AND THEN THERE WAS GRAY
Do you see me looking at you through the window Do you feel my breath beyond the glass Do you see me staring at you through the iris I can tell it pulling at me I can see you thinking about me Maybe I'm just conjuring these thoughts Someone told me not to go there Someone told you not to talk Someone told you I was just insane Found it at the bottom line Never tried to redefine it The machine is always operating Feeding off the thoughts of the insane Now I see it's operating Souls without an end There's no doctor that can hold the medicine While I swallow it Just swallow it I can see it's complicated Lurking like a secret agent Venom in my mind Don't look for light around here You will not see it clear Now there's a picture here with me Lingered through my self esteem I know it isn't a dream Carving out my lungs Everything looks good inside This rope that was used By the devil in my mind Coming down at me Thee dark expelled from my lungs You know me so well Isn't this love You know me so well now I can feel it pulling at me I can see you thinking about me Maybe I'm just conjuring these thoughts I can feel it pulling at me I can see you thinking about me Maybe I'm just conjuring these thoughts Someone told you not to go there Someone told you not to talk Someone told you I was just insane Found it at the bottom line Never tried to redefine The machine is always operating Feeding off the thoughts of the insane Deranged
Submitted by Nargaroth — Jun 18, 2026
I'm in love Do I tell you Screw you Fucked in the rear view He's the man with a plan Coming for a little change Let's travel, I have blow Jealous for the little things Getting good to feel this way Jealous for the little things Getting good to feel this way Jealous for the little things Oh love you feel blow Marriage sex Mind fucked I wanna give it to you The best of sickness And sex I wanna show you how How the cocaine is Can it suck Can it suck like you Get it out of you He's the man with the plan Coming for a little change Let's travel, I have blow We're screwing into oblivion He's the plan with the plan I have blow Let's blow it to fractions Down on feral knees Whole mind fuck I am sober Whack a moloch World just leads to me I am sinful But I'm clean Fucking road just leads to me Fucking world just leads to me Fucking world just leads to me Fucking road just leads to me I am sinful But I'm clean
Submitted by Nargaroth — Jun 18, 2026
I feel lead down roads I can't explain The way that view Let down Roads This path I traveled As worth I'd watch time pass Proportions I'm counting crows inside My mind I'm looking at way The wingspan Glides on my timeline I'm counting the days Like a raven I fly within the order Do the math motherfucker It's so weirdly and strangely Disproportionate In the flames I'm burning fast Into the obscurity We are all just festering Inside our broken dreams Count the cost It's in my heart Count the stitches in my scars Keep my name revitalized Surely I am wearing thin It's sore We're all just actors in my hurt Wishing we could do it differently We're all just painting Pictures for the world to see But in that wishing well I would live to see it No I found the truth of it I'm churning out the torque Now simmering alive I finally see myself It's a brand new view A hymn true blue It's a brand new day To begin looking inward A path to something ruined Above and beyond my Human visions I am captivated by these Internalized wishes Internalized wishes Internalized I now see Everything that I feared Was inside of me It's maturity Only by the wayside Now I find the wings inside I am seeing Greater heights My people have died Beyond my eyes Behold the new light Behold the light Within my broken past The dark divine Behold new light Within my mind Behold new light Revitalize Behold new light Revitalize
Submitted by Nargaroth — Jun 18, 2026
Torrential The world has now Fallen to ruins The flesh is becoming A thing of the now Essential Sequential I know that we're sinking The flood has come in to devour us now The patterns I see In humanity We're losing our empathy The circle they drew The great machine The world is becoming unclean I'm losing I'm winning But somehow Forgiveness is only A forethought away I'm dying for nothing To watch it in these eyes Cause the something Just leads to decay Falling down Eclipse of the abyss Of our time A failure of mankind Devotion to something that needs to collapse The world is becoming more like a stained glass That we've hold in our hands We worship with eyes of death Dissent within this age of disinformation We're falling from grace as we march toward extinction Failure becoming the only sign of no relief Waiting for my absolution To show me the way Show me how I'd come From humanity to suffering The weight of the new world Is growing oh so quickly on me We're losing our empathy The circle they drew The great machine The world is becoming unclean I'm losing I'm winning But somehow Forgiveness is only A forethought away I'm dying for nothing To watch it in these eyes Cause the something Just leads to decay
