This Light I Hold
Inside my body I'm a stranger Stuck in a place that never changes The world around me seems unaffected But here I am behind the bars in my own prison Behind the bars in my own prison! All my worst memories on repeat It's like my mind is stuck on rewind It's a vicious cycle and I can't break free (can't break free) I'm holding on but it won't be long 'till I get so deep inside I don't think I'll be coming out alive! I tell myself that everything's all right but I can't believe it when I know it's a lie I feel the pressure and it's harder to breathe Is it too late to make an escape to Somewhere that I might have a second to think Without this dark cloud following me Locked inside of a nightmare I think I threw away the key And I'm so afraid of the ending Cause all I see is me losing I get so deep inside I don't think I'll be coming out alive! I tell myself that everything's all right but I can't believe it when I know it's a lie All of reality starts to disappear again (disappear again) When I'm stuck inside my head, someone get me out of it! When I scream in my dreams, no one hears me And when I wake I'm still alone so I fall back asleep (back asleep) When I bleed I start to feel but it leaves me empty I start to believe there's no saving me I used to think I had it under control Now darkness follows everywhere that I go No one can see it so I feel all alone I'm dying inside but I don't let it show My walls are caving in (are caving in) I'm suffocating! Get me out! I get so deep inside I don't think I'll be coming out alive! I tell myself that everything's all right but I can't believe it when I know it's a lie All of reality starts to disappear again (disappear again) When I'm stuck inside my head, someone get me out of it! My eyes start to cross and I am slipping away again God, I hope it's not the end Someone get me out, get me out of it!
Submitted by Finntroll — Feb 23, 2026
I want it, I got it It's like I just can't get enough I see it, I need it More of whatever keeps me numb I feel it consuming But I'll ignore that till I die I want what they have and I won't stop until it's mine I fear myself Becoming calloused and unable to feel Greed takes over; I lose control and question what is real I want more than I need, the American dream Take and take until I have everything Now I'm covered in greed And the reflection I see Doesn't look like the man I want to be! I spent my life chasing after things That I fought for and now I'm torn Cause none of it has ever satisfied my soul It just leaves me wanting more I know that it's wrong but It feels so right, I can't deny I'm losing this war with My self-indulgent life What if I gave it all away And shed the layers of the selfishness I hate? I want to be free but I'm so afraid (I'm so afraid) That I am too far gone and I'm stuck with all The choices I have made There has to be more to life Cause I got it all, and never got it right There's got to be more than this Tell me there is something that I missed I spent my life chasing after things That I fought for and now I'm torn Cause none of it has ever satisfied my soul It just leaves me wanting more I gave myself to things I thought I loved But they never gave me enough Now I'm right back where I started from I'm so sick of wanting more I'm so sick of wanting more! Want and want and want Until we want to die Because we never find What we're looking for What are we looking for? Consume, consume, consume Until it consumes us Want and want and want When will it stop? (When will it stop?) I spent my life chasing after things That I fought for and now I'm torn Cause none of it has ever satisfied my soul It just leaves me wanting more I gave myself to things I thought I loved But they never gave me enough Now I'm right back where I started from I'm so sick of wanting more (Wanting more, wanting more)
Submitted by Finntroll — Feb 23, 2026
Remember when you said we were in this together? We only had one goal in mind: To be the best that we could be for each other; To look ahead and put our differences aside I can swear that you're a different person now All you want these days is a fight I could've sworn that this would end up different But I'm tired of trying Cause we can't see eye to eye We don't see eye to eye! I feel the separation It's time that you go your way, I'll go mine All I ever wanted was the best for us Then out of nowhere you were out of touch I really think I should've done this sooner I only wish I would've never gave so much I feel the separation It's time that you go your way, I'll go mine I watched you change into everything you use to hate And push me away, cause you're scared of what I'll say I didn't want this, it kills me inside I have no choice but to sever the ties What happened to the you I use to know? Was it ever real, or was it just a show? The trust, the love, the bond we had, where did it go? Where did it go? What happened to the you I use to know? I poured out, gave you everything Now I wish I could take it back Go now, far away from me Before I lose what little patience I have I believed every lie you told And now I think that I am better off alone You only took and always asked for more Now give me back every part of my life you stole I watched you change into everything you use to hate And push me away, cause you're scared of what I'll say I didn't want this, it kills me inside I have no choice but to sever the ties
