A Son : A Disease (Orchestral)

And I’m as scared as a child now As a child now I’m as scared As a child now Just leave me on my own When they’re putting their arms around me And they’re breathing this into me, oh, oh, oh My lungs they will never be clean And I’d never breathe this into you I’d rather leave When they’re putting their arms around me And they’re breathing this into me My lungs they will never be clean They will never be clean When they’re putting their arms around me And they’re breathing this into me My lungs they will never be clean They will never be clean I’d never breathe this into you I try to let it breathe To let it breathe So I tear myself apart, oh, oh, oh I try to let it breathe To let it breathe I will tear myself when my own body, it hates me How can I grow when I’m already old? Already old How can I grow when I’m already old? (How can I grow when I'm already old? My own body hates me) Already old (Hates me) How can I grow when I’m already old? (How can I grow when I'm already old? It's been quiet, and I was old) Already old How can I grow when I’m already old? (How can I, how can I grow when I’m already old?) I try to let it breathe I tear myself apart But everything inside is ruined It’s dead from the air I need I’m as scared as a child now As a child As a child As a child now How can I grow when I’m already old? How can I grow when I’m already old? (How can I grow when I’m already old?) Already old

Submitted by Sexy Gargoyle — Feb 25, 2026

To you was I The birth of another mistake To you was I A disease Born into your son When I've ripped out the eyes (The eyes) When I've ripped out the eyes (I ripped out the eyes) The only eyes (Only eyes) That ever looked up to you (That ever looked up to you) When I've ripped out the eyes (The eyes) When I've ripped out the eyes (I ripped out the only eyes) The only eyes That ever looked up to you When I've grown the legs That stand up to you But you still hold my throat You still hold me down I can't even look you in the eyes Because I've lied Because I've lied to you To you Because I've lied to you To you was I (To you was I, to you, oh, oh) The birth of another mistake (Was I to you) I lied to you When I've ripped out the eyes (The eyes) When I've ripped out the eyes (I ripped out the only eyes) The only eyes That ever looked up to you (That ever looked up to you) When I've ripped out the eyes (The eyes) When I've ripped out the eyes (I ripped out the only eyes) The only eyes That ever looked up to you And every night I've spent I spent unloved Knowing I might become you Did I ever stand a chance? Did I ever stand a chance When you wouldn't let me grow? Did I ever stand a chance When you wouldn't let me grow? (And every night I've spent, I spent unloved) Did I ever stand a chance When you wouldn't let me grow? And did I ever stand a chance (Knowing I might become you) When you wouldn't let me grow? Did I ever stand a chance When you wouldn't let me grow? Did I ever stand a chance When you wouldn't let me grow? Did I ever stand a chance When you wouldn't let me grow? (Wouldn't let me grow) Did I ever stand a chance When you wouldn't let me grow? Oh, oh, you wouldn't let me grow Ah, ah-oh, you wouldn't let me grow

Submitted by Sexy Gargoyle — Feb 25, 2026

If the Devil is my son Then my daughter, she is dead She held your hand You took her breath You drowned her in the hell That you've made, oh, oh If the Devil is my son Then my daughter, she is dead She held your hand You took her breath You took her breath That you've made, oh, oh And will it rip through my hands? And will my blood ever land? The grounds as broke as I am As broken as I am And will it rip through my hands? And will my blood ever land? And I know that she was never real I don't want a son that I hate I would die just to know I could keep my daughter safe But you think you're alone It was never your place to be here If the Devil is my son Then my daughter, she is dead She held your hand You took her breath You drowned her in the hell That you've made, oh, oh If the Devil is my son Then my daughter, she is dead She held your hand You took her breath You took her breath That you've made You don’t need anyone Because Because I don’t need it You’ve made me sick, made me bleed Please tell me you, you feel it And will it rip through my hands? And will my blood ever land? The grounds as broke as I am As broken as I am And will it rip through my hands? And will my blood ever land? And I know that she was never real If the Devil is my son Then my daughter, she is dead She held your hand She held your hand And you took her breath You drowned her in the hell The hell that you've made, oh, oh That you've made

Submitted by Sexy Gargoyle — Feb 25, 2026

He wears the mask Of my unborn son He wears the mask I hate you, Devil I know that you're a disease But you befriended me Now I am afraid of you I'm afraid to breathe I know that you're a disease But you befriended me Now I am afraid of you I'm afraid to breathe I feel your blood pour into my veins, oh, oh And your voice, it speaks through me "I am your son I am a disease And Hell must live in you Because God died in me I am your son I am a disease And Hell must live in you Because God died in me" I am your son, unborn Wearing the mask of the Devil I am your son, I am a disease Hell must live in you I am your son, and God died in me I feel your blood pour into my veins, oh, oh And your voice, it speaks through me And there is nothing I can do I feel your blood pour into my veins And your voice, it speaks through me And there is nothing I can do And there is nothing I can do "I am your son I am a disease And Hell must live in you Because God died in me I am your son I am a disease And Hell must live in you Because God died in me" (I am your son I am a disease) If these veins wrap around me (And Hell must live in you Because God died in me) And I’m left on my own (I am your son I am a disease) Watch these veins grow inside me (And Hell must live in you Because God died in me) This disease is my home

Submitted by Sexy Gargoyle — Feb 25, 2026

This is eating away at me This is wearing me down I don't belong here I am afraid Oh, this is eating away at me This is wearing me down I am the life you will never have And will feel everything I know you’re broken, you're tired And you wish I was dead I'll fall asleep I'll give you time Just to be with yourself But I will grow old, and I will grow Old I will grow old in you

Submitted by Sexy Gargoyle — Feb 25, 2026