Before My Heart Got Broken
Chasing the obvious A fight of the clock We never knew how to feel The world will not stop I'm battling my own veins The blood overruns I cannot become the thing That bore me the son I'm waiting here to see I'm wanting you I'm chasing majesty Forgetting mortality I desperately search a mile To find my own out But nothing is clearly Surrounded in doubt I'm waiting here to see I'm wanting you I'm chasing majesty Forgetting mortality Can we turn back time Can we escape our mind I'm waiting for light to Burst inside my mind Rewind
Submitted by Nargaroth — Jun 18, 2026
The pain, the peace and the beautiful things The scars, the hope and the in between The patience and the product of all we know Grants me survival and I'm asked to atone You just break me Give way to It let me in A new way All we ever were to be All I'd ever hoped was Not confined, but aligned In the presence Admist all we could become But now today, somehow someway, Progressively, only growing I'd never knew I would find my way back through the shadows It seemed so dismally Obtuse, it seemed there's nothing left But through it all I realize There's nothing left in hatred It left me numb and vacant I can no longer take it Same story Self loathing All we ever were to be All I'd ever hoped was Not confined, but aligned In the presence Admist all we could become But now today, somehow someway, Progressively, only growing Progressively, only growing Progressively, only growing Progressively, only growing Somehow someway Progressively, only growing
Submitted by Nargaroth — Jun 18, 2026
Momentary, a lapse, a sort of calm, a sort of, well, a moment where everything feels very much like it makes sense until insanity comes back with an unwelcome guest festering in my mind And I just continuously have to deal with the cycle that I was sentenced to like a prisoner with no awareness made of his charges or crime And I'm not claiming to be a saint, nor am I claiming to be perfect. I'm just saying that this seems like a kind of hell that I would never sentence any mortal to In or outside of the flesh Isolation is really a cancerous thing. Ironically, I was born in July and I am a cancer But I have never killed anyone, at least to my knowledge, and if I have, spare me the weight of the guilt that comes with being a murderer because I never wanted that to be who I was and I always try to protect the ones I cared about Any kind of actions that would lead to that sort of conduct I'm sitting here in this place very much alone, feeling like I'm only cared for when there's a purpose to what can be gained from my essence and being that is able to somehow benefit the others around me So I'm here, taking a drag off a cigarette I'm not sure if messages will be read or if they will linger in time like a limbo To say the least Currently as I exist as a man, beyond any shadow of doubt, I am real And this is life on earth, prior to any kind of death, spiritually or physically I've pled with the creator. I've pled with him I've asked him to help me be okay Maybe that's a problem Maybe the cigarettes just aren't hitting me And I feel like I should probably give up Hang out the stove in my home of poverty and build on pain and bones in a city where lackluster existence is a thing And I light the stove, I turn the dial over, like a new minute on the clock I suppose the hope I'm hanging to is but an illusion Since time is really irrelevant to the human psyche And they say time is of the essence, whether times just a way we measure things than it actually exists And the essence doesn't actually exist and it's all a void or a fever dream that we continue to live in And I too think I have the mind of Christ Or so I was told once in a book written thousands of years ago by multiple men Who I would hope were divinely inspired Or maybe in an era that we're in, I wanted for miracles to occur But these days it feels like a bad letdown Think of an album that you will love And it doesn't come out It more or less festers And they build a hype around it And then the day of it is released The results are very underwhelming And you feel like you just waited all that time for something that could never give you what you expected Or would have ever hoped for So the hype dies Much like a candle blowing in the wind And you forget all about it until the next time When they try to reprogram you to believe that the artist creating the next album Will be hopefully living up to what you always needed from them But they already lost their careers Either to ego or to a lack of belief in anything So they got strung out and shipped something to the executives And that's when you realize The industry is just a money making machine And passion dies when the dollar sign becomes more important than the reason for being there in the first place So I take a breath And I sit down And I sit and I ponder everything And here I am Looking into nothing Cause I'm going to set my phone down And continue this deep, pointless talk Trying to put on a facade of my realism Like I'm asked to read a pointless effort Some philosopher must have made that a thing to coin So another perspective and angle can be given towards this thing we don't understand called life What a very concerning and