Begging for Indifference

I choke on my bitterness Because some things are better left unsaid Hesitant is my instinctive venom Since I've stepped out of this light I said I'm sorry The truth is I never was Begging to be indifferent I'll take you down with me You're going down I'll take you down Falling Scratching, tearing Ripping, falling, melting Scratching, tearing, bleeding, feeding I said I'm sorry The truth is I never am Begging for indifference I'll drag you down with me You're going down I'll drag you down A toxified embrace holds me up As my suicide increases And my life skids out of control Shouting back in my face As I lose control of my hands and mind As I reach for my peace I claw at my eyes Insensitivity looking away Just like a raped mother to her child I hate you just the same I hate you And when patience wears thin Intentions watch hungrily transparent Anxious to feast on your devotion Anticipating that quenchless thirst

Torn from slumber Haze of sleep melts away Inner peace splintered Security decays Praying for forgetful snows of winter to cover me Tomb of ice surrounding, sheltering my blazing heart Beating down the blooms of spring, deny awakening Realize too late You were not what I needed you to be With blinders I race into the storm Only to be struck down Smashed on the rocks below Conflicts of my heart and mind Unknowing victim of fate's design On broken knees, hands thrust towards the sky Descend the cliffs praying to fly Turn my back to the warning With blinders I race into the storm Only to be struck down Smashed on the jagged rocks below I reject your ideal Deny my blood's one desire Free fall through space As I fall I burst into fire

Submitted by SerpentEve — Apr 26, 2025

The gates open I drown The magnet, the withdrawal Offering these to you Shamelessly ripping my guts out How could I expect you to change your face? A time lived by seconds I unfold at your beckon I will be passed by I am the minimal The useless being How could I expect you to change your face? My memories out dated and weak How could I expect it to? Well I do How could I want it to? I despise your charming attributes Conjure up the summoned Then left to contend with them Stirring the killer, inviting this old ghost After all, it's me that is drowning My dream is the warped They pick me clean These vultures I know now the door is open I know now I must be dead

Submitted by MetalElf — Apr 26, 2025

I view deep in this reflection It's just the outside world looking in Even if I could escape is Is suffocation Cascading bursts of light Illuminating from the silence But I still wonder if pulling free is Is necessary What else could I do? I feed off of your cruelty Once again I torch this day It probably never existed I used to think I had a grasp That door closed years ago I predicted the armageddon I predicted the absolute My lack of insanity held me back I could have saved you all But why? The sheep retain their wish Swallowed Swallowed in Hell-fire Why? The sheep retain their wish Swallowed I don't listen to tomorrow I don't look beyond the overcast I won't see the forecast anymore I won't look beyond the overcast

Submitted by Warbringer — Apr 26, 2025