The Cycles Of Trying To Cope

Through the cracks in the wall, I watched the black mold grow Nothing would stop the spread, the ground starts to tremble below Drenched in thoughts so unnerving Tighten the grip around my neck, pain evolves I finally forget Doused in bleach Suicide of the mind Just to feel relief Everlasting, the stress refuses to leave Only consuming Doused in gasoline Will I burn for the things I've seen? Neglect the need to be heard Silence speaks Boarded up the windows to block out the lights I tried to hide from the world I built until it died Overgrown like a vine Rooted into the hands of the clock Killing time Am I just unwell these days? I'm not myself And it feels like I'll never change Too late for me Nothing's healing the hurt, only worsens the pain I led myself to be slaughtered here Killed by my own knife Suicide of the mind I led myself to be slaughtered here Killed by apathy Could never see things clear Is there a meaning to this? Am I just unwell these days? I'm not myself And it feels like I'll never change Too late for me Nothing's healing the hurt Am I just unwell these days? I'm not myself And it feels like I'll never change Too late for me Nothing's healing the hurt, only worsens the pain Overgrown like a vine Rooted into the hands of the clock Killing time

Submitted by MetalElf — Feb 23, 2026

I hope that you don't blame yourself Before I go Can we disappear to waste away? I need one more day Before you go Can I lay with your ghost until it leaves? Taking all that's left of me I hope that you don't blame yourself The glass house that we made A view I can't erase, so I stay The masochist that loses everything to feel alone It's all empty I killed the memories I buried them with the things that you left behind They're all empty How could I plan to lose it all? Drifting apart until we fall Until we fall The place where you slept It feels cold, I still reach for you Every word that you spoke Echoes back through the room If this is the end Can I sink with your soul Into the abyss? It's all empty I killed the memories I buried them with the things that you left behind They're all empty How could I plan to lose it all? Drifting apart until we both dissolve I can't right the wrongs Just know I only blame myself I thought I had time to figure it out We both dissolve the same It was always a losing game I hope that you don't blame yourself I thought I had time to figure it out Before you go Can I lay with your ghost until it fades? Gone without a trace It's all empty I killed the memories I buried them with the things that you left behind They're all empty How could I plan to lose it all? Drifting apart until we fall Until we fall

Submitted by MetalElf — Feb 23, 2026

What is a shepherd without a flock to slaughter? Heaven's obscured Enigmatic faith drains the earth Found God inside the dark on the way down An angel with concrete wings Put me in the fucking ground I called out to an empty sky to realize I'm alone Watch as the stars burned out This hell becomes my home Absolute misery Unholy sorrow Fragments of the unknown Wither into absolute misery Daggers rain Swallow the blade To set yourself free Decompose like the sinking sands The hourglass shows that time Was never meant to be in our hands In fields of ashes, I find rebirth A mass panic of waiting to die by the hand That leaves us in the dirt Leaves us in the dirt I called out to an empty sky to realize I'm alone Watch as the stars burned out This hell becomes my home Is it a fault of God? The collapse of mankind Is it a fault of God? Staring at the sun Until we all go blind Absolute misery Unholy sorrow Fragments of the unknown Wither into absolute misery Daggers rain Swallow the blade To set yourself free

Submitted by MetalElf — Feb 23, 2026

I had a dream we never existed Particles of dust, dissolved I had a dream I saw the world Before it was made Everything was silent Nothing to save No decisions in life or death No vacant souls to sacrifice at the end I could see it collapse Before it ever began to break and crack Created by a hand Left to be destroyed Are we all victims of torture Or victims of choice? A life built on ruins And piles of innocent How the fuck do we live like this? I refuse to let The sky be my grave The Sun collides with the Earth So tell me who's to blame We're all sculpted from dirt Without a blank slate We've been designed to fail It was always our fate Can we compromise? Kill every thought of a conscious mind Let it decompose as we grow A light that won't shine on me In the afterlife The thorn in my side Were we even meant to survive? To know is to die I had a dream we never existed How the fuck do we live like this? A cruel punishment to feel like we belong When we'll barely be missed No one to mourn the loss How the fuck do we live like this? No decisions in life or death No vacant souls to sacrifice at the end I could see it collapse Before it ever began to break Can we compromise? Kill every thought of a conscious mind Let it decompose as we grow A light that won't shine Only in the afterlife The thorn in my side Were we even meant to survive? To know is to die A light that won't shine Were we even meant to survive? A light that won't shine To know is to die, to know is to die

