Disgusting Hedonism

I can see something else, rather than my soiled and destructed illusions And by thus perceiving the sounds of ten million weepers of loss I will keep you in my heart as a symbol of grace when I bum my wings And my feelings turn into disgust Blindfolded I see myself as one on both sides Kneel down and get hypnotized by this distinctive cadence of speech confining you He wants you to feed him, wants you to bleed for him Yeah, he's just like a parasite, fucks things up on the inside and then makes you wither away Creating the black dog that licks the bottom dry Eating dirt on demand. I want you to feel and see what inhabit my specific skin Eating dirt on demand. Losing myself as one, then wither away Is this an illusion, or just a confusion, but it feels so fucking real? Would I ever be pure and clean and feel you embracing me? No, dementia is nearby Eating dirt on demand. It feels like I am diving with stones around my ankles Eating dirt on demand. Chasing the dog and the dog is me The fucking dog is me! What kind of turn will my mind make and will I ever be able to stand as one again? I've been driving down this dirty road for so long and so close to a self-denial joy Paint on my body symbols and words that will describe my weird demise And that I wasn't able to subsist my life until The End.

Submitted by Iron_Wraith — Apr 26, 2025

The thought of never coming back is what leads me to attack Steering at the flogging depths of pandemonium My blood begins to boil, heart beats faster than before I am guided by forces beyond my control There is no heaven, there is no earth Introspective dimensions Heading into a visionary vortex In a tormented moment of hallucinations And I begin to realise that this is no dream Another illusion is turning real, once more Abandon and return Are you the night, and is my ship sinking faster than I could know? Like marches of death within a frantic oblivion of human avalanches I approach these deserted apocalyptic cities It all becomes one And I will never be left alone to weep Sucked into blackness, consume me more and more. The perfect symmetry of my mind and my body Phantoms, ugly faces as I whirl In a tormented moment of hallucinations And I begin to realise that this is no dream I am loosing the grip on the reality's might and the affection for life.

Submitted by Finntroll — Apr 26, 2025

Scraping my finger-nails into this dirty mass of what seems to be my floor Running away is just the metaphor of dying I could push this further beyond, twist the knife more Predisposed and attached to passion as I am Life: One rise, just to fall. Yes, I am digging deeper and deeper. I am needles and don't sense the hands that strikes me. Yes, I am digging. Are you happy, swimming towards nothing...? Sometimes it feeds me too... ahh... disgust! This fucking nature eats me up and invites me deeper into a generated hostility against all man-kinds Life: One rise, just to fall. Yes, I am digging deeper and deeper Now I will fry (to feel even more) Yes, I am burning to sense life A head to head combat An illusion has kept it away for so long Just whip! No more water for me please. Just whip! Give birth to freedom. We will never meet again...

Submitted by SerpentEve — Apr 26, 2025

Begin for more. I try so damn hard to hold on this brilliance Because this is for real... and my confusion is my tong Strange, as a strange fade in this absurd ocean Once again, it strikes as eternal experiences to the senses I can't taste the colors right Strongly addicted to... Be my face below A stimulating despair... Begin for more. I try so damn hard to hold on this brilliance Because this is for real... and my confusion is my tongue... Pain, don't drain, are you thinking about me when I'm swimming my way? Fade away, when I kiss her till death and see a designed eternity I can't taste the colors right Strongly addicted to... Be my face below A stimulating despair... Turning away and see another day gone by... feels like zero Mistreated all my life... by myself.... not by you How should I value my fear when I'm staring into emptiness And realize that the answers do not rely on the wall? Affection, searching, finding, touching, fucking, smiling, dying Everybody think they're going somewhere Affection, searching, finding, touching, fucking, dying, smiling. To believe in an everlasting fear A fucking manufactured ignorance?!

