Anhedonia

So many years searching my life Don't let me down, I keep letting me down Washing away, craving my time I keep craving more time I keep hiding away, searching for answers Believing the lie, delusional dream Tortured by needs, strengthened by weakness Engraved in the mind Something that frightens and weakens within Anhedonia...Anhedonia Thoughts swept away my force-fed existence, creating new life Deliver me now! Triggered by pain, corrupting my weakness Engaging new life Something that frightens and weakens within Hide away...can you feel that you are more than you know? Than you know... Something that frightens and weakens within We realize that we don't feel alive Anhedonia (I don't feel alive)...Anhedonia Hide away, can you feel that you are more than you know?

Submitted by BloodShrine — Apr 26, 2025

Misery, best friends with lonely Well, how can it be? Looking out from here should way be gone by now You left me with nothing Your pretty face is tempting I gotta find my way out of here Don't even think you can leave without red hands You only fortify your pain Pain! Pain! Looking out from here should way be gone by now I am the combination of indulgence and self-deception (x2) And the weight holding down What was it like without you around? Oh...I remember, I remember Without you with me (x3) You were never part of me! You were never part of me! And the weight holding down What was it like without you around? Oh...I remember, yeah, I remember Without you with me You were never part of me!

Submitted by NecroGod — Apr 26, 2025

You're everything I wish to be and everything you have, you seem to take for granted When I saw you through the madness, you just stared at me blankly, crucified my love Severed from these ties again You have taken far too long When I saw you through the madness and the distance in your face If I trust in you, would you be there diluted and erased? Now I see you with the weak, blindly sifting away This is not from me Did I torment you with madness? My baby, if only you knew Severed from these ties again You have taken far too long When I saw you through the madness and the distance in your face If I trust in you, would you be there diluted and erased? You just stared at me blankly When I trust in you, would you be there diluted and erased? Loaded, you can't let go You left me; I left you alone This madness, I'm sorry I still need, just let me You just stared at me blankly This madness, I'm sorry I still need, just let me And I saw you through the madness and the distance in your face And if I trust in you, would you be there diluted and erased?

Submitted by Nargaroth — Apr 26, 2025

Why won't you listen to me? 'Cause I can't figure it out, wanting more unless you're tied You never listen to me, therefore, you and I decide to stay or divide Why can't we reset? Too much to forget Just because you don't feel lonely, forget feelings Empty TV screens gently bleeding When it wants it, you just let it, always still too much to stay Cannot leave you alone, but cannot leave you here this way Why can't we reset? Too much to forget Did I leave you alone? No more listening, there's so many more I'm just scared, I don't wanna hear it I'm tired, I wanna delete it more No more...why should I stay?! Machine! No more listening, no more, no more keeping clean Now go away: I'll never I thought you wanted me to stay Why can't we reset? Too much to forget? Did I leave you alone? No more listening, there's so many more I'm just scared, I don't wanna hear it I'm tired, I wanna delete it more No more...why should I stay?! Machine! No more! (x5) Leave you wanting more, more, more!

Submitted by Finntroll — Apr 26, 2025

Daylight, I'm still awake, Consciously asleep, wrapped in my disbelief Poisoned by my mistakes, tearing life from me How could I fall away? We will always search for something more, but it's easier to drown inside the fear of growing old Some things are harder to let go too far away, too far away from all the lies Buried, I can't escape Boxed in my self-hate How could I fall away? All that comforts me, all who treasure me All that I've turned away We will always search for something more, but it's easier to drown inside the fear of growing old Some things are harder to let go too far away, too far away from all the lies With the act of reparation, you denied You were torn between the lies you've left behind All I want is a reaction I test pain for pleasure You won't touch me I just want to feel something, anything at all We will always search for something more, but it's easier to drown inside the fear of growing old Some things are harder to let go too far away, too far away from all the lies Too far away from all the lies

