A Discouraged Believer
Darkness! Emptiness! Ruthlessness! I walk through a storm inside my soul! In darkness My twin - emptiness! Endless ruthlessness! I walk through a storm inside my soul! I drown inside this innermost hell Lost and captive in a human cell Grief pearls sparkle in these eyes Slowly I shrink and everything dies I am unable to change my fate When all my hope turns to hate I shall hurt myself for salvation Since I breathe life's damnation Down in a hole - I walk through a storm inside my soul Too many bastards reach for my young mind Inside the filthy selfish streets of the mankind With an abysmal disgust and wrath I run away I know on dread's playground I can never stay There is a darkness anchored deep inside my heart I can't break the tide chains before I'm torn apart This narrow cold embrace is another kind of pain In every time I beg for an end of that torture in vain I am the discouraged believer by God's goodness Embedded inside an ugly farewell's ruthlessness I can't longer depend from my isolation's misery In desperation I search for the caress of eternity Darkness! Emptiness! Ruthlessness! I walk through a storm inside my soul! In darkness My twin - emptiness! Endless ruthlessness I walk through a storm inside my soul! The shadow of the future covers my morning sun A new day in hell has just begun One thought kills inside my sleepy brain I can't give my life for all - I always feel the same There is a darkness anchored deep inside my heart I can't break the tide chains before I'm torn apart This narrow cold embrace is another kind of pain In every time I beg for an end of that torture in vain I stare into the abyss Behind the gates of the demise Into flames of nothingness I hear the scarred soul cries
Submitted by NecroLord — Jun 24, 2026
One great metamorphosis arises Across my pitiful life Since I am your earth's depression Three long nails are enough Around to cover the wood When rusty thorns numb my senses I taste sweetness of the crucifixion Let me bleed among the crown You can never give your face my pain Upon death's mountain I wait for the stars I still feel the hungry touch of the sun Flames that burn my tortured barren skin But the cross makes me strong For what I become I am your captive butterfly So high beneath the sky And I close my sleepy eyes Fall with my thoughts and you To a forlorn red temple that cries For the lament of broken dreams and oaths You've swallowed up the shiny fruits of my love The kisses that you've given were not honest Only your greed for mind devastation Slowly I kiss the final line of own self-righteousness I hear and see the clouds cry - Your heaven's black water sigh Inside this storm I am alone Like a useless stone that must atone Within a cold perdition's fire The doomed man underneath the salt of your tragedies mire
Submitted by NecroLord — Jun 24, 2026
Unhallowed soil among feet and body Enslaved by the smoke of steel machines Inside a poisoned garden from God's hand My pathway of the nothingness Bitterness licks my wounds and my lips When I look through the ruins of my streets And I pray for my dead brothers and sisters Without peace inside my confused mind Painted in grey is the barren fatherland Fallen with the failed king upon life's chessboard Like the proud warrior's hearts I am the last - I am the blood - I am the doomed man My longest journey has just begun Inside a labyrinth of thorns and blood So far away from the human nature Deep within a tomb of atonement With sorrow in sleepy eyes I crawl away In the cold rain But carried by hope and faith I follow - red rivers - full of despair To the gates of the hidden sun For my tomorrow without pain...without pain Unhallowed soil among feet and body Enslaved by the smoke of steel machines Inside a poisoned garden from God's hand My pathway of the nothingness Bitterness licks my wounds and my lips When I look through the ruins of my streets And I pray for my dead brothers and sisters Without peace inside my confused mind I am the last - The isolation - The blood - The mourning - I am the forsaken earth Unhallowed soil among feet and body Enslaved by the smoke of steel machines Inside a poisoned garden from God's hand My pathway of the nothingness
Submitted by NecroLord — Jun 24, 2026
The world has changed its face An eerie place - In December's mire Lost behind the window I know the snow burns like fire Slowly comes the blankness The time is right November's dirge - The end The enemy kills in white Now I close the door Tiny liberation With a cure for the next days For another salvation Shadows of the past will rape my heart The chamber corners let me shrink The cross in my hands And I pray to the sun Thoughts whisper to God Please use the gun
Submitted by NecroLord — Jun 24, 2026
Gently I taste suicide air Within the hourglass of despair Angry grains push me down In deep waves of sand I drown I crawl upon a lonesome line In a fragile world that never was mine I am the worm and search for food in sorrow's moor My heart is a cocoon around a depressive core Filthy is the entrance of eternity Salt drops run from my milky face freely This life builds an ocean of thorns and dismay With the ruthlessness of this gruesome day I am embedded by the rain robe of an outstretched night In void's mouth that shall swallow up my last pride Underneath this pathetic sky that I despise I know this hard mountain will come to a rise Within a few seconds I breathe the earth's decay Cold uncertainty surrounds that chosen pathway I bury heart's fragments with a great desperation Since I am the jaded icon of my self-domination Slowly I observe the human feelings rot Sometimes I sink in this ascending flood When my spirit for eternal freedom cries Then hope remains in these ancient eyes I suffer with a silent cry - By the final day that I deny And the small life shall drown torn asunder - I stand alone with the pain that is my hunter I can't wait for death's embrace - I will stain me with disgrace And I fall down to my knees and pray To the sleepless Gods that turn away Inside this realm I cannot be the king Because I fill innocent hands with sin I transform my blade's almighty force To pure pandemonium and unbridled claws The icy steel kisses the skin and veins of me In vertigo's drunkenness I set all bother free The strings tear apart - Stillness is the grand award
Submitted by NecroLord — Jun 24, 2026
Now the blood runs to a coffin bed so fresh Each sorrow fades with the barren flesh I desert my useless body and mourning place Finally I've found the exit in life's maze My resurrection! I am an old stowaway that can't stay With growing wings I glide away I drift deeper into the tunnel's white And I touch my last remaining light My resurrection! Lost colours are recaptured in a funeral from my past Everything breaks inside my blackened world of glass Fallen is my soul's darkness with the last grain of sand A blue horizon is reflected for that journey's end Now the blood runs to a coffin bed so fresh Each sorrow fades with the barren flesh I desert my useless body and mourning place Finally I've found the exit in life's maze
Submitted by NecroLord — Jun 24, 2026
A world exists beyond your eyes And every heart can learn to feel this force Within that maze it's hard to see But we all can break through this darkness So many souls drown in their simple lives They cannot find their surface of the light Because they choose to believe the lies Around to reach foggy and wrong shores Find the holy temple in yourself The quest has just begun A blue horizon shows the pathway Over madness and sadness of this barren earth You can be free The wounds will heal Forget and see You can be free You are like me A discouraged believer by God's goodness Inside an empty hourglass We must break the silence now We're all beings of frustration and aggression But we can take a look behind the masquerade of our human perdition If we increase our sight - If we stay Open your heart and your mind Around to touch the sweetness of the sun
Submitted by NecroLord — Jun 24, 2026