Submitted by Nargaroth — Jun 18, 2026
I fear maybe that I'm your mark I wish I was straight on the edge You were more to me Than ever could have provided I am deficient in just your words You're the only calm I knew I live with a disease of loneliness And you helped me out With the sight of your glance In the few short moments Left for you Had the gun Trapped me from any thought I know I was a cunt for your mind I'm unworthy of sharing your air Hold your beautiful smile A wound in my heart If I could get you in a dream Before the blinding Said to the empty Now hold the door A hell for heaven on your porch I hurt Somewhere Only in your sorrow There it is I broke my bone In the throes I feel broken Damaged and lost How do I feel less invisible Your presence Was the only sign Of that beautiful Deface my face God cut it off I'd remove my skin Please take it as an offering You can wear it as a mask I'm sorry I'm sorry I disgusted you The feeling I have now Breaks me in I pretend But the more I bleed The more unworthy I feel I fucking hate you The way you make me feel I fucking need you I need the pain to not be real Need the pain Need the pain I need the pain to not be real
Submitted by Nargaroth — Jun 18, 2026
I feel comformed Remember my thoughts I can't hide I'm feeling fine And I feel that chill Mister winter I think of healing Coming clean I see that darkness in my mind A fork inside this heart of mine Mister winter Mister winter Mister winter Old mister winter Mister winter Can we turn the tides of snow It's cold and empty form But still the candle light glows I put myself and you Through the fold Wishing that the time Would pave A whiter scene Its in prayers Sinking down so low I find it hard To move through this Cold embrace of death Here life begins to change Into temperatures Of fragments and cold colors On this stage of life I can't define It not my patience anymore And I feel that chill Mister winter I think of healing Coming clean I see that darkness in my mind A fork inside this heart of mine Mister winter Mister winter Mister winter Mister winter Mister winter Mister winter Can we turn the tides of snow It's cold and empty form But still the candle light glows I put myself and you Through the fold Wishing that the time Would pave A whiter scene Its in prayers Sinking down so low I find it hard To move through this Cold embrace of death Here life begins to change Into temperatures Of fragments and cold colors On this stage of life Its the fear That I don't understand Repulsion At the ones you Lose sight of Pray for fear In this room Only grief Defined by Only ignorance And apathy The cruel society
Submitted by Nargaroth — Jun 18, 2026
I'm just a shell of me Another commodity She wants just what I'd need Love cost me melody I am sinking in All the past mistakes Sin was not on us Rewrite verses Fall downward I syncopate Collapsible creation No identity Burn my heart and burn my soul Buried in memory cold But anyways you're quiet Now down myself Don't deny it I'm turned in To endless end And lift the veil This isn't coming back Staring down into a failure Choke upon every failure Give me time to raise the roof But I'm seen invisible It'a just history A book I fear to read Versions of the dream You don't belong to me Don't belong to me You don't belong to me Burn my heart and Burn my soul Buried in a memory cold
Submitted by Nargaroth — Jun 18, 2026
I can't think too long I start dwelling The perks of being a sea monkey Well monkey see and sorrow just grows Sorrow just does I need you to remember To die in moments My view is fractal And my heart beats void of color The shades of night are everything I had to hurt by I can't guage the timelessness Passerby keeps eternity relevant I hope you know I'm angry Not at you but at myself I should have been somebody else But a cull of flight For another descent I can't fix us It's not a lack of trying Will you visit me In your conscience If I ever run out Of songs to sing I can only serenade This open room Four walls a chasm at heart I'll continue to shine My light doesn't matter anymore I wish I could come through But it meant jack nothing to you But it's empty I lost you Hope you continue the shine Angel light not mine A cold void A cold drink of the void I wish I could come through To death grips Carrion hope Just the one with the broken smile Just the one with the broken smile Just the one with the broken smile The sea was a little obtuse Twelve Twelve long minutes Twelve minutes Twelve minutes too long Twelve seasons Twelve seasons past My swansong Diatribes irrelevance It meant nothing All hollow All uninspired All way too long All not long enough Way too late Still too early Inconvenient time Inconvenient timing of The breath and a silence Somewhere Suddenly beyond Somewhere between Life and death The air and a joke Only a punch line Broken smile Oh look I'm still dancing But no one shows up to laugh Will you hold me in your Conscience If I run out of songs to sing I can only serene this Open wounds Four walls and a chasm In my chest I hope you continue to shine