Submitted by MetalElf — Feb 23, 2026

The tension builds Until the threads detach Everything that once held it together Finally snaps Is it the mind that kills? Are we programmed this way? The greatest mistake If it's all just a fabricated decay Do we hold on for nothing? The light at the end just gets further away Cut out my eyes To make it disappear Leave me blind to it all When nothing matters here Can't find a reason to borrow time I've already sold what's mine Does the soul leave when we finally rest our eyes? Will there be closure for us if we don't say goodbye? Are we as lost as we feel? Is this all part of the plan? How do we know what's real When it always slips through our hands? It always slips through our hands We swallow chemicals for the taste Soaking the soil with poison We're draining the veins Every last drop The price that we pay Suppressed by disease It's all that we know As it spreads underneath As it spreads to every limb Choking again Hard to breathe with the air so thin So we suffocate It's our only fate Reduced to ashes Left to blow in the wind Never to be seen again Cut out my eyes To make it disappear Leave me blind to it all When nothing matters here Can't find a reason to borrow time I've already sold what's mine Are we as lost as we feel? I've already sold what's mine It's hard to know what's real Always searching Until we leave with nothing

Submitted by MetalElf — Feb 23, 2026

Peeling the skin So I can shed the scars Removed the limbs And manufactured a new heart Fragile death Cracks like porcelain Constant reminders of what could've been I should've known To never trust anyone but myself I should've known To never ask for help It did more harm than good The separation divides I'll always be misunderstood In the depths I roam I wanted to keep this place for myself My perfect little hell The depths I roam Whеre the gardens nеver grow The depths I roam The time can barely move on it's own The more I see The less I want to know What's above is not what's below It gets darker the deeper I go The more I see The less I believe What's above is not what's below These are the depths I roam A manifested Descent of consciousness The truth was never hard to swallow Just a pawn in life That follows death A bottomless pit consumes Until there's nothing left In the depths I roam I wanted to keep this place for myself My perfect little hell The depths I roam Where the gardens never grow The depths I roam The time can barely move on it's own Fragments of truth Illuminate the view A darkness too thick for the light To shine through A darkness too thick for the light To shine through I should've known That they'd interpret it wrong I should've known That I held on for too long It did more harm than good The separation divides I'll always be misunderstood The more I see The less I want to know What's above is not what's below It gets darker the deeper I go The more I see The less I believe What's above is not what's below These are the depths I roam

Submitted by MetalElf — Feb 23, 2026

The father's sin Carved into history The cries of my ancestors Violently echo, cycles of trauma repeat Perpetually trapped The innocent bleed into rivers of filth Scorching what's left of the earth All for the sake of the kill Born into nothingness We just exist as a debt to the dirt The roots underneath Devoured the bones, evolving the hurt Born into nothingness We just exist as the prey while they feast A carcass for shelter Gnaw at the flesh, the mouth of a beast The void persists, it's here to stay No matter where I go, it always follows me Embrace the hurt just to inherit the pain When there's no other way What do we see when we leave this place? I feel the grief in the heart of my mother As she watches her son disappear I feel the weight of everything I've had to carry alone The cycles of trying to cope The father's sin Traced back to the start Collecting our spirits As we're leaving the world, as we're falling apart Perpetually trapped The thread that connects starts to fray with the truth The cycle continues The void persists, it's here to stay No matter where I go, it always follows me Embrace the hurt just to inherit the pain When there's no other way What do we see when The void persists, it's here to stay No matter where I go, it always follows me Embrace the hurt just to inherit the pain When there's no other way What do we see when we leave this place? What do we see when we leave this place?

Submitted by MetalElf — Feb 23, 2026