Oblivious to the Obvious
"Quid est aliud mirore Aliud atra mi dolore Mei sta sola spem spirare Meliora Nunc est aliud mirore Aliud atra mi dolore Credo mei super futurum Semper tecum" I can't move, I can't sleep I can't eat, I can't breathe without pain I feel weak, I feel trapped I feel tired, I feel sapped once again I am done, I am gone I am spent, I am drawn to the brink! Every time this happens, I lose the ground I've gained If this is what my life is, complaints can't be contained Be contained! [CHORUS] I'm beat down, I'm held up I'm held down, I'm beat up Is there nothing I can do? I'm led right, I'm pulled wrong I'm pushed right, I'm dead wrong if I admit that I am through I was strong, I was me I was whole, I was free without pain I want hope, I want time I want health, I want life once again I need help, I need you I need peace, I need to live again Every time this happens, I should be more aware It's nothing I can't handle even though it seems unfair So unfair! [CHORUS] Evaluating, complicating, accelerating to the brink Accumulating, calculating, substantiating at the brink Negotiating, meditating, separating on the brink Retaliating, isolating, evaporating from the brink Hallucinating, regulating, medicating to the brink Disintegrating, speculating, fluctuating at the brink Concentrating, navigating, suffocating on the brink Operating, supplicating, liberating from the brink I have faith, I have will I have strength, I have still to overcome I won't stop, I won't break I won't lose, I won't take anymore I will stand, I will fight I will try, I will right what is wrong Every time this happens, I know what I derive I always receive strength from you that helps me to survive To survive! I'm beat down, I'm held up I'm held down, I'm beat up, but there's something I can do I'm led right, I'm pulled wrong I'm pushed right, I'm dead wrong if I think I won't pull through
Submitted by Grave666 — Jun 21, 2026
I had to leave, I had to escape that dreary life I led Its weight was crushing down upon me I had no place in mind when I left, so I hit the road, headed west How the world just opened up right before my eyes Is this all life is meant to be? Just another cog in the big machine? [CHORUS] This is the place, now is the time You'd better act now, or life will pass you by What is the point if there's no joy inside? A meaningless life is no life at all My vision was filled with water and sand Light danced across the shore and the waves came crashing as if they were greeting a friend Took off my shoes and went for a swim The water called me on I followed its melody, plunged right into the unknown This is how life is meant to be Just another dreamer living my dream [CHORUS x2] What is the point if there's no joy inside? A meaningless life is no life at all
Submitted by Grave666 — Jun 21, 2026
You treat me like a pawn Is that what I am? I have nothing left inside and you don't give a damn You keep me in check with a look My move is stalled The game reads like an open book I've been positioned to fall Tell me how you can say that you love me when the only thing you love is control? Tell me how I can stay when you hurt me, when the things that you say take their toll? [CHORUS] I need to see the end of you controlling me and haunting me I want to see what I can do away from here, away from you I need to make my last move, get out of here and see it through I'll be free without your noose and not a pawn for you to use I'm waiting patiently for a chance to get out of this trap When the hold that you have loosens its grip from my life I've hesitated far too long and I'm afraid to be alone I'm afraid that when I break away, I'll be lost without a home Tell me how you can say that you love me when the only thing you love is control? Tell me how I can play when you beat me, when the moves that you make strip my soul? [CHORUS] I'm going down that lonely road I have to get out on my own I hope the place that my path ends is a place that I've never been (x3) (In my life I've made mistakes, and now I'm drowning in their wake Checkmate doesn't mean I'm through: only that I'm through with you) (x2) The sting of your words still burns me The scar of emotion is too deep to heal Your move has become failed strategy as the prison that you built burns down [CHORUS]
Submitted by Grave666 — Jun 21, 2026
Side by side in a throng of people, yet somehow I'm feeling alone Never liked the situation Never dealt with isolation A desolate wasteland teeming with countless people It is an effort to withstand the assault of their endless silence (x2) [CHORUS] Swimming in a sea of faces Faces moving to a sea of places Places to go, just crowded spaces Spaces to run in futile races The streets might as well be empty It's not like anyone is talking Just hurrying on their way Acting as if there's nothing to say Infinite as sand, they stream down every street And I am witnessing firsthand the results of their endless silence (x2) [CHORUS] In a boat with just one oar Another person they'd ignore The tide pulls me in, but to what avail? (x2) Fruitlessness in success Nothingness in surety Hollowness in substance Worthlessness in riches Living, but to no avail Living, but to no avail (x2) [CHORUS]
Submitted by Grave666 — Jun 21, 2026