Submitted by Lake of Tears — Apr 26, 2025

In my mind, there is more than me Laughing, I feel your hand stronger around my neck, choking my final breath My fear is leeching my freedom My fear, it capacitates My fear has nothing to do with me, yet only I can feel its grip The ultimatum blinds me Slowly, I feel myself bleeding into what I know is something more than us So scared of what's behind Give me my peace of mind My fear is leeching my freedom My fear, it capacitates My fear has nothing to do with me, yet only I can feel its grip Slowly, I feel myself bleeding into what I know is something more than us (x2) You won't break me! My fear is leeching my freedom My fear, it capacitates My fear has nothing to do with me You will never kill me! Now that I have let you go, I've seen what you have taken The wasted time and all the lies you drained from me Now I'm climbing out and I shall defy you It's time to look me in the eye I crush your power, your hold on me So long! Say goodbye! The ultimatum blinds me Slowly, I feel myself bleeding into what I know is something more than us (x2)

Submitted by Morgoth — Apr 26, 2025

Now I've tried to find my understanding Out of time, came to find that it lied in me, in me Not yet! Show me your face I'm spinning into black circles I've danced, I've lied amongst the living I've taken more than my share of blame Not yet! Show me your face I'm spinning into black circles Now just show me your face I'm spinning into black circles I drew a line and crossed right over My hands are stuck to this cruel disorder Disorder! Not yet! Show me your face I'm spinning into black circles Now just show me your face I'm spinning into black circles I'm spinning into black circles Now just show me your face I'm spinning into black circles

Submitted by Grave666 — Apr 26, 2025

The face that hides the man from knowing who he really is A face that can't be seen Behind it lies the scars still burning me No one must know! I wait beneath the stairs, deciding who to borrow for my maim My face, my scars will slowly decompose I blame you, God With all I knew, I tried to bleed from you, and all I ever wanted was a story No one must know! The stain, the guilt, the blame The body holds the wounds that burn in me My face, my scars will slowly decompose, and I blame you, God With all I knew, I tried to bleed from you, and all I ever wanted was a story (story) What have I become? No one must know! With all I knew, I tried to bleed from you, and all I ever wanted All I knew, I tried to bleed from you, and all I ever wanted was a story All from you, and all I ever wanted was a story

Submitted by Iron_Wraith — Apr 26, 2025

Even my arms surrender Once again we bleed A sea of dead demanding Yesterday was easy No one's home! I can't divide - not seeing me Where the dead grow - demanding me See brains on fire, it's choking me See flames burn higher, demanding me I'm blind another day My bones are shallow And now I'm standing where the dead grow To see inside the vacant lounge of being in your mind Just look aside while I look out front through your eyes No one can prove to me this is all there is inside You're wonderful, but sometimes I am blind Don't you know this takes away? So long A city in the grave and bodies made of stone We have to go away No one...no one I'm blind another day My bones are shallow And now I'm standing where the dead grow To see inside the vacant lounge of being in your mind Just look aside while I look out front through your eyes No one can prove to me this is all there is inside You're wonderful, but sometimes I am blind See brains on fire, it's choking me See flames burn higher, demanding me To see inside the vacant lounge of being in your mind Just look aside while I look out front through your eyes No one can prove to me this is all there is inside You're wonderful, but sometimes I am blind More! I see it today, a city in the grave, and in thought of how I'm made No, there has to be more More...there has to be more!

Submitted by The Void — Apr 26, 2025

When you lie, you lie to me and take away the things that I have made Can you look at me? So now you're crawling back? So you wanna be the king? Stolen from your own illusion The soul in your eyes The enemy itself: yourself! So you wanna be the king and throw it all away, and now you're standing still? If you lose yourself in greed, buy yourself a higher place to stand Look down at me So now you're crawling back? So you wanna be the king and throw it all away, and now you're standing still? You take your time, and I won't keep you in my mind Your hate, I'm blind What we are, where we've gone, what we've seen, where we've been Let me have just one more of a chance to begin Let me out of this hole that I've dug for myself One more chance to begin You only let yourself be You only let yourself You only let yourself go away 'cause you only have yourself You only let yourself be You only let yourself You only let yourself go away What we are, where we've gone, what we've seen, where we've been Let me have just one more of a chance to begin Let me out of this hole that I've dug for myself One more chance to begin One more chance to begin (Gone away...gone away) (x4)

Submitted by Morgoth — Apr 26, 2025