Broken Cleansing
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I feel as though I'm in An interrogation room The air seems so seductive And it's burning up my face I wish to see a change inside The absence of our fog This all I see is blinding light It takes me to the bottom of my soul I wish it all away I wish it all away Do I even know myself Or am I lost inside an image expectations Do I even know who I am I was clinging to who you thought I could be Do I even know myself in the loneliness Do I even myself, or was I lost in your expectation of me It pulls apart the fabric of the weakness we call flesh It asks if I can dance as it embraces winter's death Kissing me like razor blades Flesh across the knife Or should I be the one in fear of the darkness in the light The horror subtle The horror subtle It seems to creep like a centipede A thought inside my mind A parasite it left me blind A parasite it left me blind Do I even know myself Or am I lost inside an image expectations Do I even know who I am I was clinging to who you thought I could be Do I even know myself in the loneliness Do I even know myself, or was I lost in your expectation of me
Submitted by Nargaroth — Jun 18, 2026
This anxiety is crippling Bringing me into a state of self-defeat Looking over my shoulder It's clear to see the battle is overtaking me It's plain to see I will never be set free The battle inside my head These voices want me dead I must destroy what keeps me now and all these things I said An ode to my destruction It keeps playing over A broken record in sight Manipulated realty I'll never be the one to give into the pain My brain will never keep me in a stranglehold I won't be insane It's clear to see the battle is overtaking me It's plain to see I will never be set free The battle inside my head These voices want me dead I must destroy what keeps me now and all these things I said I will be the one to overcome and face my fears I will not be left behind Sabotaging my mind I will not be victimized I will not be ostracized I will not be victimized I will not be ostracized It's clear to see the battle is overtaking me It's plain to see I will never be set free. The battle inside my head These voices want me dead I must destroy what keeps me now and all these things I said Facing the dead
Submitted by Nargaroth — Jun 18, 2026
If taking pills would kill my enemies I'd overdose just to watch them die I never knew how your God was good to me All he ever did was fucking lie Born in the hell of a hollow shell my life I never knew how to get outside. Those overtaking thoughts are crushing me All I wanna know are the reasons why No luck No one to give a fuck No chance in hell No conquering the storm I thought I'd told you To just walk away I am a lost cause. Within the disarray How's about I'm fine as I look you in the eyes As I tell you all the eyes so that you can sleep at night But if you the pain that I carry deep inside You would see that I am closer to a damn suicide If taking pills would kill my enemies I'd overdose just to watch them die I never knew how your God was good to me All he ever did was fucking lie Born in the hell of a hollow shell my life. I never knew how to get outside Those overtaking thoughts are crushing me All I wanna know are the reasons why My instinct tells me to just run away I'm facing charges internally every day How's about we sit and talk about life. As if it's so glorious Glorious Glorious Glory be to God of a failure that I am within my soul Put me in the hole cause I'm down enough to know I'll fall If taking pills would kill my enemies I'd overdose just to watch them die I never knew how your God was good to me All he ever did was fucking lie Born in the hell of a hollow shell my life I never knew how to get outside Those overtaking thoughts are crushing me All I wanna know are the reasons why No pictures I'm sick of the paparazzi A frenzy their feeding upon me I'm fucking fine there are no feelings in my head As I wish that I was dead there were so many things Inside I couldn't add up And I've never been good at math So I guess I get to run away Run away from all the things that fucking plague me within
Submitted by Nargaroth — Jun 18, 2026
See the thing about love is, Well It leaves us all broken and fragmented Like a shattered glass None of it was ever true And even if we knew what it was We wouldn't know how to deal with or express love It's late and I hear her beckoning "Come to my chamber and feast Her body like a coffin, another dead man Holding onto the breathless hope she waits Cacophony of hate and now I must make haste Hollow inside chasing the pride Vanity of vanities, insanity Never trust a hollow soul I'd only believe you if you lied And I'd be deceived if you ever told the truth I'd only believe you if you lied is the truth even in you! The truth even in you? Did God taste good upon your lips? As he took his only fix To the chamber where you laid Was your God to blame? Medusa gets off on my agony Seemingly blackened, pointing at me Medusa gets off on my agony Seerningly, Heartless she stares at me Medusa gets off on my agony Haunting me, blackened, pointing my way Medusa gets off on my agony Haunting me, blackening, gazing at me And I'll break her curse before the hearse seals me in If I cannot deny the adulterer I will surely know it's her (Medusa Ill break her curse before the dark seals me in. This time I step aside and let her drown within the sin (Medusa) My friends, she took them for a ride I guess that's how I lost my pride And now see in more ways than one I never knew the pension lying next to me Would be the one to stab me in the back I curse the day I met you (I'd only believe you if you lied) And I curse the day I bowed to your God. (And I'd be deceived if you ever told the truth) The only pan inside to savor I'd only believe you if you lied Completely dead in you deeper Is the truth even in your is the truth even in you?) You couldn't tell the truth if your life depended on it Here's to your forever after The slave found it's master It's all a fucking disaster, it's all It's all a fucking disaster Medusa gets off on my agony Seemingly blackened, pointing at me Medusa gets off on my agony Seemingly, heartless she stares at me Medusa gets off on my agony Haunting me, blackened, porting my way Medusa gets off on my agony Haunting me, blackening, gazing at me And I'll break her curse before the hearse seals me in If I cannot deny the adulterer I will surely know it's her (Medusa) Ill break her curse before the dark seals me in This time I step aside and let her drown within the sin (Medusa) You lied You lied