Submitted by Nargaroth — Jun 18, 2026
Save my soul I'm sinking in the sadness I have fallen Into all the madness And I'm running from myself Someone save me from my hell And I'm drowning in the madness Created in my head Nothing more left to say Carry me down Rebuild me now I'm running away From the things That shackled me to my mistakes I'll cling to my cross You can have the world I once foresaw as lost I'll pick up my cross Cause I've counted all the cost And I'll keep on Fighting when It all seems lost It all seems lost It is not yet time To falter My friend We just never want I'm not losing myself So I'll rise above it all I'll cling to something More than I'd journey Either way The run Not far to go I'll keep pushing Light save my soul I'm running away From the things That shackled me to my mistakes I'll cling to my cross You can have the world I once foresaw as lost I'll cling to my cross Cause I've counted all the cost And I'll keep on Fighting when It all seems lost It all seems lost Fight until the pain Becomes a weapon Of the light
Submitted by Nargaroth — Jun 18, 2026
Rediscover Black on white tips The rush of a burn Couldn't stay up all night Friday in winter Do I have a choice Shining I'll throw up At the sight that we had But we have no benefit I'll never love again To you I'm just a man But to me you were cleansing Try to hold the canvas again I can't hardly paint I just wanted you to feel The love I felt from you Put the misery On the void I'm in now But those days Enclosed A picture left Better you and I I lost my faith I never wanted Eden broke when you left Was something insignificant Because the days are darker The daydream hurts The daydream hurts Hoping Only hope to make a fool All I ever wanted was to love Again But you cut the rope In the absence I'm scared Scared I'll never smile against I'll bet you think this song is about you Well it is Whenever day Feels like fate Pushed the pain inside A gray nothing Buried in work It only hurt when Id remember It only hurts in November through December And then ten other months To consider I'm sorry for everything Why was I unfit It's hard to erase When I only I have what I remember Starting in November
Submitted by Nargaroth — Jun 18, 2026
Missed the point of all of it We used to be holy inside But now the world Has gone to shit Nothing else to do But live in it This moment has become disgrace Disgrace Take soul from disgrace Help me see and live again The path we made Cleanse this World is coming down Like a live bomb ticking I can't seem to see past myself But I know that the world keeps spinning Everything is catching fire I don't want to stoke others fire We have become something much greater than what we used to be But without any sort of empathy and compassion We need by the means We keep deteriorating Until we find a change This is not an institute It's this rhetoric unglued World's coming to an end When it's our downfall I will hold the divine close to me It's the winds Right close to the storm I will witness rebirth I will hold the divine close to me It's the winds Right close to the storm I will never be back From the evil of the evil of the world I will never held back by the evil of this earth I will storm this place with the light Inferno guides my way with Inferno of the day of the coming one risen sun Therefore Principle of truth and reality it is he who created it With hope in his hands I will rise with the others and my sisters and brothers As we soon become the Christ Don' conform and run Won't conform or run
Submitted by Nargaroth — Jun 18, 2026
Raining again in my mind Calming the storm Inside I find Darkened clouds echo inside Retrospect blinding Sadness I find Will you remember me Slip to the ending Will you regret me Cause it's hard to face the end And now I'm struggling to see What it all means I break myself in two I hope we'll meet again This end is only temporary I'm drowning in the memories It's gray outside today I'm looking at this canvas It's leading me astray The end is coming quickly As you walk into the fray I cleanse my hands from anguish As time just slips away Time just slips away Growing colder everyday Cause it's hard to face the end And now I'm struggling to see What it all means I break myself in two I hope we'll meet again This end is only temporary
Submitted by Nargaroth — Jun 18, 2026