine)

Submitted by Finntroll — Feb 22, 2026

Thirteen years old, addicted to cigarettes And both his parents were scared to death when he walked through the door Baptized at twelve, laughed it off And swore he pissed in the water that had cleansed his soul We'd been breaking into cars, taking stereos And there he goes, down the alleyway, shit's not the same I miss the days when violence and carelessness were no expense but shit's not the same Your heart may beat but you're not alive And it makes me sick to see you all strung out Desperate you take what you've been deprived Happiness in self destruction Your heart may beat but you're not alive And it makes me sick to see you all strung out Desperate you take what you've been deprived Happiness in self destruction And do you remember the time you took 100 bucks from your momma's purse and we were so excited But you came and got your older brother to buy us some beer and it was so clear I fucking hate myself for letting you get hooked on all the shit that you were on I promise you next time I'll be strong I cherish you, I remember every time you bailed me out And it's safe to say I won't be bailing now Your heart may beat but you're not alive And it makes me sick to see you all strung out Desperate you take what you've been deprived Happiness in self destruction Your heart may beat but you're not alive And it makes me sick to see you all strung out Desperate you take what you've been deprived Happiness in self destruction Woah, woah (Happiness in self destruction) Woah, woah (Happiness in self destruction) Woah, woah Your heart may beat but you're not alive And it makes me sick to see you all strung out Desperate you take what you've been deprived Happiness in self destruction Your heart may beat but you're not alive And it makes me sick to see you all strung out Desperate you take what you've been deprived Happiness in self destruction Your heart may beat but you're not alive And it makes me sick to see you all strung out Desperate you take what you've been deprived Happiness in self destruction So I just want to let you know I understand why you want to part ways, money means a lot to you and I don't write the words you want me to say. You may have a nice house and friends who will hang out with you cause they know you will buy them rounds but just remember that your bank account won't come with you when you're put down in the ground. You won't shut me up I have a vision and a voice, a story to tell and it will be told you have no choice. So you can keep our 12% royalty cheques cause I doubt I see them anyway. I'll keep dressing and writing and saying whatever the fuck I want to say. You manipulate the vulnerable and use them to your advantage and I refuse to associate myself with a crook but I'll try to manage my anger and harsh thoughts 'cause they'll get me sidetracked. I just hope that this gives the next group of kids with a dream a little heads up before sign their souls away in a contract

Submitted by Finntroll — Feb 22, 2026