Submitted by Nargaroth — Jun 18, 2026
Fall low Low today Accusing death tolls Now I fall so far Suffer And every hour burns all of me Pins me up against Tied to a time of my life Strewn into light The devil will never make me die I'm tired of my fight You will never pull me down This devil inside of my mind Will never confine me I've got so much more to live for I wont be found failed Death could never hold what is within me I will never submit to the darkness Found in the world I am death proof I am living proof I am deathless
Submitted by Nargaroth — Jun 18, 2026
It seems as though everything I know of is crashing down And with a vacant leave Inside a broken scream Euphoria becomes Society now numb There's no business to be done on a dead planet It seems we're slowly disconnecting Are we aware In the broken air What's left of despair No one's left to care Visions from the end All the world has come undone Depression and feeling hope We've lost ourselves in the panic It all becomes nothing
Submitted by Nargaroth — Jun 18, 2026
Open my eyes Just wishing for a suicide Another way to cope But the fact I want to fucking die Nothing ever seems to go my way anymore I'm bored with life I want to watch it all burn And that's where you realize There's was nothing left to live for Life's a motherfucking bore I'm sure I'm going to find another whore To dictate every little aspect of who I am Praise your Jesus Raise your fist in hate I don't care I just want to see it all go down Until there's nothing left but the bottom To look forward to We ain't got no masters. We ain't got no cleansing tide Our world is twisted I wanna see the anti-Christ arise Because God don't cut it no more I never asked you to die for me You won't speak anymore hate on behalf of me For God so loved the world He gave us opiate addiction and suicide And rape of children Oh yes, he's a glorious bastard He's a father we can all be proud of Daddy of the year No child support But we pay taxes Yes indeed gotta feed the pious machine Jesus on the triple beam Cause Saint Peter looked at you and me and said "That's twenty for a hit" He'll get you just high enough to talk to Jesus But I can't promise you'll live Well the kingdom is heaven sent But I can't afford my rent It's seems that everybody needs a fix The inflation have you seen it Oh glory be to god of poverty That's the Judaeo American Christian way Oh yes Hallelujah We're all going broke But we still have dope I commit atrocities But I still pay tithes on Sunday I commit so many heresies But I tell you your life's a fallacy Above your eyes To vacant skies No last goodbye Only poisoned rites
Submitted by Nargaroth — Jun 18, 2026
It's hard to face the day When all I ever seem to do is get stuck Looking behind me Looking for answers Nothing will ever be found I'm lost inside the pain The sorrow builds it only feels worse Every second passing Nothing I can say These words are cut short like my breath But every second then passes Fear that I must must face I can't face my reflection I'm afraid of projection I am so afraid There's no going back now Gotta move forward through this motherfucking hell It's not the gray that I fear It's just the madness I see unclear What would I even know It's not the heartache of life It's all the sorrow Try to heal from the knife All that I can see So blinding never finding anything No answers inside this maze of confusion The empty follows me God won't even save me God won't even save me Just please leave me alone to bleed Caught up in a web Oh what a web we weave When we first practice to deceive Of things I can't forget Chasing ghosts are the things I fear the most I'm tired of this thread It's building up inside my head It's not the gray that I fear It's just the madness I see unclear What would I even know It's not the heartache of life It's all the sorrow Try to heal from the knife It's not the gray that I fear It's just the madness I see unclear What would I even know It's not the heartache of life It's all the sorrow Try to heal from the knife
Submitted by Nargaroth — Jun 18, 2026
It seems as though I'm losing ground I finally feel so lost that I cannot be found I'm awaiting my sentence As life commences Into a state of debauchery Only now it's causing me insanity I sold my soul for your lies You cannot look me in the eyes There was never a way to win with you It must feel good to let me drown Only the memories haunt me Don't make a sound A state of disbelief and utter confusion perpetual Leaving holes where somewhat of a smile Would hang upon a lie I sold my soul for your lies You cannot look me in the eyes There was never a way to win with you I found myself inside the war I didn't ask for Worn away my callous Lives on in your heart
Submitted by Nargaroth — Jun 18, 2026
Hello I'm your bastard son I wasn't shown I'm the one you threw away for your addictions You only care about feeding your vice You will only be causing your byproduct Of the inner show within you To manifest in a broken reverie It should have been mine The life denied The life you left behind All of the time you wasted mine You took away your pride All of the lies were never meant to ever be so right Now I can find the reasons why I'm caught with your disguise Ran away from all of your spoils only take the page A fraction of the truth I cannot attest to anything that had handed down the diploma You have only tore apart Fight tearing I found the time to transcend past matters And I will die a lovely death Hurting my existence Colorful world we live in When fentanyl ruins our minds They profit off the weakness The human condition I never asked to be born in this fucking world Only God's Hell It should have been mine The life denied The life you left behind All of the time you wasted mine You took away your pride All of the lies were never meant to ever be so right Now I can find the reasons why I'm caught with your disguise
