An Absence of Presence
The silent giant stands alone At the end of the earth Silent in stone No sins to rebirth Falling away The earth it has cracked The angel’s facade The screaming land A messiah born of flesh and tragedy Hopelessness creeping through insanity Oculus return to me in signals Stigmatic didacts speak of hymns I Used to know So long ago Now all that I was Has eroded I was a pauper for pleasure and lust Born of the unforgiving sun When light is cold and horrible You learn to fight the ashes all away Like something to which you pray Suffer for me and the blame Will all simply fade away Death is the only conceit The silent giant stands alone Atop his distant windswept throne He stares out at the sea And waits for it to carry him home The silent giant stands and waits At the end of the earth, far from grace Not a tear may fall from those eyes Nothing more lives on inside The silent giant stands alone Atop his distant windswept throne He stares out at the sea And waits for it to carry him home The silent giant stands and waits At the end of the earth, far from grace Not a tear may fall from those eyes Nothing more lives on inside The silent giant stands alone At the end of the earth Silent in stone No sins to rebirth Falling away The earth it has cracked The angel’s facade The screaming land An ancient statue crumbles Washed into the tides An ancient sorrow falling As the witness fades and dies An unknowable sorrow Unable to cry A memory forgotten Between sunset and sunrise Look upon my works and despair As my heart and soul sink into the sand Look upon my works and despair As my heart and soul sink into the sand Eptir inn siðastr fugl er dauðr... Hvem ar amæli? I exist within an absence of presence...
Submitted by Nargaroth — Jun 18, 2026
It goes on and on and on It goes on and on and on And I hope that someday you’ll conquer this city In blood and living memory A ghost of guidance In your oblivion May you find your love, find your peace If anyone may find rest beneath this dust Let it be you Forever may you take your precious leave And feel better Please feel better for me Wherever you remain It goes on and on and on It goes on and on and on The pale lighting resurrects your sorrow How awful it must feel to see so much sadness around you Surrounding you, it closed you in Be free and go with the wind into the earth The earth you loved but never allowed you I can’t help but see your loss as a form of sacrifice You were too good for this world You were too good for this world You were too good for this world You were too good for this world Like a guide out of darkness Unable to see the darkness swallowing you Well now you’re free of it all Finally free, of the fires that hounded you You were too good for this world You were too good for this world You were too good for this world You were too good for this world Rest for those departed Rest for those departed From this world your ardent Flame left a painful wake Rest for those departed Rest for those departed From this world your ardent Flame left a painful wake Drown yourself in alcohol Tell yourself you wouldn’t fall Tell yourself you’d never fall It goes on and on and on Rest for those departed Rest for those departed From this world your ardent Flame left a painful wake Rest for those departed Rest for those departed From this world your ardent Flame left a painful wake I need you now more than ever Please stay forever I need you now more than ever Please stay forever I need you now more than ever Please stay forever I need you now more than ever Please stay forever, please stay
Submitted by Nargaroth — Jun 18, 2026
“You see here, we fell into the sky that night. Me and you. I looked up and I could feel the heat of the distant stars grow nearer and the cold of this world dissipate into faded memories of a lifetime forgotten. One which isn't even real anymore. So I find myself wondering if what I remember is actually real, or a dream or something. Hell maybe it's just my imagination. But I remember it pretty clearly, how we got here. We were sitting by the window up in your room. Just loaded the gun with our bloody hands and I can remember the sting of holding yours. It felt like a thousand needles ran up my wrist, and that it was only suspended in the vacuum, by nothing really. The chill from the open window went right through me, like I had left long before. Have you ever felt that before? That cold so empty you almost don’t feel it. You're ok with it. It’s not cold. It’s nice. The blood on our wrists seemed to freeze in place, and then disappear. If it wasn’t for the red I would believe it had gone. It had never happened. I sat there holding you, and I can’t remember why. The barrel chilled my teeth. It tasted like your mouth. Like smoke and powder, and blood. My eyes began to water and weep and I felt my body twitching. I didn't cry. I didn't want to end my life. I didn't want anything. I just had to leave. So I closed my eyes. I opened them when I felt that weightlessness. I saw myself floating above you slowly and wondered how I could stop it. I didn't know what happened. I couldn’t speak. I kept rising. Right out that window, and I could fly. I turned and left you there. At that moment I had seen everything. The landscapes of mountains and the skyline of the ocean. I felt nothing. An absence of presence. I ended up here, with you again, in little more than a blink. I don’t know how long I spent there. Looking around. I don’t remember what I was looking for and if I found it. I don’t remember if it was a dream or not. I don't really remember where we are anymore. Where am I?” I exist within a false reality of slit wrists and dead reason Each day crawls with the uncertainty of my continuing existence I reach into the well of life with a starving soul And grasp at the nothingness that awaits me The false hope of relief rips through my chest The fear collapses into contempt of everlasting ache To what reasoning do I owe such misery? To what world must I travel that holds the truth? God has cast me into a chasm Of collapsed perceptions and abandoned hope For this is where I will sleep… The truth I seek is not here I have no end to this here The end of the barrel Will be my vessel It will carry me to truth I will bring me truth I am floating above oceans Breathing above the sky The tides recede, never to return They carry me back Where am I? “There was this kid up on the podium, talking about him. Sharing some memories and playing his guitar. The sun was going down and we had all just lit our candles. There was that moment in the sky, where it's still a little blue, but the sun had long since set. That feeling of inevitability that everyone had. There was nothing they could do to stop it, so we just sat there out with our little lights. The sun was setting. There was no stopping it. Soon our candles will burn out and we’ll be engulfed in that dread. So we did just that. We sang about him. Laughed over him. Cemented our eternal memory of every second he was here. The boy kept singing. He looked so alone up on that podium for a while, but something changed. I saw Ambryn that night. Sat up on the podium, next to that poor kid. Right as I saw him, the kid's voice died, and he began to cry.”
Submitted by Nargaroth — Jun 18, 2026