Train of Thought

Don't tell me what's in, tell me how to write, don't tell me how to win this fight. It isn't your life, it isn't your right to take the only thing that's mine. Proven over time, it's over your head, don't try to read between. The lines are clearly defined! Never lose sight of something you believe in. Taking in the view from the outside, feeling like the underdog. Watching through the window, I'm on the outside. Living like the underdog! I've been trying to justify you, in the end I will just defy you. To those who understand I extend my hand, to the doubtful I demand take me as I am. Not under your command, I know where I stand. I won't change to fit your plan. Take me as I am! Still running uphill, swimming against the current, I wish I weren't so fucked. Feels like I'm stuck, lost in a sea of mediocrity. Slow down! You're thinking too much, where is your soul? You cannot touch the way I play, or tell me what to say. You're in the way of all that I believe in. Taking in the view from the outside, feeling like the underdog. Watching through the window, I'm on the outside. Living like the underdog! I've been wasting my breath on you, open minds will descend upon you. To those who understand I extend my hand, to the doubtful I demand take me as I am. Not under your command, I know where I stand. I won't change to fit your plan. Take me as I am!

Submitted by Corpse Defiler — Apr 25, 2025

Alcoholics Anonymous/Twelve-step Suite Part 4: Reflections Of Reality (Revisited) Hello Mirror! So glad to see you my friend, it's been a while. Searching fearless, where do I begin to heal this wound of self-denial? Face yourself man! Brace yourself and trace your Hell back. You've been blinded, living life a one-way cold existence all the while! Now it's time to stare the problem right between the eyes, you long lost child! I want to feel your body breaking, want to feel your body breaking and shaking and left in the cold I want to heal your conscience, making a change to fix this dying soul, this dying soul. This dying soul! Born into this world, a broken home, surrounded by love yet all alone. Forced into a life that's split in two, a mother and a father both pulling you. Then you had to deal with loss and death, everybody thinking they know best. Coping with this shit at such an age can only fill a kid with pain and rage. Family disease pumped through your blood, never had the chance you thought you could. running all the while with no escape, turning all that pain in to blame and hate. Living on your own by twenty-one, not a single care and having fun. Consuming all the life in front of you, burning out the fuse and smoking the residue. Possessive obsessions, selfish childish games, vengeful resentments, passing all the blame. Living out a life of decadence, acting without thought of consequence. Spreading all your lies from coast to coast while spitting on the ones that matter most. Running power mad with no control, fighting for the credit they once stole. No one can ever tell you what to do, ruling others’ lives while they can't stand the thought of you! A living reflection seen from miles away, a hopeless affliction having run astray. I want to feel your body breaking, want to feel your body breaking and shaking and left in the cold I want to heal your conscience, making a change to fix this dying soul, this dying soul. This dying soul! Now that you can see all you have done it's time to take that step into the kingdom, all your sins will only make you strong and help you break right through the prison wall. Part 5: Release Come to me my friend, I'll help this torture end. Listen to me, help to set me free! Let your ego go, you can't go through this alone. I can't carry this load, I feel so hopeless and exposed! You'll find your peace of mind, you can no longer hide. Give me some direction, break out of this isolation. Let humility, and become what you can be. Openness, honesty, a healing tranquility. Help me, save me, heal me, I can't break out of this prison all alone. These tormenting ghosts of yesterday will vanish when exposed. You can't hold onto your secrets, they'll only send you back alone. Your fearless admissions will help expel your destructive obsessions. With my help I know you can, be at one with God and man. Hear me, believe me, take me, I'm ready to break right through this prison wall.

Submitted by Grave666 — Apr 25, 2025

Cold, lying in my bed, staring into darkness. Lost, I hear footsteps overhead and my thoughts return again. Like a child who's run away and won't be coming back time keeps passing by as night turns into day. I'm so far away and so alone, I need to see your face to keep me sane, to make we whole. Try to stay alive until I hear your voice I'm gonna lose my mind! Someone tell me why I chose this life, this superficial lie! Constant compromise, endless sacrifice! Pain, it saddens me to know the helplessness you feel. Your light shines on my soul while a thousand candles burn. Outside this barren room the rain is pouring down, the emptiness inside is growing deeper still. You're so far away and so alone. You long for Love's embrace to keep you sane, to make you whole. Try to stay alive until I hear your voice I'm gonna lose my mind! Someone tell me why I chose this life, this superficial lie! Constant compromise, endless sacrifice! Moments wasted, isolated, time escaping, endless sacrifice! Moments wasted, isolated, time escaping, endless sacrifice! Over the distance we try to make sense of surviving together while living apart. Striving for balance, we rise to the challenge of staying connected in spite of circumstance. All you've forsaken and all that you've done so that I could live out this undying dream won't be forgotten or taken for granted, I'll always remember your endless sacrifice. Moments wasted, isolated, time escaping, endless sacrifice! Moments wasted, isolated, time escaping, endless sacrifice!

