II

I see red. The cracks are showing through the wall. I can see what’s behind. Dark red nails tear off one by one. Mark the skin as they thrive. I bleed. My bare feet planted in the soil. Rooted deep and untried. A step takes strength of thousand men. Push me through and comply. I fear I’m not the only one. I feel I’m tethered and undone. Come here, rest for now. Close your eyes for a while.<br/> <br/> I followed you everywhere blindsighted. I carried you everywhere my child. I frantically move forward. I try to feel your touch. One last gasp for air. To feel your breath again. I’m covered with the burden. To find my own way out. It weighs me down. Face first I hit the ground. I frantically move forward. I try to feel your touch. One last gasp for air. To feel your breath again. I am eternal longing. Forever aching. I am eternal longing. Forever. My solitude comforts her. It comforts her.<br/> <br/> I am here. Take me down there. Take me far below. To where my self hides. I never thought to see. I never thought to see you here too. Welcome home.<br/> <br/> Child, now is the time. I’ve fed you enough lies. Now is the time. I’ve fed you enough. Descend into my loving heartfelt strangle. I am your world and only I will truly save you. Lie still and hear my easeful whispers. Be patient for time will heal all my answers. The needles of deliverance are needless when you’re with me. I don’t care for my own life. I just want my blood to be mine. Now is the time. I’ve fed you enough lies. Now is the time. I’ve fed you enough. Enter my kingdom. This could be yours. But only if time can run its course.<br/> <br/> Kneel before the throne. I will reign forever. Kneel before the throne. I will reign always.<br/> <br/> No. You’ve clouded my mind. I want to discover through my own eyes. To see and touch the rain. To live this life I claim. I want to breathe again. Give me that chance.<br/> <br/> With every step my feet become one with the dirt. The light touch that once was turns into a heavy burden. Have I been wrong? Was I the liar all along? As doubt takes over my fingers turn cold.<br/> I now am a vessel that could not see. I shiver while I hold my breath. I now am a vessel that could not see. I drown in my own thoughts.<br/> I submerge as pitch-black fingers pull me under. The surface turns red as nails carve my skin. Take my blood and leave me with the stains. Break my bones but let me forget the pain. She thrives on my demise.<br/> <br/> Time is slipping away. I think about all my mistakes. Sometimes I wonder if it is me and not you who created this chaos. I doubt the chronology of how everything happened. Everything is scrambled. I’m starting to lose my memories of you. I’m not sure if I’m supposed to worship you or despise you. Do I hate you?<br/> Ik wist niet dat je nog bij me was. Ik was je al vergeten. Je dringt je terug op. Ik haat je. Blijf bij me. Omarm me. Breek mij. Voed mij. Ik haat je.<br/> I’ve come to ask forgiveness. Believe these words I vow. I’ve come to ask forgiveness. I am yours now.<br/> I’ve broken down, I watch myself fall apart as I hope to catch the pieces. I look around in despair. Now I am at my worst, again you are not here. I look up. Raindrops collide with my skin. I want to say I see everything, but nothing’s there. No hope, no love, no resolution.<br/> Now worship me forever. Or feed me to the crows. Now worship me forever. It’s time for you to bow.<br/> I am here mother.

Submitted by Iron_Wraith — Jun 06, 2026