Here I am again on the 38th floor The view is good, but my mind is out the door Staring at a screen all day, there's no further I can sink Can't help but think I've somehow flushed my life away I've flushed it away! Every day the same, every meeting a corporate game I wouldn't be surprised if my boss doesn't know my name I don't know myself, I can't stand who I've become Coerced by fear, pressure and strain forced my career Get me out of here, take me to a place where I can see something different than what's in front of me Silence my fear that I'm not where I should be That the door that was closed...it was closed by me If only I had another chance to go back to the point where I was scared to take the risk, so I abandoned what I love If only I had another shot to go back where my soul was bought and sold by a poor decision, my "now" wouldn't need revision And every day I get so bored, nothing seems to change The doubt about the choice I made rings like thunder in the rain I'm just a grain of sand on an endless beach, another face in the crowd I could have held the playing hand that took me out of the mundane's reach and walked the path my dreams allowed (x2) Instead I've got another meeting Gotta keep the company strong Gotta keep the company strong The boss has asked for overtime He'll make sure the day drags on He'll make sure the day drags on What have I done? Where have I gone? Everything and everywhere I knew was wrong What have I seen? Where are my dreams? Nothing and nowhere but a computer screen (x4) Here I am again on the 38th floor The view is good as I'm walking out the door One choice that cost so much made life unrecognizable, but I have another chance to make my goal realizable I can't undo what's been done, but I have to try to fix what's wrong To let my dreams be my guide They now refuse to be denied I may not find the way back out of the mess I've made, but I'm about to swallow pride, 'cause I'm walking out! The time is now to change my life!
Submitted by Grave666 — Jun 21, 2026
If your heart is not in it, then neither are you Just because you said you would doesn't mean you'll follow through I hear what you say, but I see what you do, and the things that I see prove your words are untrue There are too many people who are getting off track Too many friends not watching my back It seems I'm in this alone and I'm losing the desire to be the only one to step up and get burned by the fire [CHORUS 1 x2] Give it your heart and give it your soul If you can't give this, then you'll hit the road Give me a break, it's not a one-man show If you don't pull your weight, you'll be let go You say you're on my side, that I can count on you But when I need your help, you never follow through Is there anyone left I can trust? It's something that's never come easy Is there anyone left that's not just looking for something that's free? There are too many problems not ever getting solved Too many solutions where you weren't involved I guess it's all up to me, everything is still the same You not keeping your word, me always getting the blame [CHORUS 2 x2] Give it your heart and give it your soul If you can't give this, then you'll hit the road Give me a break, I can't give anymore If you don't pull your weight, I'll show you the door You're committed at first when things aren't at their worst, but when things get tougher, I'm the one who has to suffer Should I be surprised? Should I be surprised? You promised to take on the load, not to stall and be towed Now the weight is pressing down and you're giving me the run-around Should I be surprised? Should I be surprised? When I ask you where you stand, you say you stand with me What have you done to show it? When I asked you what you planned, you always said to me, "You know I'll never quit." Should I be surprised? Should I be surprised? There are too many people who are getting off track Too many friends not watching my back It seems I'm in this alone and I'm losing the desire to be the only one to step up and get burned by the fire [CHORUS 1 x2]
Submitted by Grave666 — Jun 21, 2026
I'm lost inside my thoughts, no expression on my face Reeling from my father's rage and the anger inside his head Point a finger at the innocent, yell how I'm to blame for all your insecurities and for your endless shame Does it make you feel better? Does it ease the pain? Does it help you feel secure by acting so insane? [CHORUS] Don't lay your skeletons on me Don't say I'm just like you Your secrets are excuses to hurt me, but they can't excuse you Don't take your problems out on me I'm not a mess like you Don't let your skeletons haunt me They're only meant for you I'm numb from what he said His venomous words stuck in my head My father won't get off my back Just another malicious attack Does it make you feel better? Does it ease the pain? Does it help you feel secure by acting so insane? [CHORUS] Skeletons! [CHORUS]
Submitted by Grave666 — Jun 21, 2026