Submitted by Finntroll — Feb 23, 2026
I've seen your work, I'm not impressed Devoted to your emptiness You get so close to me I know you're reaching for my throat I feel you breathing down my neck I hate this feeling in my chest Bring your destruction But you'll never crush my soul Who do you think you are? You'll never shake the ground that I stand on! You were defeated before you began Deceiving the world with lies That you hold inside the cold grip of your hand You always kick me when I'm down But cheap shots can't keep me on the ground I'll keep my head high With my fists up until the final round Did you really think I'd fall for this? You lie, you cheat, you steal, you make me sick! You are the enemy we're up against And we will bring you to your knees You were defeated before you began Deceiving the world with lies That you hold inside the cold grip of your hand You are the poison, but I have the cure So I'll stand tall until the final battle Finally takes you off your throne You've stolen hope from everyone I know You speak evil from your lips You won't get away with this I've seen the last of your story (your story) I know how this all ends We've been victorious from the beginning! We've been victorious! We've been victorious From the beginning! You were defeated before you began Deceiving the world with lies That you hold inside the cold grip of your hand You are the poison, but I have the cure So I'll stand tall until the final battle Finally takes you off your throne
Submitted by Finntroll — Feb 23, 2026
I know how it feels to feel alone The king of my own fears, I never leave the throne And I've been searching for a place inside my soul Where all my demons can't find me when I go "Pull it together," they say So I keep hoping for better days I'd be lying if I said that I was fine Cause I feel pain sometimes that I cannot describe So do I raise my fist and curse up at the sky Or do I close my eyes and realize, that's just life? I know how it feels to lose control The weight inside myself is not always my own And I am broken, where I'll end up I don't know But maybe that's the point, so I trust in you alone I'd be lying if I said that I was fine Cause I feel pain sometimes that I cannot describe So do I raise my fist and curse up at the sky Or do I close my eyes and realize, that's just life? I'm holding onto hope as I turn the page And I'm praying there is peace to be found in the pain Tell me that tomorrow won't be the same And tell me that this is just a season and my story doesn't end this way I'd be lying if I said that I was fine Cause I feel pain sometimes that I cannot describe So do I raise my fists and curse up at the sky Or do I close my eyes and realize, that's just life?
Submitted by Finntroll — Feb 23, 2026
If I cling to my emotions, will I feel alive again? And when I've been reduced to nothing, will the story finally make sense? There is a constant war inside of me And I've always been my own worst enemy, so when will it end? When will I find the freedom I've been dreaming of? Letting go is all I've ever known Hoping that tomorrow brings peace to my soul Will I ever find a way to grow? Letting go is all I've ever known The sweet taste of surrender, I hit the ground and feel alive I see the truth behind the lies I feel hope begin to rise! Letting go is all I've ever known Hoping that tomorrow brings peace to my soul Will I ever find a way to grow? Letting go is all I've ever known I feel crushed, I feel small With my back against the wall, I feel the pain! This is life! This is war, at the end of every road I find my way! Letting go is all I've ever known Hoping that tomorrow brings peace to my soul Will I ever find a way to grow? Letting go is all I've ever known
Submitted by Finntroll — Feb 23, 2026
Hate plagues the world and kills relationship Before it ever could start Imperfect creatures that are insecure So we hide behind our broken hearts Keep distance from those who need us Because we won't admit that we need them too Afraid to give ourselves to someone else Because we're scared of what we might lose Everyone wants to be understood So why don't we just listen more and get off our pedestals I've seen the darkness be defeated I've seen the power I believe it now! Love is the antidote Yeah I believe it now! Our one and only hope To turn the world around You become the cancer When you start to think you've got it all figured out So why would we believe that our opinions Would be enough to show the world what love's about? Stop and think before you speak! I've seen the darkness be defeated I've seen the power I believe it now! Love is the antidote Yeah I believe it now! Our one and only hope To turn the world around The words you speak Can set a broken world free The power lies in who we choose to be Stop trying to solve the problems That you don't understand Maybe if we learned to show compassion The world wouldn't think we had guns in our hands! Called to love Called to lead Have we forgotten who we're called to be? Build them up! Don't break them down The way we love can turn the world around Turn the world around! I've seen the darkness be defeated I've seen the power I believe it now! Love is the antidote Yeah I believe it now! Our one and only hope To turn the world around Stop and think before you speak!
