My Flesh and the Sacred River

My journey to the Holy Land has just begun I prepare myself to die away My spirit is ready, my flesh comes undone I think of you and sign my name All your tears... Candles and a river of blood Forgotten memories of a young man with too much heart But still I was always trying Disturbing God I asked, “May I come in?” Hoping for some other way to die It's my will, I tell Him, my desire I wish to step away from here Time to go into Necropolis My frail soul rises from the grave I know some things are real But others you cannot explain What does it mean? My lips are sealed When you're gone – you’ve won! The clock ticks away Now deep oceans and all the rivers Are flowing through my head Am I so phenomenal? Tell me what's going on