Submitted by Pestilence — Apr 26, 2025

Burn me! Like a dance in the fire Striking my eyes, my loss and my fears A dance in the fire Discerning my dreams from my waking thoughts... boosted Burn me! Like a dance in the fire Striking my eyes, my loss and my fears Envisioned and now for real Discerning my dreams from my waking thoughts... I live underground Vision how the poison is to be swallowed and how I choose this kind of life Don't take purity of mind for granted People don't know anything and don't talk about nothing The centre of my soul I've opened up and I've closed it down Cold-sweating... breeding under water... virus incubation Burn me! Like a dance in the fire Striking my eyes, my loss and my fears A dance in the fire Discerning my dreams from my waking thoughts... boosted Burn me! Like a dance in the fire Striking my eyes, my loss and my fears Envisioned and now for real Discerning my dreams from my waking thoughts... I live underground Raising chaos The forces of Leviathan

Submitted by VladTheImpaler666 — Apr 26, 2025

No shame and no reclaim No good and no bad in this life, No feelings at all in this fucked up Prozac mind. I feel no fucking numb and I don't sense anything. No lament echoes, I wash my hands with both eyes closed and try to degenerate the rapid and chaotic impulses (that fed me before). No moderations and no temptations In the bounds of this shit-case A boy, wearing dead flowers in his hands Affected by the beauty of his infection Reaching for a level beyond his dark shell A touch of transcended mentally delays. No pain and no pleasure has lain It's hands over me this time I feel so fucking numb and I don't sense anything. No lament echoes, I wash my hands with both eyes closed and try to degenerate the rapid and chaotic impulses (that fed me before).

Submitted by MetalElf — Apr 26, 2025

I'm touching the cause of my muse, the voices in my head Strong and stable, never pending or pretending their shed Eye - the visual insanity I tried to see but they nailed my eyes A scream of silence (I scream in silence) In ambivalence, I will question neither my will nor my desire I'm touching the cause of my muse, the voices in my head Feeding them is for me to staying so alive Dreams - the forced duality. Forever trapped in this dream-scenario It straps me. My hands are tied A mental penetration I'm drowning in my own madness I see a sick and closely controlled transaction, in the essence of my basic instincts No taste of color, but the smell of black leather trespasses the conception of man and virtue I salute the sinner Under water I try to establish my contests for a difference in actions.

Submitted by Corpse Defiler — Apr 26, 2025

Lost in a mirror of shame, steering at yourself and wondering who to blame? What a waste I got pain in my veins today, you have many faces! Abused and fused apart, shining Somehow I know this pain is for real Since I first met you and since we went apart I've exceeded the bounds of decent life; every day feels the same Bizarre and self-destructed ways, don't deny yourself These are dreams that affect my behaviour Somehow I know this pain is for real Since I first met you and since we went apart Exceeded the bounds of decent life; I try to see it all To reinforce the impression of reality and insanity and seeing pain as the only link between them both Rage broke the mirror of shame leaving no-one behind to blame I got pain in my veins today, you have many faces! Abused and fused apart, shining One taste, one bite, a longing for more The moments of conquest A perfect symmetry of my mind and my body It all becomes one Guided by forces beyond my control (I slip into oblivion) No remorse for the infected sinners swimming in this wormhole Obsessed on the thoughts of destroying my body to overcome boredom... I saw, a shame that is not a part of my game in life, and under the dawn, endless darkness I saw a brilliant dissonance

Submitted by Pestilence — Apr 26, 2025

Has it ever occurred to you that I want to drown??? To swallow it all? Possessed I am longing for torture and not for the segments of grace Forever deceased by conventional shame and transparency Envision the pleasure and pain, sorrow and solitude This is darkness as I see it So black that it's unreal! Possessed I am longing for torture and not for the segments of grace This is darkness as I see it Come and dance with me, I saw your face and you sailed away Alone with my thoughts, I am giving you everything Holding on long enough until it breeds within me I will last for how long it takes to see it all Who are you, whom I chase? I fucked my life up for you as a distinguishing expression of lust An intense focus upon different levels of reality

Submitted by Sexy Gargoyle — Apr 26, 2025