Submitted by Nargaroth — Jun 18, 2026
I'm so jaded I want to disappear forevermore Look what I did This life is overrated only sorrow in store I'm so fucked up Depressed inside my isolation I'm stuck Someone save me from what's inside These thoughts overtake me Depression and overwhelming Compulsion to commit suicide I cannot keep on going this way They say no news is good news but I fear I'm performing to figments of my imagination My imaginary demons I'm so jaded I want to disappear forevermore Look what I did This life is overrated only sorrow in store I'm so fucked up Depressed inside my isolation I'm stuck I fear I've missed the mark at existing barely Falling short at even failure Succeeding in this miserable mediocrity Bury me It seems it's been long overdue My conversation with suicidal ideation I don't know who's coming to talk Passive or active ideas I'm so jaded I want to disappear forevermore Look what I did This life is overrated only sorrow in store I'm so fucked up Depressed inside my isolation I'm stuck I'm so jaded I want to disappear forevermore Look what I did This life is overrated only sorrow in store I'm so fucked up Depressed inside my isolation Take me out or set me free This existence is too much
Submitted by Nargaroth — Jun 18, 2026
I'd be lying if I said, it turned out the way I planned Pain you felt throughout the years Made it hard for me to stand I should tell you I'm not the same Watching you succumb unto the pain It's not an easy road, trying to make sense of it all I'd give myself up to let them know It's not an easy out, trying to figure it all out I'd kill myself just to cast them out The one's that made you feel alone I guess I made a fool of me I guess she isn't who she sees She was never truly light Only darkness in her sight I must tell her, please stay away Love has only brought strife to my brain It's not an easy road, trying to make sense of it all I'd give myself up to let them know It's not an easy out, trying to figure it all out I'd kill myself just to cast them out It's not an easy road, trying to make sense of it all I'd give myself up to let them know It's not an easy out, trying to figure it all out I'd kill myself just to cast them out The one's that made you feel alone The ghosts inside her, vacant home
Submitted by Nargaroth — Jun 18, 2026
God avoids me in her nature of divinity Extend grace to my disgrace She's ashamed of me, blessed be Tarnished her majesty I am not equipped Cause I wanted to be so much more Than the cross you carry I wanted to be so much more Than your crown of thorns Can I let go of this martyr title I'm tired It cuts daily What we can't be You forsake me My hearts breaking Cause I wanted to be so much more Than the cross you carry I wanted to be so much more Than your crown of thorns Cause I wanted to be so much more Than the cross you carry I wanted to be so much more Than your crown of thorns I am a lost cause I don't deserve the lungs to breathe Some pull me so far Someone Someone Someone Fucking someone I'm in a six foot hole Someone dig me out of the mire Dig me
Submitted by Nargaroth — Jun 18, 2026
I'm not a prophet I'm not a scribe This is the only way to connect With the only source of everything The only true living God Jehovah Jireh What if I didn't know I was dying As time takes away the seconds That I've been graced to survive with What if every breath and every moment was Never something that I'd ever question What if I was not self aware of my own existence Or morality Or mortality What if I jumped off a bridge Just to end the madness What if I took my own life Just to do away with the sadness What if you were hearing my every word I believe that maybe you are Somewhere beyond the void Beyond the last Beyond he gates of Enoch's place Beyond the way that Christ walked Above the grave What if I tried to do good But it always comes down with my flesh Evil incessantly sinful I'm human and I must confess Why do I want to transgress Against your holy laws If I know that the punishment is death Death in the grave Death in the blaze Eternally rotting and burning Why do I still not understand The fire I'm in And I'm learning the lessons I'm learning the lessons Not learning the lessons Not learning Is it a breakdown of communication Or should I just not speak Should I just open my ears and shut up And just listen to what you must say Why is it with every breath that I take I just fuck it all up in the blaze Why are you still here Letting me live my life this way Why do I fuck it all up When my best of intentions Are my own worst days Why can't I preach the life to the masses Each time I just make it all worse How come this life is just futile When it all ends in a hearse Do you even care when I cry in my sleep At the sight over the fact that I lost her Steady I'm falling beyond the universe Waiting you're calling Between the lines and the verse I told you I'd serve your ways But I'd betrayed Everything real to me A source of your shame Study I'm falling Into the universe Past the peace I felt only consumed with hurt Cut now I realize That life is just made of pain Need you to save me For I have nothing to gain I look at my hands And I start to think What if I was a created being It goes beyond me Intelligent design We must have came from something Beyond my mind Divine created by something I could never perceive in this lens of life What if the flesh is the prison I'm sinking in What if the fire is the world I'm living in I wonder sometimes Hard to just ponder sometimes How is this life so fucked up yet so benign So many good people go So many bad get ahead The world seems peaceful at times And other times it's only dread But then I talk to you at night And in the cold quiet mornings in my mind I whisper a faint prayer And for some reason I still believe you're there I still believe
Submitted by Nargaroth — Jun 18, 2026