Fear in a Handful of Dust

Shadowed by the clouds of doubt, my determined disbelief Bounded by the need to break down everything I once believe Trapped inside a meaning that I cannot figure out Held down by the reasons that haunt me whenever you’re around You can’t believe it You are not even dead There are no symptoms It’s just in your head Crawling out from underneath a wall I built inside my head Counting every friend I’ve lost along the path of the dead Raging into nothingness for something unregained Begging for emptiness that I always have retained You can’t believe it You’re not even dead There are no symptoms It’s just in your head It’s all in your head It’s all in your head It’s all in your head It’s all in your head I can’t help it I dream of suicide There’s no stopping This pain that boils inside me There is just a pile of dust When the storm comes I will go where I must

Submitted by The Void — Apr 26, 2025

Raging all, the dead end roads of all the things I did before Take a fucking look inside before you try to start a war Dragging through the waters of a past that’s all but dead and gone Be careful what you open up, these wounds have been here far too long Now that you can see the end is nothing but a twisted thing What would you decide inside if you could strike the breath from me? Never won a fucking thing, failure’s what you give to me Hoping that you never see what it is, you break in me I am not your pawn or play thing You don’t know a thing about me Sitting here with my head in my hands No absolution from my sins As the pain it comes again As the pain it comes again Empty bottles, broken glass When will I learn it’s what I deserve? I’ll never see the curve I am not your pawn or play thing You don’t know a thing about me Sitting here with my head in my hands No absolution from my sins As the pain it comes again As the pain it comes again Empty bottles, broken glass When will I learn it’s what I deserve? I’ll never see the curve Raging all, the dead end roads of all the things I did before Take a fucking look inside before you try to start a war Dragging through the waters of a past that’s all but dead and gone Be careful what you open up, these wounds have been here far too long Now that you can see the end is nothing but a twisted thing What would you decide inside if you could strike the breath from me? Never won a fucking thing, failure’s what you give to me Hoping that you never see what it is, you break in me What it is You break in me!

Submitted by Immortal — Apr 26, 2025

This is my delusion It’s not your illusion This time we won’t fucking fall It’s my battle call It’s your painted face Your cities burned and raped You fall into the wake Death creates your fate You fall You prey on confidence So pray I don’t give a shit Fuck you You ended my way of life Burn like a premonition Lack, lack of your religion Hate, refuse their god and paint them red You feel this was easy He looks down on you I don’t think you’re ready If so make our mind up Decided to fly away Our pride all strapped in Bow down because of this Fuck off not on your life You fall You prey on confidence So pray I don’t give a shit Fuck you You ended my way of life Burn like a premonition Lack, lack of your religion Hate, refuse their god and paint them red Paint them red! Time for the sleeping to awake As we hate your faith will shake Pissed off, fuck off, stand off You bet not on your life Decided to fly away Our pride all strapped in Bow down because of this Fuck off not on your life You fall You prey on confidence So pray I don’t give a shit Fuck you You ended my way of life Bun like a premonition Lack, lack of your religion Hate, refuse their god and paint them red

Submitted by Lake of Tears — Apr 26, 2025

I am nothing to you! I’ve been gutted out from the inside Another hollow shell left by the roadside Another broken man better off forgot Deciding contradictions by my fucking grave plot I have seen the end and it’s all too clear Shallow breath, creeping death as I blindly hang here Too many failures in my head and I can’t get them out Still I smile in denial as you point them out I am something, nothing I am everything, nothing I will leave you nothing I am everything, nothing I am not confused by this catastrophe Hey, Mr. Big Shot, take a fucking shot at me I am everything and I won’t forget everything that you haven’t mentioned yet I am full of shit yet you hang on words that I don’t regret That’s why I fucking ramble on I will dig this hole so I can climb in and watch the sunset on another end I am something, nothing I am everything, nothing I will leave you nothing I am everything, nothing... I can’t believe you did this You left me in this hole A shallow broken man My life beyond my control Nothing! I am something, nothing I am everything, nothing I will leave you nothing I am everything, nothing I am... I am... I am... Nothing!

