Dissociation

To those of you I loved this pains me to lose I hate to feel used I'm frightened in sleep, thinking my world will be gone Promise me I won't die I panic in dreams from when I was still young Please don't turn on that light, I, I can't see it To those of you I've lost that pained me to love Please know that I tried Please know that I tried I'm frightened in sleep, thinking my world will be gone Promise me I won't die I panic in dreams from when I was still young Please don't turn on that light, I can't see it Do you really think That I would leave you But I couldn't stand myself So I had to choose Still you turn me on The wild in your eyes But now I can't trust myself To keep on the light For us to see with I'm frightened in sleep, thinking our world will be gone Promise me I won't die I panic in dreams from when I was still young Please don't turn on that light I'm frightened in sleep, thinking our world will be gone Promise me I won't die I panic in dreams from when I was still young Please don't turn on that

Submitted by Pestilence — Feb 21, 2026

In a lifeless memory You're not there A craving in the street I'm alive and getting an urge to fill the void With whatever I need, yeah With whatever I need With whatever I need I withdraw you advance The move is complete Are you able to see? Cause it's getting too bright for me Over time we'll dissolve To a feeling we won't recall Bring all your heroes Down to their knees I don't need nothing I do as I please Destiny overruled Through distance I'm losing Creation of your mind Through distance I'm losing Through distance I'm losing All night I've been trying to reach out How people naturally do, when they're young An attempt to live To feel weightless and free In the abyss (In the abyss, in the abyss) For a time I felt completely alive Still without legs We all just sink In the past I would have tried harder But now, I know there isn't anything there And what you, I, we, we're reaching for Is something I had, in me, all along For a time I felt completely alive Still without legs We all just sink We see most clear From lowest points We see most clear From lowest points We see most clear From lowest points We see most clear From lowest points Through distance we're losing Hope for our dignity Bring all your heroes Down to their knees I don't need nothing Do as I please (Bring all your heroes down to their knees)

Submitted by Pestilence — Feb 21, 2026

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Lonely in a room of memories From another life Waiting and chasing Moments that elude Why can't I escape? Waiting and chasing Memories of moments that are gone When first she looked at me And sipped her drink across from me Newborn hell was it all along Right there with me, inside Reflecting on the outside If it won't die can I? Some days I look at things As if they never existed And others it's all right here I've been thinking aloud About the way it went I guess we're having a moment right now I need a moment right now I guess we're having a moment right now I need a moment right Best of them all Best of them all Best of them all Best of them all Waiting and chasing Memories long gone Best of them all Lately I'm thinking Were they all along Best of them all What then Becomes of Letters never sent? In stillness you can hear us Never far away

Submitted by Pestilence — Feb 21, 2026

Any thought of moving on Is a loop without an end Back to the beginning Reliving this over and over and over and over While everything around me moves Detached to protect others more than myself Well I'm afraid of how this ends No comfort in absolutes No places without time I am the beginning And I'm reliving this over and over and over and over While everything around me moves Detached to protect others more than myself Well I'm afraid of how this ends Reliving this over and over and over and over While everything around me moves Detached to protect others more than myself Well I'm afraid of how this ends Now, a monumental waste I refuse to be a crutch for your disease I refuse to carry on your tragedy I refuse All your secrets never shared Programmed into me All your secrets never shared Programmed into me Well I'm afraid of how this ends I never thought such things before Ignorance is indeed bliss And knowledge isn't just power it's torture I see you trying to get to me But I'm alone even in the most crowded room Screaming inside like an animal inside Confused and scared Trying to survive this place Over and over and over Trying to survive this place Over and over Trying to survive this place Oh, over and over and over Trying to survive this place Over and over

Submitted by Pestilence — Feb 21, 2026

I'm lying here wondering am I dying inside? Am I diseased, I'm feeling pretty weak My lungs are full of fluid Will they continue to fill? Is this nearly the end? (I used to be so pissed off) Then I forgot Then I erased (Then I just fucking erased you) Not for nothing I was born so happy, but now it just takes so much to keep me alive I was born so happy, but now it just takes so much to keep me alive I thought I'd be better without you, the past is always poison to me Tried to forget Tried to erase you From the rain that never falls From the wind that blows away from me From the waves on other shores From the taste of air surrounding me Help, I'm stuck at the corner, of how long? I'm stuck at the corner, of how long? So hard to be awake Like hell to fall asleep Tried to forget, tried to forget So hard to be awake Like hell to fall asleep Let me erase, let me erase A time and place I can't forget, I can't forget Oh, your face I can't erase, I can't erase (I can't) I can't erase, I can't erase Claw away at the wound inside Rip into my flesh to find a light It's suffocating in here and it's only me Come a little bit closer, please

