Existential Mourning

social withdrawal Detracting faces Chained-up Doors And trust no more The Static noise From the ceiling Knocking on the door The tensions grow Board up the windows Draw back the curtains Don’t make it obvious You draw their attention Their eyes , stare , awareness Be conscious of the corners Sleep with one eye open Alarm In this war I’m fighting on your side I cover your eyes, escort you through the crowds We scream our lungs out We seize the darkness inside When the demons surround you Hold your grip and let go of the fear You are not on your own We seize the darkness inside Tangled in webs Of psychotic state Eccentric voices Surround your choices Insomnia dawns On your the blackest nights The sleeping pills They work no more You drink up to zone out But nightmares kick in You cover your ears and Wish for it to end Their eyes , stare , awareness Be conscious of the corners Sleep with one eye open Enticed by the depths of despair We shall intertwine to Death

Submitted by Dahmers Fridge — Apr 25, 2025

Carmine shade Distorted and dry Leaked unto the canvas of my life I can’t be the same It can’t be veiled The scenery of violence Blinded eyes Rivers of blood And the bullets that found their way to hearts Stone me if I forget Hang me if I forgive I clench my fist avenge my hate I take control You can’t escape I fear no death So shot me dead I will fight until the end I will carry your flame screaming out your name and with every battlecry I will stand in your name I turn into a flame I’ll set this world ablaze My fury’s not that tame I’ll bring hell upon them A fallen soul Forever weeper Sorrow fills her whole heart out A lingering wound That bounds to stay A fading dream Reformed to hate She longs for days Alone in the dark Awaiting the fall of the darkest sun Stone me if I forget Hang me if I forgive

Submitted by Lake of Tears — Apr 25, 2025

I foiled to serve In your wisdom Guilt washed me over like tides My fallen pride Your blinding light I give in to your guiding light I push myself away For that I shadowed your light I long to be in your lighthouse I pull myself away For that I betrayed your trust I long to be in your lighthouse Obsession surge I’m trapped inside Darkness overcoming me I lost control And lost my sight Then I found myself on the shore A storm is coming Your light has gone out Are you in there? The lighthouse falls apart The lighthouse falls apart Right before my eyes It all fell apart As I swam through the broken tide I saw your phantom before the waves struggled to fight off the storm So I fainted along the way I thought I was gone Drowned, trapped down in the sea I felt the air flow graze me Then I opened my eyes Your body washed up to shore

Submitted by Nargaroth — Apr 25, 2025

I dream in black and white Can’t seem to find the point of life Breathing is just a habit of mine Existence is hollow, so I will hide. Behind the curtains of the rotten mind and the soul I exist as a illusion in your fantasy world You’ve fallen deep in the webs of lies Let me serenade you with the sound of the void Fray the lies Let go of the reason Peace is found in emptiness Cognition fails Free your mind And let your soul to takeover Open your insight Believe in nothingness We don’t matter at all Follow the void Through the passing years Until you reach the end of time I’ve lost track of day and night Unbound in the waves of river of time So tired of wasting my thoughts on the knowledge of life When the wisdom itself gives a way to absurdity futility and insanity Don’t try to make sense of reality there’s nothing but nothingness to prove Let me serenade you with the sound of the void Flesh and bones Nothing more All the wars And the martyrs As the time pass us by They will fade away Live to die Die to live

Submitted by NecroLord — Apr 25, 2025

A tragic tale Another day To keep holding on Fragile hope Blurry road We keep holding on We share a common fear The dread that would never fade We know Death is coming by But we keep holding on We are pale painted black We are the code Through the darkness unbreakable Dread they fear the most how woeful Love is a hole The Sun is insufferable We keep the night alive avoiding light In darkest depth The tears we wept Yet we holding on A song for us A memory We died holding on Our burden of grief In the shadows of disbelief We know Tomorrow’s too late But till we die We keep holding on Under the stars whose lights are fading A star must be renewed I pledge my blood for evermore I’m bound to you

