Masochist
I thought it was just another day 5 a.m, wake up to begin the daily grind Another stupid fucking day of what i thought was happiness Another stupid fucking day of being a slave On this day, everything changed My superficial life crumbled right before my eyes On this day, i lost my fucking mind I thought it was just another day I struggled in vain to hold on to what was left in the ruins of my life Nothing left to show for years of self-degredation and sacrifice Nothing left from a lifetime of slaving and bowing to others I should have transcended above who i once was and walked away But like a fool, i begged I begged to remain a slave I begged to remain faceless and walk among the lost I screamed at the top of my lungs until my voice was gone My bleeding eyes have no more tears to cry I cursed god and myself and the day i was conceived I cursed this whole fucking world before me for what i did to myself There was nothing left for me except for pain Starving and sleepless, i began to rot inside I could no longer even fucking think without Feeling disgusted in what i have become Paranoia and lunacy constantly grew within the Tattered remains of what was left of my sanity I have nothing but anger and regret within my soul for All that i've done for anybody i have ever loved I don't give a fuck about this pathetic life anymore I no longer have any interest in what this world can offer me Pain is all that is left. it consumes me with every breath that i take Pain is the only comfort left in this rotted hollow shell You did this to yourself! you fucked yourself! The thought of my demise soothes my jaded mind I pray for the reward of death to whoever will answer my call You did this to yourself! you fucked yourself! I thought it was just another day 5 a.m, wake up to begin the daily grind Another stupid fucking day of what i thought was happiness Another stupid fucking day of being a slave On this day, everything changed My superficial life crumbled right before my eyes On this day, i lost my fucking mind I thought it was just another day I thought it was just another day Another stupid fucking day On this day i died inside
Submitted by Lake of Tears — Apr 26, 2025
Looking at myself staring back in the mirror The person looking back at me is clouded in white Razor lying next to a pile of powder I start to feel again, so i cut another line I have lost all emotion. i'm beyond numb Feed my addiction. i can't kill myself fast enough To me, i'm already dead Too fucked up to look in the mirror I still feel those eyes staring deep within me The razor in my hand cuts another line I don't ever want to feel again I have lost all sense of self-control With every hit, i feel it taking hold Pale and sleepless, i find myself alone I tear open another bag of blow This disease has planted its roots deep within my soul The blood flowing through my veins is running cold Rail after rail, gram after gram, it takes control No matter how much i take in, i can't seem to kill myself fast enough It's taking over Infection spreads I feel my body rotting Empty inside I must submit to the will of this evil in me Inhaling every single speck of dust I cannot deny the power it has over me Killing who i used to be and who i am Contaminate my veins with pure evil I've found my path of self-destruction I sink deeper in the depths of addiction Reality: nothing more than a blur of gray Why can't i just fucking die? Peace is just another bump away Numbness snorted through a rolled up bill Death waits at the end of this dark tunnel I have become a fucking masochist Pour out. cut the line. inhale. infect Hope no more Dream no more Feel no more Bleed no more Live no more I have lost all control Inevitable is the day that this addiction destroys what is left of me There's no escape There's nothing left to save Irrelevant is the fact that with every hit i knew i was sealing my fate without remorse Numb. i've found my peace
Submitted by Pestilence — Apr 26, 2025
I embrace blasphemy. I embrace heresy. And I denounce your apathetic god. I embrace blasphemy. I embrace heresy. And I denounce everything I once believed. So many years I’ve ignored the signs to make myself believe it’s right. Live in fear of his power, believing twisted words. So many years I’ve looked the other way and refused to see the truth. I’ve found my path to righteousness lies within myself. I embrace blasphemy. I embrace heresy. [X2] I embrace blasphemy. I embrace heresy. And I denounce your apathetic god. I embrace blasphemy. I embrace heresy. And I denounce everything I once believed. Faith is fear of that which can’t be proved. Faith is never questioning the power of something nobody can see. My faith is dead. I will not fear the wrath of he who turned his back on me. I lost my fear when I lost my soul. I do not deny your existence I only deny your grace…the grace that I felt when I lost everything. Take a look at me. I’ve become everything I never wanted to be. Believing in you has done nothing for me. I bless myself by believing in my own capabilities. I’m capable more now than ever before. I bless myself by destroying what’s left of who I used to be. Eradicating any weaknesses left within. If I still have a soul anymore let it be consumed with profanation. Religion no longer applies to me. Blessed is he who blesses himself. Salvation awaits me. I piss on the image of my former self and I spit upon his beliefs. I’ll cut my own throat before I accept religious deceit. I don’t want your church. I don’t want your lies. You have nothing to offer me. I praise my strength. I praise my will. My god is myself. Pray out loud while you’re begging in the streets. Pray out loud while you’re lying though your teeth. Pray out loud as you take another’s life. Pray out loud and fill your soul with sin Pray out loud [x2] I embrace blasphemy. I embrace heresy. And I denounce your apathetic god. I embrace blasphemy. I embrace heresy. And I denounce everything I once believed. Everything I once believed
Submitted by Nargaroth — Apr 26, 2025
Tonight i'm raising the dead. i lie awake.. another sleepless night. my stomach turns. i can see him fucking her Now. you should have just killed the bitch. at least you know you're gonna see her in hell She leads him by the hand to an empty bed... the bed where i used to sleep. his hand slips down between her Legs, though he doesn't know her name. how could you still love such a whore? you have to make her bleed for What she's done. i resurrect decayed skeletons that have been eating away at me over the years. i resurrect Ancient skeletons that have been haunting me for far too long. tonight i raise the dead. i can only imagine the Look of panic on her face when she sees us standing at her door with a loaded 12 gauge. you know she Deserves what she gets. she needs to taste the pain that you've felt. i stare deep within my soul in search of a Way to kill lingering memories. negative reciprocal is guiding me to the most effective resolution Justify. rectify. justify. nullify. raise the dead within myself. raise the fucking dead to feed my vehemence Tonight we're raising the dead. together we grow, together we persevere
Submitted by Sexy Gargoyle — Apr 26, 2025
We stand in awe before the presence of unadulterated power. so pure... so intense... the boundaries of my reality are torn Apart. this is the kind of power that can make a coward feel like a man. this is the kind of power that makes a man into a God we feel as one. we grow as one. the person i see in the mirror is no longer me. i am abhorrence. i am cruelty. i am One as both yet i am nothing until i become complete our hate is my religion. our wrath is my salvation I am born again and again into a world of madness and lunacy. i have become what i once feared and despise what i once Was. in this new world, we are home. in this new world we are god. our final third illuminates the path upon which we must Tread. i must submit. reveal our fate. as one. we mature as one, we adapt as one, we will prevail. i am divinity. i am Complete. i have formed an unholy trinity with my cruelty and hate. my fragile physical form is the only human part left of Me. this trinity defines the purpose of our existence. we exist to isolate and erase the mistakes of our past
Submitted by Corpse Grinder — Apr 26, 2025
This track is instrumental.
