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If I won't live a lie it's in my self defence That I remember hiding then If I'm eroding all the innocence Am I running rigid once again? And he won't hear me now in the darkest hour I'll never see him now Oh I can take the mystery in the darkest hour And he won't hurt me now If we are lost in paradise Our recollection all but gone We will make the only sacrifice For the strength to carry on In spite of everything I recognise the end And feel the scars that never heal I keep the purity, buried as I am In an effort to conceal Don't underestimate what I've retained All my souvenirs, forget-me-nots I'll pretend all you want me to I won't believe it if you don't Burn it up again, it's here and I've Let it live through other stolen lives Save your hollow breath Feast your tired eyes You need protection as well as I Nothing any good ever came from me Thought I could run you in the ground What do I do, what kind of fool Covers you like an animal? Out of the way I'm anyone wilder than you are Anyone who ever had a heart Wouldn't deny me Woe betide the one, not to be outdone Who will remember all that stuff Didn't I say it then enough? If I could let it be, I would Start it again, when does it end? I'm in there somewhere Nobody can carry me over Now the dead winds have blown With the cold rains If I should fall from your side Keep it in your mind How I tried to keep him here How I promised he'd be safe And he never said a word And he never cried Another day leads me on And I will follow Whatever it takes now, I'll do If it's over And he won't hurt me now, I know When I'm losing all the power And he won't hurt me now In this darkest hour

Submitted by johnmansley — Feb 23, 2026

I. After All Following everything I've known I was wandering all alone Waiting for a time that might have been My own way down Suddenly everything is wrong Have I really been gone so long? Hanging by the nails across my Idle eyes so wide And after all the days of fading senses This has taken more Than I had to give If we face the one we've been avoiding And I'm out of all control again Let me go Gathering comforting remains I was unprepared, running scared Faltering, and why do I hold on? It's gone, I know And after all the days of fading senses I don't feel the same And I want to live The insecurity of never knowing Has the race been run, and is The long day done? II. Fading Senses (Instrumental)

Submitted by johnmansley — Feb 23, 2026

Out of a time from way back when Disregarding discipline Should have never given in And I really should have known Some are born into their lives With a need to be destroyed It's the wrong thing on my mind The only thing we can't survive Standing in the line of fire Innocently dumb They're in my head and still they come Out of nowhere Is there something Something more than this? Inner tension Settled with a kiss What a time to bump and grind What a daydream, looking back Never a worry in the world For the cutter in the pack I don't understand this pain And I never will The scene is gone and here they are Out of nowhere Is there something Something that I've missed? It's going to happen And I can't resist If I believed a single word I would hesitate as well Making Heaven out of Hell-- All it takes is everything I want to raise you up and see There's something in your eyes But every time I try, they come Out of nowhere Is there something Something more than this? Inner tension Settled with a kiss Is there something Something that I've missed? It's going to happen And I can't resist

Submitted by johnmansley — Feb 23, 2026

Time takes my time I, here to myself, hold the silence in Torn from my hand So heavy now you're a world away Though they rage These little lies I've grown so cold And will I see you When I turn around? Here I'll remain Bound, ever bound, I am left to drown In this space I raise myself And move somehow To rearrange the brittle bones of you Now it's done And I resolve to make no sound So they're come Are they the ones Who'll take me down? Don't you cry precious tears for me Passion killers and stocking fillers abound When someone takes a dive Surface breakers and undertakers surround All but the fairest faces alive Tension seekers and public speakers defend These they have come to judge Seasoned liars and false messiahs descend To lay on the feeling touch And I've seen too much Day by day and I don't know why After all, don't we matter the same? Reach for the sky, don't break my heart Are there no angels, only us? Look how they've changed me, see what they've done It has begun Now as I lay me down to sleep If I should die before I wake Don't let me fail Don't ever break Roll me out where I am Let me in 'cause I've seen too much Day by day and I don't know why After all Maybe no-one's to blame And it's not the same I get this feeling from no-one else Show me now Are you out of my head? Breaking the borders, the chaos of lies Caught in the terrible rain from the skies Shaken as I am, her faith is as thin She can remember the moment of madness so well How many died right where they fell? I was the first in that sinister bed Closing the shutters and cutting the thread Shackled and fettered, I know who you are Bleeding the heart and the mind as the rivers run red Somebody said, "Here is Hell" Go wherever you can be And live for the day It's only wear and tear Doesn't matter anymore If I'm losing you You're always everywhere It's no wonder I'm afraid Of making amends And shattering the fear Now it's happening I know It's going to come So dark inside of here What have they done? Stay with me Can you say where you are? I'll be there, I'll do it Just tell me I'll never let go Never let go

Submitted by johnmansley — Feb 23, 2026

Though you may be now A long way from home All your hand-me-downs Live on in their dreams I can see something in that smile In the way they play They're passing down the line Opening the tears and the emptiness No danger signs Features unrecognised Until now So soon winter brings The first fall of snow There are secret things In all the whitest worlds I can see something in that smile In the way they play They're passing down the line Opening the tears and the emptiness No danger signs Features unrecognised Until now Time enough when old sensations Won't remind anymore Unaware of all the children Running rings without a care Joining in their games When I hear pale horses riding See them fly as they go Then I know to free the reins Of unquiet thoughts

Submitted by johnmansley — Feb 23, 2026

All the memories that lead to isolation All the time we didn't share When we set adrift half-forgotten lies Will the madness still be there? Who of all you now will ride the lows and highs? Whose hands are these that come to pray? When you turn away, the distance in your eyes Speaks the words that you won't say Far away, we say goodbye Too many unremembered arms that won't let go How can I be on your side If the line divides And if anyone should listen? Though starry-eyed, I know This is still the garden where I came down Holding faster than before, for what it's worth now Those days that none will see replaced What became of us, mysterious and ageless? We left without a trace Far away, we wave goodbye Too many unremembered arms that won't let go How can I be on your side If the line divides And if anyone should listen? Though starry-eyed, I know This is still the garden where I came down

Submitted by johnmansley — Feb 23, 2026