confusing state of consciousness we're in And I don't know if I'm able to balance the efforts here and me More so than my own personal healing and growth Than anything else I'll call this a diary entry I don't know if I'm speaking in rhythm But what is rhythm It's just a relative thing Beauty Music Whatever it is The eye of the beholder And most of us are just blinded by the poison in the air To really know if we're seeing what's really there I never really thought about Jesus Christ I never really thought about God And I asked myself about this man who did everything right and still wasn't enough for them Would I have wanted to know him Would I have wanted to be the one And I tried to nail those hands and feet Honestly Probably because that's what everybody that was supposed to be his loved ones did His friends murdered him I murdered him Without reason Unbelievable And I'm trying to ask him if he'll forgive me for that Because knowing who I know as Jesus now He's just a very good man And a very great God Because time does not promise us anything other than these seconds Thankfully, somehow, he lives in my heart I definitely did not lose every bit of energy I could have lost Due to the coldness of almost scorching winter Known as 2022, 2023 Whatever year it is But life is not always easy In fact, it's cold It's often dark and desolate And I guess my bones They don't feel like the fire shut up in them anymore I did not ask myself what the prophets ever did in a season of silence My season of rebellion has often been met with silence One in four years But I still wonder about the cross The old hill And the ruggedness of it I wonder how it felt To die willingly Knowing it was going to be the worst experience a human could ever face And even the gods can cry, right Well, that one sure did Tears of blood as he awaited What he would have to behold A cup of wrath poured out And that's not fair If he is God We did him wrong And if he wasn't, we kind of still did him wrong If Jesus was mad man, after all Then what does that say about human beings and how they treat the mentally ill We're shitty God help us all Our hearts are dark and futile Fuck this place
Submitted by Nargaroth — Jun 18, 2026
Fading lies Dying dreams Your disguise Set it free I feel the prick Tyranny This dark of trick Not turning back When I erase your hate Your betrayal was in vain Cruel act of violence You remain silent In the silence You have brought this to my door Judas failed his final war I will rise And purge your poison Watch it die Below the surface I see through you Beyond the failure The real You tried to kill It's the end of you Now your sickness dwells beneath Shattered godhead from the thief Your perfect dreams diseased Spitting out his broken teeth It's time you flee
Submitted by Nargaroth — Jun 18, 2026
Feeling so betrayed By the world around me Feeling so dismayed This world leaves me finding nothing Will there ever be the same? I'm so tired of these games Could we smother in the flames Find the peace within the gray Peace within the gray Feeling so naive By the way it's changing Shouldn't have to leave Don't change these surroundings Would it ever be the same? Wish they wouldn't kill my name Try to make me see Another life of misery The life of misery Waiting at the crossroads Feeling like I am abandoned Would it change a single thing? If I never went away I'd still feel you next to me Maybe tell me anything
Submitted by Nargaroth — Jun 18, 2026
Let not your heart be troubled Come to me, all who are weary And I will give you rest Turn my sorrow into joy Set the captives free The blood of the lamb reigns I'm alone and often weary I will run to the calvary My soul will shout in praise I will remain You have turned my sorrow into laughter Joy renewed I will never be able to Tell you how grateful I am I remain steadfast in the promise Light the way, illuminate Through the gates Through the morning every thought Behold the lamb The lamb of God Passover from death unto life No longer bound to this Grip of darkness From the highest of heavens He came to save our soul He washed me clean He paid my debt In the middle He maketh a table for me In the presence of my enemies Though I am broken I will not grow weary My joy is made complete Be still my soul Never relent Blessing overflows my soul How can I behold spirit light I'm still weighed down By the darkened arrow drawn I am redeemed From the fall He opened up to write in He died and gave his life as a ransom for many Victory is already set in stone Jehovah lives to make intercession Set the captives free Creator Lord Faith redeemed Let not your heart be troubled I am redeemed With an eternal promise Jesus reigns Jesus, I am redeemed Set the captives free
Submitted by Nargaroth — Jun 18, 2026