My blood runs colder each day in this environment of fake smiles and empty formalities I can see flesh and hear laughter but There is no real sign of genuine emotion or intelligence What little humanity left within me is constantly being chipped away By each withered soul i see This is not life This is a game This is the pinnacle of thousands of years of human existence This is a game we all will lose This is a game that we all will lose no matter how far ahead we think we are I pretend to feel I pretend to care I pretend to live.. Just like you I know i should feel something but instead i do as the rest Of the world and just pretend Feelings have done nothing but hold me back so i shut them out until i forgot how to feel This Game has turned what used to be my heart into a solid ball of ice all of my emotions have steadily been replaced with disgust With each day that has passed i am numb where i used to be cold and i am cold where i used to feel Scavengers surround Me and wait for my death to consume who they think i am My gratification comes from knowing that my disgust will always Outweigh any false emotion you project It is necessary to be less than human in order to survive this pathetic joke we call Society Your life is a joke The cold blood that trickles through my body is the only sign of life that remains within me I am Perfection according to the laws of this world i am empty and devoid of human life... Just like you I pretend to smile I pretend to care I pretend to live... Just like you
Submitted by Corpse Grinder — Apr 26, 2025
Fear what i have become Fear what i am Remember my name Your flaccid tongue has been flapping uncontrollably It's time to pay Your efforts to bury me have been in vain You've had this coming for a very long time Now taste the pain Keep talking your bullshit now that we're face to face Look in my eyes while i cut out your tongue and think about Why you are where you are today Keep talking your bullshit now that we're face to face Look in my eyes, look me Dead in the eyes and know the youth you violated will now be safe You piece of shit I am the future You are the past You waste of life You'll be forgotten My name will last Your time is done I am the future You are the past My time is now You'll be forgotten My name will last I'll bleed you dry I'll paint the walls with your blood I'll harmonize my laughs with your screams You pedophile How many kids have you raped How many childhoods have you scarred Your time is done you know you're going to hell If it exists you know i'll see you there My time is now I stand above you and smile as you beg like the coward you are No need for last words My ears are deaf to your grunts Death is a reward at the end of the punishment you will Receive by my hand Bow down Receive your fate So hard to say "i'm sorry" without a tongue Bow down Respect my name And feel the power of what i have become Keep talking your bullshit now that we're face to face Look in my eyes while your tongue's on the ground and think about why you are where you are today Keep talking your bullshit now that we're face to face Look in my eyes, loot me dead in the eyes and know the youth you violated will now be safe
Submitted by Cyberwaste — Apr 26, 2025
Oh my god I have forgotten what it means to be in control. I have completely let go. Now it’s impossible…now it’s impossible to save my old self. The light is getting dimmer. Coldness consumes my soul. All my fears and all my hate now control me. The stench is getting stronger. I’m rotting from inside. All my fears and all my hate will destroy me. I am a prisoner of fate. I am the Patron Saint of Hate. I will forever fall from grace. I am the Patron Saint of Hate. Oh my god is this stranger in front of me. Is this stranger before me my reflection? Distorted eyes staring at me from the mirror. I see nothing but a heartless monster. The darkness is getting blacker. The cold has consumed my soul. All my fears, all my hate now control me. The stanch is getting fainter. There’s nothing left to rot. All my fears and all my hate have destroyed me. I am a prisoner of fate. I am the Patron Saint of Hate. I will forever fall from grace. I am the Patron Saint of Hate. I am the meaning of lack of self control. I am the meaning of…I am the meaning of hate. I am a prisoner of fate. I am the Patron Saint of Hate. I will forever fall from grace. I am the Patron Saint of Hate. I am the meaning of lack of self control. I am the meaning of…I am the meaning of hate. Oh my god what have we done? Oh my god what have we become.[X2] Oh my god [X3] Oh my god what have we done? Oh my god what have we become. [Fades Out]
Submitted by NecroGod — Apr 26, 2025