Submitted by VladTheImpaler666 — Apr 26, 2025

Goddamn reflection! So who’s the fool? You are, you fuck So says goddam reflection Thoughts wander by I try and catch but there’s no real definition Life coming clear but not too kind It’s my life, you can keep it I try too hard but who’s to say My dreams they will not stand up You could only wish that we would quit Self-destructive sewer’s not an option Too drunk with rage, too blind with spite I only live to prove you wrong I stand here isolated Mutilated, recreated Fuck your hatred Mine is stronger So much hate Mine will last longer Goddamn reflection A lethal engine Goddamn reflection Goddamn, goddamn! Goddamn reflection! I stand here unbeat and unscarred Your words can’t hurt my brick wall You are powerless, almost forgot Into your face I spit You could only wish that we would quit Self-destructive sewer’s not an option Too drunk with rage, too blind with spite I only live to prove you wrong I stand here isolated Mutilated, recreated Fuck your hatred Mine is stronger So much hate Mine will last longer Goddamn reflection A lethal engine Goddamn reflection Goddamn, goddamn! You can’t break me down Stabbing your eyes out You are not my friend You’re my goddamn reflection You can’t break me down Stabbing your eyes out You are not my friend You’re my goddamn reflection

Submitted by Finntroll — Apr 26, 2025

No one, now what? Please, don’t try to follow I could give two shits about you Good luck with your motives You think what the fuck you want to I don’t think you understand That all your shit is not my problem You might say I condescend But I’ve always been above you Fuck it, it’s over, believe it Truth lies, deceive it I don’t know why I stand for this Fuck it, it’s over, believe it Truth lies, deceive it Fuck you and your motherfucker No one, now what? No one, now what? Believe in your brother Where exactly does that get me? Accept, realize, discover You don’t give a fuck about me Now I’m in the shadows of your cause But what’s all this for? You will never listen Fact is I’ve said all this before Fuck it, it’s over, believe it Truth lies, deceive it I don’t know why I stand for this Fuck it, it’s over, believe it Truth lies, deceive it Fuck you and your motherfucker No one, now what? No one, now what? Your hate is swallowing me I think it’s hard to believe Everything that you do is a smoke screen Another see-through disguise You lie in bed with your lies Another bullshit reason for living It all comes back in the end When you’re alone with your sin When all your stones have been thrown Who will you blame? I hope you wallow in shit Never forgive or forget That you’re the one who made the bed you’re in No one, now what? You believe in no one

Submitted by MetalElf — Apr 26, 2025

Sacrificing the truth just to fuck with me You’re just enforcing the proof of this conspiracy Everything that you do is just disgusting me I will not let this go! You live a lie You live that lie I’d rather die I’d rather fucking die You live a lie full of denial Now you pull that thorn from my side I can’t believe You will not let this go I can’t conceive it My time means nothing to you This is the end of the age of innocence I prefer the blindness, I refuse to reminisce Cry all you want, I will not take offense This is the end of the age of innocence You live a lie You live that lie I’d rather die I’d rather fucking die You live a lie full of denial Now you pull that thorn from my side I can’t believe You will not let this go I can’t conceive it My time means nothing to you This is the end of the age of innocence I prefer the blindness, I refuse to reminisce Cry all you want, I will not take offense This is the end of the age of innocence I made my mind up long ago These dreams are mine and I won’t let Everything that you, everything that you’ve shown Comes between me and my sins You’re just discussing the facts right here in front of me One hand behind you back while you call for piece Everything that you do it just refuses me I will not let this go! Redirecting the blame just the save some face How far was the fall when you fell from grace? Keep looking at me, I’ll put you in your place I will not let this go! This is the end of the age of innocence I prefer the blindness, I refuse to reminisce Cry all you want, I will not take offense This is the end of the age of innocence