Submitted by The Void — Apr 25, 2025

Floating adrift In your memory I found your traces All over my psyche Overshadowed by your scent I can’t tell if I assent the fact that you really gone away It’s four am I feel the urge to go out and to look out for you You must be lost out here I searched the alleys Door to door And yelled out your name But you were nowhere to be found Then I realized, I will be waiting upon your grave Until you show up from my back And tell me it was all lies You’ve been hiding all this time I will be waiting upon your grave Until you show up from my back And tell me it was all lies I will be here patiently , forever if need be Uneven dreams I saw you pass by And it didn’t feel unreal You were smiling Fading between light and dark how I missed your touch, How long would it take? Baby It’s two am I feel the urge to go out and to look out for you You must be lost out here I searched the alleys Door to door And yelled out your name But you were nowhere to be found Then I realized

Submitted by SerpentEve — Apr 25, 2025

Now you’re home again We are forever together Your still eyes are locked on me I can’t get enough of this Try to move Loosen your limbs we must dance the night away Breathe in Let it flow You’re too cold to speak my name Isolation breaks My sensations wakes Nothing can take you away from me Even in the death It doesn’t make difference I can’t sleep without you next to me Your pale skin shines in the dark Like the moon at midnight I bathed you everyday To make you feel alive I’ve frozen you Inside a box So you remain immaculate Breathe in Let it flow You’re too cold to speak my name Isolation breaks My sensations wakes Nothing can take you away from me Even in the death It doesn’t make difference I can’t sleep without you next to me No closure in sight I’m awake all the night To keep holding you in my empty arms Enchanted by you But you lack of motion if I only could share my heart with you I’m aware it’s not you Baby I know that you forever gone

Submitted by Lake of Tears — Apr 25, 2025

A painter paints my portrait dissonant The more I gaze into it, it doesn’t manifest me I try to imitate him, by scraping down my skin I have to look in the mirror I shiver And the years have defined me I’m too old for this mourning With the weight on my eyelid I’m numb Flare Ember Ignition of the cortex Below the thoughts of everlasting liberation Rays Combustion Fractured the gate unto Hellfires that’s been burning inside of me Thorns have grown in my eyes It hurts observing around I feel the sun , a burning hole Hanging over me Like a wizened tree, I stood in confusion Void of sense , rattled , unsettled Universe Below the curtain of skin A blackhole Ingesting me down I’m lost inside Looking for light I’m vitiating Beyond repair Flare Ember Ignition of the cortex Below the thoughts of everlasting liberation Rays Combustion Fractured the gate unto Hellfires that’s been burning inside of me

Submitted by Warbringer — Apr 25, 2025

When I saw you I drowned in your eyes Frozen to bone I couldn’t tell but observe I wanted to be Lockout in your arms I opened my heart For you to walk in Since back then We withered away We bare the scars And pains undergone Now we are under Desperate clouds Is this the outcome? For us to depart? In the mist of your fading ghost I’ve lost the way to home Through the pyre of sentiments I try to tame my nerves How fate will serve me in this weary toll of time I have to fight for the rest of my life To erase your tracks away I burn my touch I turn to stone On the day we swore Till death do us part We tied our hearts And shun the dark We looked at the stars Dreamt of love Of what’s to come Into our lives I often think of what happened to us? In the fleeting of time We grew cold Was it my heart? Or the gaze of my eyes? Is this the outcome? For us to depart? In the mist of your fading ghost I’ve lost the way to home Through the pyre of sentiments I try to tame my nerves How fate will serve me in this weary toll of time I have to fight for the rest of my life To erase your tracks away I burn my touch I turn to stone I tear my walls I shatter fate’s love

Submitted by Warbringer — Apr 25, 2025

I’m banging on the walls of my soul Trying to escape from this body of foul It’s burning inside of my core I feel like my head is chained up to the floor A gaze upon the sunset The whispers of the last Dying words of mine I found a tiny river A river deep enough To swallow me down A linger to resurface The faces that I’ve known To tell them all good bye If only they could know It feels like a stone is down in my throat Like a disease without an antidote I’m drowning but it’s lasting too long Can’t say for sure if this is where I belong A gaze upon the sunset The whispers of the last Dying words of mine I found a tiny river A river deep enough To swallow me down A linger to resurface The faces that I’ve known To tell them all good bye If only they could know As the sun sets me I’m gasping to undo the time As the sun sets me I burst into tears I have cried I’m shifting to night

Submitted by Dahmers Fridge — Apr 25, 2025