Ever since you found him and he lost you, your life has never been the same - Been the same The ease with which he said goodbye has left a bitter taste of pain - Taste of pain But feelings deceive and can sometimes be brief Until they slip away, fade away And nothing is left to take their place but a memory of how things might be [PRE-CHORUS] What can you do when someone decides they're over you? Is there a way to forget the past and move on today? His words haunt you still, and you don't feel like you'll be okay You'll be okay [CHORUS] Now you are alone and afraid that better times won't be remade That where you are will never change That you and love are still estranged You've never felt as far away as you do right now You want a brand-new start Brand-new start You've been hiding in your room all day, never letting time do its part [PRE-CHORUS] [CHORUS] So you step with fear into everything you do There's no sense at all in laying yourself bare You can't see why you're not someone he'd pursue Now you wish you could make yourself not care No! [PRE-CHORUS] So you'll be alone and afraid You don't want to be hurt again You never want to feel this way You're not the same as you were then As you were then
Submitted by Grave666 — Jun 21, 2026
(<em>Instrumental</em>)
Submitted by Grave666 — Jun 21, 2026
He was never there for me, he rarely looked my way And when he'd come home tired from work, he never had a thing to say And if he ever spoke to me, it was always in anger When I tried to speak to him, he'd treat me like a stranger What kind of father hits his son? Takes out his pain on everyone? Thinks only of himself, like he's the only one who exists in the world that needs someone [CHORUS] What chance did I have of turning out right? I never learned a thing at home that could help me with my life Always being yelled at and deprived of any fun that a childhood should consist of, never loved by anyone She always shot me down with a bullet from her mouth She made me feel so guilty if I wanted to leave the house She'd disregard everyone in a power-hungry spree Clean the house like a psycho driven by her OCD What kind of mother neglects her son? Puts down her child, says he's no one? Thinks only of herself and if her house is clean Wants nothing more than status and prestige [CHORUS x2] No chance of having self-esteem No chance when rage is a constant theme No chance of showing love for their son No chance when they think about themselves or else no one No chance when innocence is reviled No chance when blame is placed upon a child No chance if good examples can't be found No chance if parents do not want to be around
Submitted by Grave666 — Jun 21, 2026
The news dropped like a bomb and I felt numb inside How could I get cancer? I pleaded for God to give me an answer The diagnosis compelled me to look back at my life What I saw brought sorrow, a troubled past and a bleak tomorrow My life is such a tragedy The common theme is misery Now my end is drawing near They say I'll die within the year [CHORUS] I look inside and see my parents' ghosts I've become the thing I hated most The pain is tearing me in two The guilt is burning me right through Why did it take something like this to make me realize I'm just like them? I treat my kids unfairly, I know them just barely I've never shown caring, I'm sure that they hate me [CHORUS] Is it too late to make amends? Is it too late to forgive my sins? Will my kids even care when I'm dead? Am I ever a thought in their heads? (x3)
Submitted by Grave666 — Jun 21, 2026
I know that I am committed to change Change is something that will take time Time is stealing away from me my chance to become what I should be My chance to become I don't have time to gain their trust I want to prove they have my love I hope my death will make them weep, but I fear their wounds have run too deep [CHORUS] Time is against me, they're better off without me But before I meet my death, I will use my every breath to tell them I was wrong and to change who I've become, so that when I'm gone, someone will remember me I asked each one for their forgiveness I acknowledged that I had failed them all I have to mend the damage caused, but change takes longer than I thought But change takes so long I don't have strength to give enough I want to show I'm serious I hope my life is far from gone, but I fear my chance has been withdrawn [CHORUS] I'm free! I have redemption! It is in remission, and I'll make good my second chance I'm free! I have recognition! I'm in transition to the man I want to be
Submitted by Grave666 — Jun 21, 2026
Too often life, it slips away and failures can't be rectified Everyone makes some mistakes, but I would have died unsatisfied I saw myself at my very core I don't want to be that anymore Now I see through different eyes I see the way that I have hurt their lives Chains broken and left in the past Bonds of my parents are gone at last I've let go of who I've been Escaped the prison they put me in [CHORUS] As I hold my life in my hands, I'll make good my second chance Finally when I meet my end, I can be proud of who I am Can't let memories haunt me Unjustified actions taunt me I have too much to repair for all the years I was unfair My redemption has just begun, and I know it will be hard, but I know that who I am is the person I should have been Bonds broken and left in the past Chains of the cycle are gone at last Now I decide who I will be No cloud of darkness hanging over me [CHORUS] I will never again be the man I've been
Submitted by Grave666 — Jun 21, 2026
(<em>Instrumental</em>)
Submitted by Grave666 — Jun 21, 2026