Submitted by NecroGod — Apr 25, 2025

We're taught unconditional love, that blood is thicker than water, that a parent's world would revolve always around their son or their daughter. You pretended I was your own and even believed that you loved me, but were always threatened by some invisible blood line that only you could see. You took advantage of an outreached hand and twisted it to meet your every need. "Gimme time to recharge my batteries, I'll see her when she's older and I'll bounce her on my knee." Well listen to me you ungrateful fool, here comes a dose of reality! You'll go to your grave a sad and lonely man, the door is now closed on your pathetic little plan. On and on and on and on it goes, it's so easy to run away with nothing in tow. How can you ever sleep a wink at night, pretending that everything is all right and have the nerve to blame this mess on me? Never in my life have I seen someone so ignorant to the damage he has done, you're the rotted root in the family tree. I tried your 4 bill therapy, I tried to make amends, but nothing could lure you out of your selfish shell again. Expecting everyone to bow and kiss your feet, don't you see respect is not a one-way street? Blaming everyone for all that you've done wrong, I'll get my peace of mind when you hear this song. On and on and on and on it goes, and with every passing day true colors show. How can you ever sleep a wink at night, pretending that everything is all right, and have the balls to blame this mess on me? Never in my life have I seen someone oblivious to the damage he has done, you're the rotted root in the family tree. Watch where you walk, don't you dare cross the crooked step. Watch the way you talk, don't cross the crooked step! "This is a regret that you make." "We just don't connect." "This is a regret that you make..." "I want my family back!" "...and there's something you take." "You can't have it, I'm sorry for you but it's too late!" "Mistakes like this you don't make." "Can't you see anything except in terms of how it affects you?" "You make some and they'll get to you!" "You don't love anybody! I gave you money, I gave you a car, I took you in..." "It's not OK, son!" "...but don't that mean something?" "A little..." "Do I admire people too much?" "No, you should do better!" "That disappoints you..." "God damn regrets!" "You deserve to die alone for what you've done!" "God damn regrets!" "Don't deny it!" "You cocksucker, I know you can hear me." "Don't deny it!" "I want you to know I hate your fucking guts!" "The biggest regret in my life!" "I wish you'd fucking die." "I let my love go!" "I'm your blood, I'm your family." "Is that you?" "You're not my family, not anymore" "The fucking regrets!" "When your own flesh and blood renounces you..." "What did I do?" "...you have no choice but to renounce them." "What did I do?" On and on and on and on it goes. Chauvinistic, heartless, selfish, cold! How can you ever sleep a wink at night, pretending that everything is all right and have the balls to blame this shit on me? Never in my life have I seen someone so fucking blind to the damage he has done, you're the rotted root in the family tree.

Submitted by MetalElf — Apr 25, 2025

Hey you, hey you, I'm right here! Conscience fading, can't get through. Oh Lord, helpless, confused, head swayed, eyes glazed and mine teared. She's losing control, what can I do? Her vacant eyes, black holes, am I losing you?

Submitted by Corpse Grinder — Apr 25, 2025

This track is instrumental.

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How can this be, why is he the chosen one? Saint gone astray with a scepter and a gun. Learn to believe in the mighty and the strong. Come bleed the beast, follow me, it won't be long. Listen when the prophet speaks to you, killing in the name of God! Passion twisting faith into violence in the name of God! Straight is the path leading to your salvation. Slaying the weak, ethnic elimination. Any day we'll all be swept away, you'll be saved as long as you obey. Lies, tools of the Devil inside, written in holy disguise, meant to deceive and divide us all. Listen when the prophet speaks to you, killing in the name of God! Passion twisting faith into violence in the name of God! Blurring the lines between virtue and sin, they can't tell where God ends and mankind begins. They know no other life but this, from the cradle they are claimed. Listen when the prophet speaks to you, killing in the name of God! Passion twisting faith into violence in the name of God! Hundreds of believers lured into a doomsday cult, all would perish in the name of God. Self-proclaimed Messiah led his servants to their death, eighty murdered in the name of God. Forty sons and daughters, unconsenting plural wives, perversions in the name of God. Underground religion turning toward the mainstream light, blind devotion in the name of God. Justifying violence, citing from the Holy Book, teaching hatred in the name of God. Listen when the prophet speaks to you, killing in the name of God! Passion twisting faith into violence in the name of God! In the name of God! Religious beliefs, fanatic obsession, does following faith lead us to violence? Unyielding crusade, divine revelation, does following faith lead us to violence?

Submitted by Morgoth — Apr 25, 2025