Submitted by Immortal — Apr 26, 2025

I’ve already made up my mind, fuck you Can’t understand what you want me to do? Bleeding for us, now I’m bleeding trough you Why can’t you just go? Leave me alone like before Paying me off, locking the doors No healing of scars, just salting of sores Why won’t this just end? This life is mine This pain is mine Although unkind I don’t need you Sickness, no cure Ending, unsure I will endure I don’t need you Why do you bite the hand that feed you? Pulling back the nub, I’m bleeding Pulling back the nub, I’m bleeding There is no cure that supersedes you There is no cure! I don’t think I fucking need you I’m sorry, oh god, I take it all back It can’t be your fault that I fell through the cracks Patience and virtue all that you lack Goddamn, I hate you! Your penance is finally served Alone and forgotten is what you deserve Leaving the past destroyed in your wake Absolution first! This life is mine This pain is mine Although unkind I don’t need you Sickness, no cure Ending, unsure I will endure I don’t need you Why do you bite the hand that feed you? Pulling back the nub, I’m bleeding Pulling back the nub, I’m bleeding There is no cure that supersedes you There is no cure! I don’t think I fucking need you I don’t think I fucking need you There is no cure that supersedes you There is no cure! I don’t give a fuck what you do I don’t think I fucking need you My god It’s just amazing how everything comes to an end I don’t need you A drop in the bucket, so fuck it, you win You can’t love me Bury your dead to cover your sin Think you missed on You run and you beg and you crawl to the end I don’t need you This life is mine This pain is mine Although unkind I don’t need you Sickness, no cure Ending, unsure I will endure I don’t need you Why do you bite the hand that feed you? Pulling back the nub, I’m bleeding Pulling back the nub, I’m bleeding There is no cure that supersedes you There is no cure! I don’t think I fucking need you

Submitted by VladTheImpaler666 — Apr 26, 2025

Lie to me! I was better off not knowing Believing that you were just tired of me Now I don’t know what to think I want all my blindness back You took all that I had and wrapped it up inside Now you’re dying on me No fucking way I have never seen your face No! Lie to me! Please! Lie to me! Now that I’ve seen the truth you can’t take it back Now that I’ve seen the light My god, he turns his back Drowning in denial as you fade to black Is this the fucking end? I won’t let you go! Just leave me, just die All alone in my pool of guilt Isn’t that the outcome anyways? Why postpone to feed me hope? I’d give up anything just for one last glance But it never is to be a victim of circumstance No! Lie to me! Please! Lie to me! Now that I’ve seen the truth you can’t take it back Now that I’ve seen the light My god, he turns his back Drowning in denial as you fade to black Is this the fucking end? I won’t let you go! I know you’ve heard these lies Before you found them crumbles at your doors Now you know these lies are true I don’t deserve to be with you Everything that I hold, dear, means nothing When I hold you near me Everything that I thought was wrong It all ended up in this song Let me go Now you see that I don’t have a problem Another fucking selfish belief... Lie to me! Wishing I could cut it out Place it with my selfish doubt Fuck, this shit won’t go away Needs to find another place to hide Never seen my saving grace Never have I seen your face Wishing that you would just lie to me Fucking lie to me!

Submitted by The Void — Apr 26, 2025

You wanted to give me something I already own You wanted to disillusion me Something I fucking found on my own You can’t give it to me I will take it away You needed to sell me something already inside You felt that I needed a mouthful of your fucking pride Your hatred lives in me Something I get for fucking free No sale signs, no dollar buys Just pure hatred for fucking me And I needed for you to sale me Some more of those drugs That make me itch inside my head I look around, nothing but pain You fucking lied You ripped my goddamn soul inside You can’t give it to me I will take it away You can’t give it to me I will take it away

Submitted by Immortal — Apr 26, 2025