Set the world ablaze Redemptive power gone No value worth it's salt A breath brought unto none Human fear unbound Horror in the sound Unearthed as we've sought Addicts that it can cause Consciousness in caskets Now too gone it's tragic Workings of the deep Nightmare whispers sleep Self in sordid malevolent Forsaken in it's covenant Behold all the secrets To gaze without a care Turn the bloodstained pages To unveil the mystery Twined in obtuse thinking Thus suppressing many minds Open up the limbs of the petulance of past Our dreams are now Existent in an iconoclast Frightening insects see their friends To those who score the part Never seem to be A scorched severed trinity Reeking of anxiety I give no eye to design I've only came in paradigms The cloud connects to the source I'll be your discourse Empty the pill Climbing back into the night Scorched within unison Prop their needs a connector Sovereign but in so shall reigns They could never infiltrate Violate and obey Dualistic shame Find out all but nothing It's time our power is unleashed No real way to gauge But know I'll never be bled Open up the mind Entries are now exits To a new iconoclast Find it a deafening threat to those who Scorn the worms Worms observant of clear loyalty Blasphemy The sadness often I am dreaming out
Submitted by Nargaroth — Jun 18, 2026
Let's take a journey A destination beyond hell No stops along the way Life is but a fallacy Enjoy the view When nothing is true We built an empire It ends in a blaze Tear yourself apart Can't turn around No fucking exit It serves me well I'm pleased to show you All I have seen Between the brokenness No way to come clean Can I send for a ride home Past the point of dying Nothing left to say to you A whimper is my swan song What have we learned A lesson for a choke Become the fall out Deny yourself It's a cold step to the grave One foot in the final fight A whisper to a sigh Ending every bit of light You told me lies Said I was full of life A candle burns I embrace the winds of night Is it all I find Only misery in sight Let's take a journey A destination beyond hell No stops along the way Life is but a fallacy Enjoy the view When nothing is true We built an empire It ends in a blaze Tear yourself apart Can't turn around No fucking exit It serves me well I'm pleased to show you All I have seen Between the brokenness No way to come clean Can I send for a ride home Past the point of dying Nothing left to say to you A whimper is my swan song What have we learned A lesson for a choke Become the fall out Deny yourself It's a cold step to the grave One foot in the final fight A whisper to a sigh Ending every bit of light You told me lies Said I was full of life A candle burns I embrace the winds of night I'm fading of into a dark place And no one can even save me I'm fading off into embracing suicide And nothing will ever fix me I'm broken and I'm numb And all of this is gone Betray the heart of God Your lifeline a facade
Submitted by Nargaroth — Jun 18, 2026
Feeling the depression and the weight of the discretion and I know it's never going to let me go. I got a bunch of feelings but I know it's really silly so I've gotta let the motherfucka go. She would never love me, she would always be above me and I start to see the pattern in my life Betrayal is a bitch and I start to flip script, but I gotta turn perspective to the light And she's so lovely, the little devil's mocking, I think I hear her talking Don't come if we are rocking, it's never gonna be the same As I find my feet in flames and my fire burning with desire now I feel a dull and tired high on her little fucking lies, now I gotta see it through the night I never wanna walk away, guess there's nothing I can say I just wanna hold her till we collapse, hold her till we collapse, hold her till we collapse Relapse, I relapse, I relapse on the lights Cause when she's with me, my feelings always lifting My spirit's while we're fucking, I know it will now crush me I know it will now crush me, I'm starting to feel lovely Caught up in the burning, I'm caught up in not learning When I close my eyes I see her cry, now I gotta wonder why if it's past the time Cause now I feel a new disguise, and in between her fucking thighs there's where my face lies And I know that I'm going sane as it punches me insane inside of my fucking brain tonight In my brain tonight, in my fucking brain tonight, in my brain tonight, in my fucking brain tonight Don't wanna fight these feelings anymore, these feelings anymore, these feelings anymore, no I just wanna be the only one, the only one, the only one Can you tell me how to get to where I need to be with her First base, new place, gotta crash this party real quick I'm thinking with my dick, I'm not so slick All I know is the lust in my soul is controlling me from this bound I just wanna go one more round, thinking with my dick while I pound
Submitted by Nargaroth — Jun 18, 2026
Hypothetically speaking Just for an instance humor me Let's say that I was all omniscient And all omnipotent Then imagine I had to jot down all my feelings So perfectly in line with my character For the first time I'd probably be stumped I wouldn't know how to say anything The only pleasure in life Was knowing I'm not the only light The only solace I could find Was somewhere in your light And somewhere in those eyes Let's just pretend and let's just believe That maybe somehow this whole world was mine I'd burn it all and I'd throw away my salvation I'd put myself in hell If there was anyway to just know That maybe I'd feel what I'd feel with you The only pleasure in life Was knowing I'm not the only light The only solace I could find Was somewhere in your light And somewhere in those eyes
Submitted by Nargaroth — Jun 18, 2026