Exulansis
I recall the innocent memories Filled with pure evil which I understand since childhood Filled with evil of nature, its indifference to values To appear sane I hid my wickedness Remorse is for the weak Damage is done Bulletproof outside Collapsing inside out Thousands of thoughts bear a single mask Subconsciousness howls Spoils the previous zen The world is spinning so fast I struggle to hold grip on reality I sculpt a human shape Out of pure void I've lived a thousand of lives Death, madness and pettiness ploughed up my mind My mind is overflowing with confusion Loss, remorse and suffering ploughed up my heart Since she is gone I am but a human shape in void Rage I rage, against the demise of the light I won't go gentle into that good night The scars of past shed light on my future Everything led to this point of my life Inhale the star dust and watch the tears evaporate The world still spins so fast but now it has finally released me I give up the will to survive till the bitter end But I can't resist that good night That night is a bliss It ties up all the loose ends Loss is another face of love and the horizon of pain embraces redemption I am the unmoved mover of the worlds Thousand faces of god's abandoned vessel In disguise of one When I realized All is lost, all the hope is gone I let it all go for all is void The glimmer of itself The void mirroring itself Everything led to this point of my life Death, madness and pettiness showed me the way To restore the balance I immerse myself in the zen of beautiful suicide
Submitted by Iron_Wraith — Jun 06, 2026
Sun shines with peaceful grace How come I am the reason we ache Is it my inner insecurity? Or the suspiciousness of the so-called reality? I've come to the conclusion that love is melancholy I abound with plenitude I'm sorry my love is consuming Truth is it is eroding me too The sun has set and there is no grace anymore Eternity pierces my mind in a static fracture of time In that glimpse I felt all the pain in the world at once But for the first time ever I felt as one with the cosmos Overwhelmed I struggle not to wake up In the light of where I've been, how could I ever come back to life again At the time I thought that no pain could be worse I can't believe how naïve I was! Since then I've become a cork in a sea storm Anchored in pain, all was bearable As long as you cherished my hope You silenced the howling distress inside of me Abandoned and fragile on a quest to find solace As each of us is imprisoned in a vessel Doomed to wreck by loss of others Who nourished our hopes in spite of the odds There is nothing real about the world I choose to believe in your love and in the hungry ghost You bring the rest to my soul And who cares if everything is just a Samsara Everything is going to be fine As long as I feel the warmth of your breath on my neck Everything is going to be fine As long as a pawn has a queen to die for
Submitted by Iron_Wraith — Jun 06, 2026
We have danced on thin ice Now I'm trapped by its crust Tomorrow has finally come With it the void in my heart The past had been unkind to me Half a dream, the rest was a lunacy Then I looked up to my queen And charged, dancing fearlessly Thank you for all the soothing care I raised my shoulders And took on the weight of the world I fought the hungry spirits Defenceless, yet immortal I took on the world You told me: "The faith is useless; go, live!" I'd put up a fight with anything knowing you are there But the void is impossible to fight As the Queen lays in dust Kings fall in demise I'm just a pawn I've got no one to fight for anymore Just myself I am the revenant, a wandering spirit haunting itself The life supposedly goes on But how is it different from a drunken delirium? The price of joy is too high Yet somehow I stay alive We dance to night's music In a graveyard gaff Candles' light and shadow's realm Moonlight is the audience If there is a fate, then it's driven by a psychopath And we are all his children You will never have my farewell I'll carry you inside Now I stand here gazing at the epitaph of who we might have been Instead I am choking on a broken eternity I remember being strong The tears froze over As I buried the last evidence Of my existence I took on the world You told me: "The faith is useless; go, live!" But the life no longer goes on, there's no point And the void is impossible to fight As the Queen lays in dust Kings fall in demise I'm just a pawn I've got no one to fight for anymore Just myself I am the revenant, a wandering spirit haunting itself The life supposedly goes on But what if there is nothing more than a drunken delirium The price of joy is too high I don't know if I am alive anymore
Submitted by Iron_Wraith — Jun 06, 2026
Deep in the woods, the night touches my skin You come along with me, but now you are gone I'm lost and I'm scared, I keep calling your name Until my sore voice finally breaks You left me alone And I'm afraid of night The only thing left Is the memory of your smile I keep waiting and I feel cold No longer as a man A hungry apparition sits on my chest I thought it was you But it devours me My mind slips And the last memories of you Crush me down Paralysed I fear the terrors in my sleep So I wait In place of the sun the clouds hang Heavy with ink as dark as the woods at night The ink is dripping in my eyes Making me blind to the fortune passing by The noble butterflies of night circle around The last bright memories of my former life I keep waking up and falling asleep, switching on and off As their brightness dimishes The apathy conquers all Months pass, followed by years Only the grief stays Bleaches out the trace of human in me I forgot what her smile looks like And the winds rule the hollow cage of my ribs Bells introduce the night The joy The ink The wind The death Repeat The heart doesn't lie Yet I feel like I'm running waist-deep in water against the current I fail to understand how I could have survived There is no point in clinging to living All the former virtue gets more and more twisted I don't recognize myself in the mirror The inner voice I have always listened to has been silent for a while Replaced by the hungry spirit's intrigues I choke on the emptiness I'm oblivious So let me die Let me join you in oblivion To leave no trace I want to rest To fall asleep with the last thought I hold so dear I am betrayed By my own mind Hostile towards the legacy which I'd hate to leave You left me alone And I'm afraid of night The only thing left Is the memory of your smile I keep waiting and I feel cold No longer as a man A hungry apparition with familiar face Reminds me of myself And it devours me My mind slips And the last memories of you Crush me down Paralysed I fear the terrors in my sleep So I wait
Submitted by Iron_Wraith — Jun 06, 2026
How can it be? How can a thing change so much? Deprived of my sleep I was but a hollow husk Numb to the bone I'm stripping of all memories Pure, yet alien Capable to feel only physical pain Mimicking the purposefulness of everyday routine I finally found the ground beneath my feet And although I'm stained with mud at least I can stop drowning I can almost reach to the surface Of this ocean of ink around me The clarity sprouts in me I'll have to confront the hungry spirit I know he never left for good He is weakened by its age He told me who he was And although I always suspected I dared not to believe He is a god He is a beggar He's once been rich and now he's me Suddenly I recall The cause of my gaping wounds Memories unfold Every wound has its meaning The ancient hole in my chest Awakens the forgotten passion There is nothing as sad as a book left unfinished And that is why this is my farewell Now I remember the moment when the Queen drew her last breath My mind is without distraction I know how this has to end She showed me how to love Being one with the hungry spirit I know how to end myself The void is what she has left me With void I must merge
Submitted by Iron_Wraith — Jun 06, 2026
Instrumental
Submitted by Iron_Wraith — Jun 06, 2026