Submitted by Pestilence — Feb 21, 2026

Discarded a broken escape Fortunate to be in this state Firing on a boredom innate Chewing on a ticking grenade Listening to the comforting shade Instinctive I'm supporting a string of destructive habits And fighting more than I care to admit Crumbling from a sudden dead weight Here lies me Now what's the meaning? Here lies me Now what's the meaning? Oh, won't you tell me Now won't you tell me the point? I was trying to find myself I wasn't looking for you But you gave me the point I was trying to kill myself What else was I What else was I gonna do? I had a pretty good time I had a pretty good time A long goodbye Ascension to demise A vow to break A lesson for the wise I was put here to survive Why is your burden mine? Holding space for this There's a place we must have missed And they're open real late And I believe that we should go As a consolation But directions are unknown Tonight would be the perfect time For us to reach the peak It takes a lot to try to care The truth's below the surface, beneath the deep When you live on the thinnest air And even condescension comes with a fee Slow to care Slow to care Now you tell me the point I was trying to find myself I wasn't looking for you Looking for you, looking But you gave me the point I was trying to kill myself What else was I gonna do, gonna do I had a pretty good time

Submitted by Pestilence — Feb 21, 2026

I'm finding nothing No point, just energy to burn A pocketful of pointless and faded days What have you done? This never-ending heart attack Is spilling over self-murderous assault Late hours turn to blur A boiling inner temperature Late hours turn to blur A boiling inner temperature This never-ending murderous assault Late hours turn to blur Crowned waves, torrid sea Washing years over me Myself into a knot In sudden overdose Myself into a knot In sudden overdose Someone is moving But who is staying still? Or have we grown apart? How selfish of you not to find You didn't look for peace to gain from being alive Fucked if I care It doesn't matter, ignore The more things stay the same Fuck I don't care The more things never change I'm not sorry for you Fucked if I care It doesn't matter, ignore I'm not sorry, you didn't look, but I'm finding nothing No point, just energy to burn A pocketful of pointless and faded days Make yourself present Are you hiding? Do you feel guilt? Cause mine's dying Worked through your waste Now there's nothing But maybe there's Still hope

Submitted by Pestilence — Feb 21, 2026

Innocent angel watching over me Covering up in a crown of thorns so I could not see Guilty by birth, a choice that wasn't mine Seeding me deep with a terror growing over time Covering up so I could not see Covering up so I could not see Covering up so I could not see Your fingers choking me Please let me be by myself, I don't need anything Please let me be by myself, I don't need anything Please let me be by myself, I don't need anything Please let me be by myself, I don't need anyone else Anything just to gain the years I lost Driven by instinct resolute and I'm the cost I don't remember existing at all Only in moments as I struggle not to fall Please let me be by myself, I don't need anything Please let me be by myself, I don't need anything Please let me be by myself, I don't need anything Please let me be by myself, I don't need anyone else In darkened rooms As I try to look for you I feel out forgotten days With nothing to light the way With all your fear As a fuel to get me here I climbed out of others' graves And swam through a tidal wave In darkened rooms When I stop looking for you I'll illuminate the days And make sure to light the way Please let me be by myself, I don't need anything Please let me be by myself, I don't need anything Please let me be by myself, I don't need anything Please let me be by myself, I don't need anyone else Please let me be by myself, I don't need anything Please let me be by myself, I don't need anything Please let me be by myself, I don't need anything Please let me be by myself, I don't need anyone else

Submitted by Pestilence — Feb 21, 2026

By the last time in the car Then I already knew At the time I laughed I didn't know what to believe Couldn't stay for you What a strange way to lose Take you I couldn't take you Don't confuse being set free With being discarded and lonely I tried to tell you we never change I let you go And when I left I really tried to tell myself It was for me and not It was for me and not you Couldn't stay for you What a strange way to lose Finding a way to die alone Is better than what I was shown Finding a way to die alone Is better than what I was shown Couldn't stay for you What a strange way to lose (Finding a way to die alone) Couldn't stay for you (Is better than what I was shown) What a strange way to lose Finding a way to die alone Finding a way to die alone Finding a way to die alone Finding a way to die alone Finding a way to die alone Finding a way to die alone

Submitted by Pestilence — Feb 21, 2026