Anti Life

I want to get out! Stop it now! Leave me alone! Alone! Get the fuck out of my life! I am trapped in this cage, crushing my fists on these four walls. I can’t see the light. I can’t find a door or any escape from this jail. I am not alone; this is why I hate being here. Lost and… Lost and dead. I’m alive but dead. Dead! You all are my torturers. Leave me or kill me. Leave me. Kill me. I’ve lost my mind. Mentally and physically ill. I want to run away from this. Or grab a gun. I cannot miss. There’s nothing here that makes me free. Just pain and fear. We’re there us three. I want to run. Or grab a gun. There’s nothing here. Just pain and fear.

Submitted by Lake of Tears — Apr 26, 2025

Every night, full of drugs and liquor, I see, floating above my bed, the Devil. This woman in white dress, Satan Herself. She’s beautiful. She’s there for me. Translucent. I’m in love with her. Rise from the depths. Hold me. We are one now. We make love on charnel houses. On the corpses of this world. Reigning and killing. Together forever. We’ll be all, eternal. Fucking and slaying. What’s happening? I am dizzy. I can’t recognize your face. You’re not the one I love. You’ve cheated on me. I squeeze your throat with my hands. You’re like all the others. I’ll watch your eyes roll over. You’re like all the others. I’ll be alone before dawn. Once again. I will remain forsaken. Once again.

Submitted by Infernal Flame — Apr 26, 2025

Those walls! Asylum! Asylum! Around me. Asylum! Asylum! Where am I? I am mad. I am sick and twisted. Help! The window’s bars are for real. Real! I can’t get out of it. Drugs or medicine? Torturer? Protector? I am confused. Blurry visions of truth and lie. Is reality fake or I am? Punish me for impure thoughts I had. Or maybe you’re just part of my sick mind… Doubt. Self-hate. Chained to this bed. Asylum! Asylum! Chained to this life. Asylum! I won’t leave this asylum! Lost. The monster is inside me. He lives. I’m the reason why everything sucks. No hope. Nothing. I ruined my own life. Coward! I see myself as a miserable human living among ruins, as all of this was imposed to me when I’m the one guilty. Fuck you and me.

Submitted by NecroLord — Apr 26, 2025

I will end my life when the sun rises. The rope slips around my neck. My feet sway above the floor. Mowed down with full force. The head smashed in the windshield. A gun on the temple. My brain spatters the tiles. I cut my wrist and watch the blood flows. Every morning, the same images of me dying, as a never-ending movie turning in my head. And this little voice saying DO IT! You don’t deserve anything but violent death so, DO IT!

Submitted by Nargaroth — Apr 26, 2025