Submitted by Finntroll — Feb 23, 2026
Growing pains, becoming who I was made to be I try to walk away But all my mistakes keep chasing me I fall down when I'm alone And temptation is on display All these stains, they cover me Memories that won't go away But you say you'll carry my weight Through the storm, cover my mistakes You say to never be afraid And hold onto the promises you made I ran but you always chased me I see you in my dreams, you are the air I breathe And all the walls that I built are breaking So now I see that you're leading me onward to better things Onward to better things I've seen the evidence I've watched my heart change every day Believe me when I say This will never ever be easy but I have seen and I believe You hold my heart while it's breaking I ran but you always chased me I see you in my dreams, you are the air I breathe And all the walls that I built are breaking So now I see that you're leading me onward to better things You never failed me I fell away but you never left me You never left me Temptation come my way I am stronger now than I have ever been Temptation come my way I am stronger now than I have ever been Temptation come my way I am stronger now and I am not afraid! I am stronger now and I am not afraid You lead me to better things Temptation come my way cause I am more than my mistakes I ran but you always chased me I see you in my dreams, you are the air I breathe And all the walls that I built are breaking So now I see that you're leading me onward to better things You never failed me I fell away but you never left me You never left me
Submitted by Finntroll — Feb 23, 2026
She used to feel beautiful Before the world made her feel so small Now she prays that she just won't feel at all He used to believe he was strong Undefeated by this army of one Before the voices told him he was wrong Don't let your fears keep you from dreaming It's all a lie when you believe you can't If you're not trying you're dying So grab the wheel with your hands When they try to tell you That your one and only shot failed It's not over yet! Keep pushing forward And I know one day you'll prevail It's not over yet! (It's not over yet, it's not over yet It's not over yet!) Falling down is life Living is getting back up again Don't let your spirit die Keep fighting for a passion and a will to live Cause I believe that Your spark can start a fire When they try to tell you That your one and only shot failed It's not over yet! Keep pushing forward And I know one day you'll prevail It's not over yet! Let your fears fall by the wayside It's not over yet Take what they say And turn it inside out There's a Silver lining in the clouds of doubt Lean into the storm with Open arms and let them know You didn't come this far to just let go I believe that your spark can start a fire! When they try to tell you That your one and only shot failed It's not over yet! Keep pushing forward And I know one day you'll prevail It's not over yet! Let your fears fall by the wayside (Let your fears go, let your fears go) Keep on fighting for a better life It's not over yet, yeah! Dream on, dream on! In the middle of the storm Raise your fist and scream "It's not over yet"!
Submitted by Finntroll — Feb 23, 2026
I see a world running in circles They don't know what they're chasing They find the pain with the money and fame Looking for love in all the wrong places I see the look on their face I think they're about to cave in (I think they're about to cave in) I can't just stand by and wait Hoping that somehow they make it out So here I go! I've got nothing to be ashamed of (I'm not ashamed), So why should I hide and wait for someone else to say the word? There is nothing to be afraid of (I'm not afraid) So I'll spend my life speaking what I know needs to be heard They hide their pain And embrace the darkness Alone and what they're facing (what they're facing) If I keep quiet While I watch them dying I am no different than the demons That they're fighting I've got nothing to be ashamed of (I'm not ashamed) So why should I hide and wait for someone else to say the word? There is nothing to be afraid of (I'm not afraid) So I'll spend my life speaking what I know needs to be heard I will illuminate with every word I say Until my dying day I will be unashamed I am no stranger to the pain of being hated (being hated) But I just can't bear the weight Of a life that's wasted. I won't waste it, no! If I stare right into their eyes And never say a word I gave up on who I'm to be (who I'm to be) If I don't share this love I've found I am the one to blame This is not my secret to keep (I've got nothing to be ashamed of, hey!) I've got nothing to be ashamed of (I'm not ashamed) So why should I hide and wait for someone else to say the word? There is nothing to be afraid of (I'm not afraid) So I'll spend my life speaking what I know needs to be heard I've got nothing to be ashamed of (I've got nothing to be ashamed) So why should I hide and wait for someone else to say the word? Until my dying day, I will be unashamed!
Submitted by Finntroll — Feb 23, 2026
Am I being honest with myself? Is this where I'm supposed to be? Am I really making a difference For something bigger than me? What will I leave behind? What will they say when I die? What is the story my life will tell And did I tell it with my whole heart? Did I live it for more than myself And did I live it well? Did I live it well? If I see the door and don't walk through it Is the blood on my hands? Tell me I'm thinking too much when You already have a plan I know I feel this way cause I'm afraid That I won't add up to standards I create What will my story be? What is the story my life will tell And did I tell it with my whole heart? Did I live it for more than myself And did I live it well? Did I live it well? Was I the hero or the villain? Was I a hypocrite or did I live it? What is the story my life will tell And did I live it well? Did I live it well? Did I make them proud? (Make them proud) Did I live out loud? (Live out loud) Will they remember me For something more than just the words I sing? When I go I want to know That I left something more than just a name on a stone When I leave I hope they see That I chose to live my life for something bigger than me What will they say when I die? What is the story of my life will tell And did I tell it with my whole heart? Did I live it for more than myself And did I live it well? Did I live it well? Was I the hero or the villain? Was I a hypocrite or did I live it? What is the story my life will tell And did I live it well? Did I live it well? In the end when all is said and done And I take my last breath, did I live it well? "Loving others is absolutely top of the list You have to love yourself also Because if you love yourself you can love others."
Submitted by Finntroll — Feb 23, 2026